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Before & After Universal Medicine – My Bulimia Story: from Self-Worth Issues to Self-Love
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Before & After Universal Medicine – My Bulimia Story: from Self-Worth Issues to Self-Love

By Aimee Edmonds · On June 5, 2015

This is the story of my Bulimia which started back 21 years ago – after the time when I could still recall the freedom and joy I felt being in my own body as a very young child; still recall the way I was running, jumping and just playing. It was after the time when I remembered wearing clothes I really liked and the feeling of the texture on my skin.

It was after the time when there was an ease and playfulness, an acceptance, as I expected nothing from my body, which at the time felt lovely and open and where there were no thoughts of “you’re not up to scratch”.

For whatever reason, this started to change and this is where the story of my bulimia began…

Aimee Edmonds | Age 3

Age 3

Aimee Edmonds | Age 4

Age 4

Aimee Edmonds | Age 6

Age 6

​Not Being Good Enough

Very early in life the thoughts of ‘not being good enough’ started coming in, becoming more frequent and intense from the age of nine. I experienced learning difficulties with Math at school, which I found a constant struggle: these were accompanied by emotional issues and the persistent thoughts of ‘not being good enough’ continued into my teenage years.

By the end of High School my boyfriend, with whom I had been in a committed relationship for 2 years, broke up with me before leaving for University. I could feel how he was freeing himself up to check out what else was ‘out there’. I was devastated as I had always felt this was the man I would be with forever, and the thoughts of not being good enough again came to the fore.

Not long after he left I remember driving to work one day and a thought came into my head – “Right, instead of feeling hurt and rejected this is your goal: go make yourself, no matter what it takes, into the best woman, daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend material, granddaughter, niece, employee…” the list went on. “And while you’re at it, focus on getting into the Police Academy”.

I remember breathing a sigh of relief and saying “Right, let’s get to it, something to focus my energy on”. Unbeknownst to me at the time, I was really creating my very own self-imposed reinforced fortress.

Aimee Edmonds | Age 12

Age 12

Aimee Edmonds | Age 17

Age 17

Aimee Edmonds | Age 18

Age 18

​​Mastering How ‘to do’ Bulimia……

Without ever remembering seeing anything on how ‘to do’ bulimia, or knowing anyone who was bulimic or who had any kind of eating disorder that I was aware of, somehow all the information was there for me in my thoughts – go here, buy this and do it this way.

Purging by regurgitating was unsuccessful for me from the start, leading to feelings of failure, so I turned to laxatives. At the time I didn’t realise my body had always suffered from dairy and gluten intolerance and had no need to ever take a laxative, but this I decided was the easiest and most definite way to rid myself of food and achieve my goal of being the best I could be.

Food was constantly on my mind; it did not matter if I was out with friends or playing sport, the thought of food and when to eat would be there always. I would go to a different chemist or grocery store each time to buy more laxatives so as to not be found out. This was my big secret. I would hide food to eat later. I felt completely in control of this aspect of my life. Because my family was so used to my having irritable bowel, no one ever suspected anything.

From the outside it looked like I had it all together. I worked a 10-12 hour day, starting and finishing with hours of relentless exercise; taking aerobics classes and pumping iron at the gym, playing all kinds of competitive sport and then after all this, running kilometres a day. I could keep going like this for 17 hours a day, never showing how exhausted I really was. On the inside I felt scared, hurt and lonely.

Unfortunately at my workplace there was one toilet, not outside away from everyone, but right in the middle of where everyone worked. I would be in excruciating pain after taking up to 30 laxatives at a time, popping even more after each visit to the toilet, all the time holding on for as long as I could so that the other employees didn’t suspect anything.

The drive to purge myself of food and to be successful in every facet of my life far outweighed the pain.

If a workmate made a comment like “Gee, you go to your bag a lot”, I would just say I was getting chewing gum to hide the fact that I was actually grabbing whatever laxative relief I had.

This behaviour continued for a year as I learned to master how to do bulimia by pretending I had eaten on my way home from sport so that my family wouldn’t expect me to eat dinner. I would sometimes buy takeaway and hide it so that if I did feel hungry during the night, I could control how much I ate or didn’t eat, and could do it in secret without anyone watching. I didn’t like eating home cooked meals as I then felt guilty if I purged afterwards because it was ‘real’ food compared to what I would buy for myself.

I didn’t gorge myself on ice cream, junk food, chocolates or lollies, but I mainly ate what I perceived to be more ‘healthier’ options at the time, like packet noodles, rice crackers and sultanas.

As my obsession with bulimia intensified, my family started to get suspicious. With the lack of food being absorbed by my system I was getting little nutrition and I was becoming very vague and irresponsible, particularly when driving. I would drive really fast, preoccupied with my obsessions with food and what I needed to do to be successful that day.

As a result, one day I pulled out in front of a car and we had a collision at the end of my street. This gave me a fright and I felt bad that I had caused injury to the other woman and damaged her car, but it really didn’t bring me to a stop.

Not long after this accident, my obsessive way of living in order to cover up my bulimic behaviour finally got exposed. I was taken twice to a counsellor for bulimia – which did not help at all, as all the focus was on my family’s feelings and not truly about what was going on for me. There was no criticism or judgment, as my family was genuinely concerned and did their best to support me, but they struggled to understand (as did I) how I could do what I was doing to myself.

So as to relieve my family of the worry, I swept my problems under the carpet and for a short time stopped my obsessive behaviour with bulimia and over-exercising.

Aimee Edmonds (Age 30 | 2 Years BEFORE Universal Medicine)

Age 30 | 2 Years BEFORE Universal Medicine

Aimee Edmonds | Age 30 (2 Years BEFORE Universal Medicine)

Age 30 | 2 Years BEFORE Universal Medicine

​​Self-worth Issues and the Return of my Bulimia

In time, as my self-worth issues had never been addressed, the bulimia returned and to my great relief this time I found myself able to purge by making myself vomit, which meant that I could cut down on the laxatives and could bring the food up before it even had the chance to be digested. This became a highly sophisticated and organised process as there were so many things to take into account. I would organise the toilet or shower like you would set out your dressing table to paint your nails. I would take into consideration how quiet I would need to be in the process of throwing up in relation to who was around and how much in proximity they were.

I was never truly present with anyone as I was continually obsessed with my bulimia and what I would eat and when and where I would be able to throw it all up again.

I felt like a big fake and was so ashamed of what I was doing, and how much food and money I was wasting. But still I could not see any way of stopping – I honestly thought this would be my life forever.

This continued off and on for six or seven years. There were times when I would go for months without feeling this way but then something would happen, something that I did not want to feel or talk about and I would go back to the perceived relief of purging – something that was just mine that I could do to myself, no-one else could. Looking back I can see that my bulimia, and so much of what I felt, related to the self-worth issues that I continued to ignore.

The behaviours and symptoms of my bulimia eating disorder at the time were:

  • Withdrawal from close friends, family and intimate gatherings
  • Overdoing and pushing myself in all areas of life including exercise, sport, work and study
  • Long bouts of time spent alone in my room, bathroom, toilet or outside away from others
  • Avoidance of family mealtimes
  • Drinking copious amounts of water in order to fill myself up and to help with bringing up the food
  • The frequent consumption of laxatives, mints or chewing gum
  • The shedding of weight, red eyes and flushed face.

Over the years (during which time I got married and had two sons), those intense feelings that drove me to my bulimia eased and changed to a so called ‘milder’ version of not feeling good enough as a wife and mother, along with the juggling of everything that goes with work and family life.

However, even though I had an adoring and devoted husband who has always been there for me, I kept pushing him away as I could not love myself – and as such, although some of my behaviour was less intense, my self-worth issues regardless were never far from the surface.

Universal Medicine – The Turning Point in My Life With Bulimia

Over the years I had looked into many different healing modalities such as Kinesiology, Reiki, tarot card reading, psychics and Aura-Soma colour healing, as well as having deep tissue and lomi lomi massages and seeing various chiropractors in order to deal with my bulimia and the underlying feelings of never being good enough etc. However, no matter what therapy I tried or which practitioner I saw, all of them made me feel like I could never do this on my own and I always needed something outside of me to change.

After years of seeking support, with changes that were at best temporary or providing momentary relief, the true change and turning point in my life came when I attended a Heart Chakra 1 workshop with Universal Medicine, presented by Serge Benhayon.

The difference with this, relative to all the other therapies I had tried, was that Serge Benhayon was presenting another way of being, based on his own livingness, a self-caring, self-loving way of living, all presented in a gentle non-imposing way.

I started to consider that the true healing for my bulimia and self-worth issues was not about fixing anything outside of myself, but looking within.

I left feeling: “Wow, could it be that I am not just capable of healing my own hurts, but also that I am already everything I have thought I needed to strive to be?”

In his presentations, Serge Benhayon shared simple tools which helped me reconnect with my body – simple techniques like feeling my toes in my shoes, doing the gentle breath meditation and being present with myself throughout my day.

Putting what was presented into practice gave me an opportunity to stop and arrest the momentum I was in – the relentless and punishing drive to ‘improve’ myself based on my belief that I was never good enough. These simple techniques allowed me the space to make different, more loving choices for myself and begin to mark a true end to the cycle of my bulimic behaviour.

Learning to be Self-Loving

Six years after being introduced to the teachings of Universal Medicine, the effects of my bulimia eating disorder and the thoughts that so totally dominated and controlled my life are no longer there. I now take care of and appreciate my body and am able to tune into the tenderness that I now know is innately within us all.

This means I am now eating and exercising in a way that honours my body instead of punishing and pushing it – fully accepting how I am feeling and what my limitations are.

Breaking the cycle of my bulimia, the self-harm and not feeling good enough and dealing with my underlying self-worth issues, has allowed me to love myself and therefore be able to let others in.

I now know that I am the amazing, beautiful and precious woman that I have always been but had lost sight of. And that true beauty comes from within.

Aimee Edmonds | After Universal Medicine Aimee Edmonds | After Universal Medicine
AFTER 7 Years with Universal Medicine | Aimee Edmonds (Age 39)

This new love of self has allowed me to blossom, unfold and open and be able to share my feelings and myself with my husband, children, friends, family, clients and society. People around me have noticed and commented on how much more of me I am and what a joy I am to have around.

This turning point in my life and this turnaround is nothing short of a miracle. A miracle that Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon made possible through the teachings of the importance of self-care that then allows us to be self-loving.

By Aimee Edmonds, Burnaby, Vancouver

You may also be interested in:
Bulimia and Laxative Dependence: Healing my Old Ways
Before and After: Kylie Connors On Finding Her True Weight
Universal Medicine Helped to Heal Bulimia

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Aimee Edmonds

Moved to Canada with my beautiful husband and two gorgeous young men a year ago. Gone from hot, sunny beaches and palm trees to snowcapped mountains and pine trees. Enjoying meeting people and exploring and learning about this country. I love understanding and looking deeper into what is truly going on in the world. My favourite things are working in groups, hiking, taking photos of nature, experimenting with recipes and Skyping family and friends.

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694 Comments

  • Deborah McKay says: June 10, 2015 at 10:04 am

    What an amazing turnaround Aimee and it’s gorgeous to see and feel how loving you now are towards yourself which is such a gift for yourself and those around you.

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  • vanessamchardy says: June 10, 2015 at 2:18 am

    I have to say what struck me is the thoughts being there of how to do ‘bulimia’ because I can honesty say I would never think of using laxatives, which I am now aware of many bulimics use to control their weight. When does anyone talk about laxatives? Really? in conversations, and as a young person – I don’t think so. Our thoughts are not our own that Serge has shared just feels very pertinent here, that we are literally fed our thoughts and fed what and how to do something so damaging to our body speaks volumes about the truth of what is really at play here.

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  • Sally Scott says: June 9, 2015 at 7:41 pm

    Aimee, thank you for sharing your story, the thoughts about not being good enough can take us anywhere and your self abusive story involving bulimia is one many women take. We are truly blessed to have Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine shining a light, a very bright light, on how to love ourselves and thus as you have discovered, our lives completely turn around and we can love ourselves rather than abuse ourselves.

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  • Cherise Holt says: June 9, 2015 at 7:31 pm

    I can also comment on what a joy you are Aimee, thank you for this amazingly insightful and beautiful blog. There are so many points that I can relate to myself, punishing myself and my body being one of them. I love your photos and this moment to really appreciate and celebrate the changes you have made in your life, the beautiful man and young boys in your life are absolutely blessed by your love for yourself and then for them equally. Inspirational! thank you.

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  • marcia owen says: June 9, 2015 at 6:41 pm

    Thank you Aimee for sharing so intimately with us. As a young teenage girl I also experienced bulimia for about 1-2 years. There were such extreme feelings and emotions that I did not have the tools or understanding to deal with them appropriately. I can totally relate to not feeling ‘good enough’ and the self worth issues that dominated my whole sense of self for many years until I too came across the work and presentations of Serge Benhayon.

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    • Aimee Edmonds says: June 29, 2015 at 11:40 am

      Marcia, this is something I remember as well – “There were such extreme feelings and emotions that I did not have the tools or understanding to deal with them appropriately.” Imagine if we were encouraged to listen to our bodies and feel all our feelings, from when we are young and that be the focus before learning anything else? Like hearing very young children being totally honest and saying ‘no’ if something doesn’t feel right to them.

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      • Lucy Dahill says: October 2, 2015 at 7:21 am

        Those extreme emotions that come up during adolescence and the onset of puberty need to be understood and supported in a way that we have not quite done as yet. It is not common practice to encourage a relationship with your feelings and a deeper understanding of reactions. Also how food can influence the thoughts that then come, rather there is an acceptance that Pre-menstrual tension is dealt with through the large consumption of sugar, chocolate and ice cream, which from my own experience makes everything 10 times worse!!

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  • Elizabeth McCann says: June 9, 2015 at 5:45 pm

    Aimee, the openess and honesty of your sharing will help to bring this very debilitating condition out into the open, while at the same time bringing the awareness that it is the underlying cause of eating disorders that need to be addressed, before healing can occur.

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    • Fiona Cochran says: June 11, 2015 at 5:25 am

      Yes Elizabeth, it is only with dealing with the cause of our illnesses that we can truly heal, we often spend so much time focusing on the illness or dis-ease itself we fail to look at what got us there in the first place.

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  • Steve Matson says: June 9, 2015 at 2:02 pm

    Aimee your story will be inspiration for others with not just eating disorders but the whole list of things that people try to be more by being less to themselves. How insidious is ‘Not being good enough’.

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    • Samantha England says: April 12, 2016 at 12:59 pm

      ‘Not feeling good enough’ is another epidemic we have as a society yet to admit.

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  • Joe Minnici says: June 9, 2015 at 12:13 pm

    That was a great article Aimee and the photos say it all, a very remarkable transition and well done on connecting to your inner beauty

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  • Sharon Gavioli says: June 9, 2015 at 4:33 am

    Aimee what an incredible transformation and experience of our innate ability to heal. Your story needs to be shared with the many people who are struggling with food issues that may also be due to a lack of self-worth.

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  • Julie Snelgrove says: June 8, 2015 at 3:12 pm

    Wow Aimee a super honest and open account of the choices you were making and the choices you are now making because of your willingness to heal. I was interested in the time when a solution came to you in how to deal with the hurts and lack of self worth and how you later thought this was going to be your life. I remember times in my life when in a low period that I also could see no other way. It is therefore a miracle that the inspiration of another, Serge Benhayon, who is simply living with care and love towards himself can help facilitate these changes in our choices that we then make for ourselves. Thank you for sharing.

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  • David Nicholson says: June 8, 2015 at 3:09 pm

    Aimee having just read an article on what inspiration is I can certainly say the photos and the way you now live is deeply inspiring especially the changes you have made. What I also get is that with many other modalities the reliance is on something outside yet what you’ve shared today is that the true healing is coming back to everything you are and always have been. This has also been my experience of Universal Medicine from the first workshop I attended.

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  • Anna says: June 8, 2015 at 6:12 am

    Aimee thanks for such an honest and open sharing of your battle with bulimia. I too battled with bulimia for a short period in my life, I was deeply hurting and felt unworthy so I began this self-destructive cycle to distract me from what I was truly feeling. Thanks to Universal Medicine and the love and true care they share with everyone, I too was able to heal self worth issues and old hurts. Your journey from self worth to self-love is an amazing story and will support and inspire many others dealing with similar issues.

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  • Sandra Dallimore says: June 8, 2015 at 5:48 am

    Aimee, I too lived with Bulimia for years and reading your blog made me realise that it started at around 18 when I broke up with my first serious boyfriend. It totally destabilised me as I’d put everything into this relationship making me happy and thought we would be married. I had such low self-worth back then and turned to food to console myself and developed a cycle of binge eating, vomiting and starving myself through crazy diets. Even though I stopped these behaviours by my early 30s, the low self worth was still driving my choices, until I started addressing it through healing sessions and attending Universal Medicine workshops and events. And it is now that i can appreciate just how far I’ve come…thank you so much for sharing your story.

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    • Bianca says: June 8, 2015 at 4:04 pm

      Yes Sandra I agree, thank you Aimee for sharing your very inspiring story. Thank you too Sandra for bringing the honesty and healing of your experience too.

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      • Cherise Holt says: June 9, 2015 at 7:33 pm

        I can appreciate that honesty is such an important key to our healing, for an amazing woman like Aimee to have lived with such shame around her (secretive) illness to now be sharing it far and wide is a pure miracle which brings healing and the opportunity of choosing more self-loving ways for all of us.

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  • Sandra Dallimore says: June 8, 2015 at 5:31 am

    Aimee, the photos of you at 30 and now tell the story…wow, look at you now – your gorgeous smile lights up a room! It’s important that we realise that Bulimia is not the problem as you know, that’s just the means to an end. You could have gone with drugs or alcohol to not feel the hurts and lack of self worth – it’s just a different form of self-abuse and way of not feeling what is going on. You are a walking everyday miracle for taking the steps to heal and come out the other end as the beautiful woman you are…and have always been.

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    • Aimee Edmonds says: July 17, 2015 at 2:22 pm

      Thank you Sandra! Yes I agree its very important to look deeper into what is actually going on when someone is being self-abusive in any way.
      There is a very big stigma around eating disorders, cutting, drug taking etc of being something so extreme that is put out there as being foreign and far fetched and non-relatable… however, if we bring it back to that it can come from a lack of love and true care, hurt, lack of self worth, self loathing etc… how non-relatable is that now to so many in society?
      What is it when we overeat, push ourselves, keep going when we are exhausted, go flog our body till it can’t move anymore?

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  • Fiona Pierce says: June 8, 2015 at 5:25 am

    Thank you Aimee for sharing the detail of how bulimia can be, how much it affects every aspect of life, and how you truly healed it. It’s beautiful to see the real joy and strength in your eyes in the current photos.

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  • Simone ellis says: June 8, 2015 at 4:25 am

    Wow Aimee what a powerful story of transformation which asks you to heal self worth issues.

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  • Anne-Marie O Donnell says: June 8, 2015 at 4:05 am

    Thank you Aimee for sharing so openly your experiences around bulimia. Universal Medicine has brought through a depth of healing to so many by shining a light on our relationship with food and many other substances that are used to abuse and suppress the many hurts that we all carry. No other healing modalitie or therapy teaches us that we are already enough, that we have a magnificence and wholeness already within us and that there is nothing wrong with the true us. This is groundbreaking and you are testament to just how powerful this is. The joy and tenderness of how you now live shines so brightly from your gorgeous photos.

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  • Kerstin Salzer says: June 8, 2015 at 3:18 am

    Aimee, this is such an honest sharing about how you were able to deal with your illness. Thank you very much.

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  • Gyl says: June 8, 2015 at 1:24 am

    Such deeply honest and open blogs like these are deeply powerful as they address the root cause of the illness or disease – and don’t look for solutions to try and fix it, nor say it’s something you’ll have to live with for the rest of your life, this is not true and giving your power away. What I also deeply appreciate is that it has made me realise I still have a control issue with food.

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  • Gyl says: June 8, 2015 at 1:18 am

    Dear Aimee, what a powerful and ground breaking blog – this says it all and answers the question the medical professions have been going round in circles with for years – ” as my self-worth issues had never been addressed, the bulimia returned”. If we don’t address the root cause of an illness or disease – which as you have shared stems from emotions – then it will never be truly healed – only masked over, buried deeper to surface and return one day – and on the cycle continues. This article should be compulsory training reading for every medical professional from councillors, to doctors and students. And an amazing article for parents, school children and other people who may suffer bulimia, eating disorders or lack of self worth issues – really for all.

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    • Christoph Schnelle says: June 25, 2015 at 5:36 pm

      What I experienced in my life is nothing like the bulimia but I also kept myself busy – in my case with thinking – in order not to feel what is really going on. Dealing with our emotions can take up a very big proportion of our day.

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  • adam warburton says: June 7, 2015 at 7:31 pm

    Aimee, this is a super courageous blog and one all men and women need to read. Thank you deeply.

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    • Aimee Edmonds says: June 10, 2015 at 9:52 am

      Thank you Adam, I absolutely agree. Stories like these and many many others on this blogsite can not be kept to just the author and people closest to them… they need to be shared because their ‘realness’ is what humanity is asking for.

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  • Melissa Fox says: June 7, 2015 at 6:52 pm

    Isn’t it amazing how something outside of ourselves can lead us to not feeling ‘enough’ and the way we choose to react to it can lead to us being even further away from ourselves. It’s beautiful to see you absolutely shining in your photos now, and how choosing to love and care for yourself has brought you back to being all of you.

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  • Shami Duffy says: June 7, 2015 at 4:55 pm

    Aimee, I am amazed by how you have been able to turn your life around and you look so full and vibrant in the photos. You are a great role model for any one who struggles with this condition to know and to see that there is another way.

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  • Anna S says: June 7, 2015 at 4:21 pm

    “I started to consider that the true healing for my bulimia and self-worth issues was not about fixing anything outside of myself, but looking within.” this is so relatable for many things, we are constantly looking outside of ourselves to fix something when really the answer is inside us

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    • Gyl says: June 8, 2015 at 1:26 am

      So true Anne, when really the answer lies within.

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    • Simone ellis says: June 8, 2015 at 4:39 am

      Great reminder Anna S I still find myself trying to fix the outside at times with out addressing what is really going on within me. Addressing what is going on within at times can be really challenging and I have heard these words many times well before Universal Medicine. But the difference is that when it’s presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal medicine it is presented with so much more understanding as to why and also that within you is something extraordinary, it is presented with absolute truth and love and you know it’s the way. The way of living your extraordinary love from within you.

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    • Aimee Edmonds says: June 10, 2015 at 9:57 am

      Yes Anna, really it could be like a neon sign in front of us, when we start looking for something to fix us – ‘how am I?’

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    • Raymond Karam says: June 26, 2015 at 5:25 am

      Thank you, yes Anna S, the self responsibility of what we can do within.

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  • Elaine Arthey says: June 7, 2015 at 4:11 pm

    A beautifully written blog. Thank you Aimee.

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  • Michelle McWaters says: June 7, 2015 at 4:11 pm

    Aimee you simply shine and radiate the love that you are and look so much more joyful and vital than in the earlier photos. To share your story – to let others know that it is not only possible to come back from depression, self harm and deep lack of self worth to what is perceived as ‘normal , but to go beyond that normal, accelerating past it to something the vast majority of people haven’t re-accessed – namely the gorgeous beauty they were born with but have lost connection to.

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  • Hannah Morden says: June 7, 2015 at 4:06 pm

    Thank you Aimee – We know what feels right and wrong in our bodies, and when it gets out of hand, we try to find something to fix it – usually some sort of solution. But as you have discovered – it isn’t about fixing the problem, but understanding what is behind it.
    I too went through years of abusing my body in some way – starvation, bulimia, binging, laxatives – but I never felt like they were the issues – because the common thread was the way I felt about myself. Universal Medicine helped me to understand that and why it is so important that we understand our bodies and value ourselves.

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  • Susan Lee says: June 7, 2015 at 3:45 pm

    You offer such healing to so many with your beautiful blog, Aimee. I feel that there are many in the world who may not have bulimia as such but who like me can relate to much of the behaviour that you describe and of not feeling enough in the world. I have an obsession with food which dictates so much of my day – it sometimes feels that it is always there at the back of my mind like a constant niggle. I realise that this is not a healthy relationship with food and as I build a more loving and intimate relationship with myself the attraction of food lessens.

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  • Mariette Reinek says: June 7, 2015 at 3:15 pm

    Reading the blog again and also a lot of the comments, it just made me realize that as a humanity, we all in fact have a food issue/disorder. When you look at the supermarket what is offered, the amount of food that we eat, the fact that obesity is over the roof, young girls who are on diets etc. We are quite lost when it comes to food. Thank you for Universal Medicine in showing the path and reflecting the truth.

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  • Janet Williams says: June 7, 2015 at 3:00 pm

    Thank you, Aimee. This blog is so powerful because you write from your lived experience, and share the key to healing the hurt that caused your eating disorder. Lack of self worth is endemic across the world, and plays out in many varied behaviours. Universal Medicine has truly helped me to get to the root cause of this issue and this has been life changing for myself, as it has been for you and thousands of others.

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  • Mary Adler says: June 7, 2015 at 2:29 pm

    This is a very powerful article Aimee and shines a light on the harm that can be caused by a feeling of lack of self-worth. Your story of how you tried every option ‘out there’ to try and solve the problem didn’t work but on your very first meeting and listening to Serge Benhayon you found the answer waiting inside you to start to heal the self-harm of bulimia.

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  • Esther Auf der Maur says: June 7, 2015 at 1:59 pm

    Dear Aimee, thank you for sharing so honestly and in detail how life with bulimia was for you. It is such a hidden illness because people who suffer from it feel very ashamed and do everything humanly possible to keep it secret. I suffered from it for many years myself too. And when I was in it, I did not know how I would ever break out from this vicious cycle. Only when finding Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon was I able to start to truly heal my lack of self-worth and total lack of confidence, which was underlying my bulimia as well.

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    • Michelle McWaters says: July 15, 2015 at 2:53 pm

      Hearing your story and that of Aimee’s makes me wonder how many other people are suffering acutely from this illness in secret, too ashamed to speak up about it. To publicly express that this was the case for you will support so many others to start addressing their issues too. Thank you.

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  • Simon Williams (@simonjcwilliams) says: June 7, 2015 at 1:56 pm

    This is a very powerful story Aimee, and thank you for sharing it with us. Initially I wondered if I would relate to this as I’ve not had anything like Bulimia in my life. However, I have had many secret behaviours of one sort or another as I am sure we all have. Sneaking biscuits as a kid, a bit more alcohol that I don’t want people to see at Uni, or eating things my family disapprove of as an adult. The feelings of shame that come through from these little secret behaviours is the most debilitating thing about them… and like you its through more self acceptance that I can let go of the need to keep it hidden and learn to be more myself.

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  • Katerina Nikolaidis says: June 7, 2015 at 1:22 pm

    This is an amazing blog Aimee. What struck me in particular was the question you asked yourself after coming across Universal Medicine — that not only are you capable of healing your own hurts, but that you already are everything you longed to be.

    How utterly crazy that we live in a world that constantly implies the opposite, that we need to be better, more of something, and that we’re never enough.

    Your story is very inspiring and should be shared with as many people as are willing to read this and see that there is absolutely another way, a way that is about honouring our bodies, honouring our feelings, our delicate natural ways and that we are more than enough just as we are. How the world would simply transform if en masse we connected to this truth and lived it as you share here. That’s something to focus and ‘strive’ for 🙂

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    • kerstin Salzer says: August 9, 2015 at 5:21 pm

      Katerina, you have well expressed the essence Aimee is bringing to the world and I totally agree this should be read by a big amount of people in order to make more public that there is another way.

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  • Elodie Darwish says: June 7, 2015 at 7:59 am

    The picture of you now Aimee says it all. You are radiant! Whilst this particular type of self abuse is not something I have experienced, I have definitely felt the lack of self worth rule my life. I’ve also had that voice in my head say ‘right, it’s time to do this this and this’. All to avoid feeling what is really going on. It will always catch up with you, and I too feel grateful for coming across Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon who have simply just shown me that there is another way. If you deal with your stuff, life get’s easier. It’s a no brainer, but it is a choice, and sometimes, when we’re stuck in our patterns of misery, it can be hard to break the comfort of that.

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  • Vicky Cooke says: June 7, 2015 at 6:12 am

    What you have written is very honest and I am sure something many can relate to. When I was in my teens I used to monitor what I ate only having either really low calorie things, chewing gum or toast and would also take laxatives. It became clearer later on in my life that the reason I did this was because I felt I did not have any control or say in my life; from a young child that used to be really outspoken I ended up feeling I could not do in life what I really wanted (especially career wise); but my food, that I could control! I eventually sorted my food out but still didn’t honour myself and what I felt completely. What Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine present is really needed and for absolutely everyone. For me it has helped me to let go of all I am not, all old ideals, beliefs and patterns that I have lived and let run me to return back to who I really am. And I am now doing the job that feels so right for me, I am now listening, honouring and responding to what I feel is true. I loved what you wrote here “Wow, could it be that I am not just capable of healing my own hurts, but also that I am already everything I have thought I needed to strive to be?”

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  • Josephine Bell says: June 7, 2015 at 5:58 am

    Aimee I loved reading your honest blog about bulimia and seeing the amazing transformation in your photos. A long time ago when I was in my twenties I had food issues too and I remember the misery of that self-imposed and obsessive prison. The power of what is on offer through the simple techniques offered by Universal Medicine, particularly the practice of self-love is nothing short of miraculous, as your story shows. But you are the one who was willing to turn your life around and your sharing is a gift to many people.

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    • Samantha England says: April 12, 2016 at 12:57 pm

      Yes Josephine, how amazing would it be to see the techniques offered by Universal Medicine used in Eating Disorder clinics across the world – now this would be something truly worthwhile, beneficial and healing for all involved.

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  • Golnaz Shariatzadeh says: June 7, 2015 at 5:47 am

    Reading through your blog Aimee I could feel the imprisoning effect of the lack of self worth and all that we bring into our life to deal with that. Thank you for sharing your story and the turn around for you to know that beauty comes from within and that you had only lost sight of the amazing, beautiful and precious woman that you have been all along. What a great inspiring insight.

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    • Helen Elliott says: July 16, 2015 at 3:34 pm

      I too ‘could feel the imprisoning effect of the lack of self worth’ in this blog Golnaz and that is what makes it so relatable because even if I have not experienced bulimia I have certainly abused my body in many ways because of my lack of self worth. It has only been in addressing the root causes of this since attending Universal Medicine presentations that I have started to heal and appreciate what I have to offer and that that is enough. Such a relief to let go of the constant striving for perfection.

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  • Rachel Andras says: June 7, 2015 at 5:20 am

    Wow Aimee this is absolutely amazing and so supportive not only to people struggling with bulimia, but to everybody as it beautifully describes how to connect to our true self worth. This is an awesome testimony, thank you for sharing!!

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  • vanessamchardy says: June 7, 2015 at 5:18 am

    A very honest sharing Aimee and one that many many people will relate too, what is significant is that you no longer are bulimic… anyone I know who has gone down this path with an eating disorder identify with it so strongly that it is with them for life, but you are showing so clearly that this is not the case and that it all lies within the way out of such self harming behaviours.

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