The question I always asked myself when I was a teenager was “Who am I?” This quest for an understanding of that important question spread throughout my life. I tried finding myself in different identities that I was attracted to which I had observed in the world.
I tried to find myself in relationships, in motherhood and a variety of jobs. But when all of these roles were absent from my day I was still here, so I realized that none of these roles defined who I am.
If these roles were who I am I would not exist without them.
I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person. If this were true, then when I stopped doing something I would stop existing. If I feel feelings of regret (or feelings of achievement) they are due to an experience I have participated in or observed, I am not regretting me so these feelings are not me either.
If I follow this train of thought it shows I am not what I do as I would not exist without any stimulus outside of myself. A person in a jail isolation cell still exists without outside stimulus; I still am here when asleep even though I am not physically experiencing the world outside of me. So the world outside of me does not define who I am. It may affect me, but it does not define who I am.
So what is it that truly makes us who we are?
It cannot be from any occurrence outside of ourselves as what we do needs constant stimulation to support our existence. It can’t be based on our achievements or failures because as soon as we have an outcome contradictory to this we would no longer exist.
I have found that who we are is a quality that exists within. That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within.
So if we go a little deeper in exploring these internal messages, what would we find?
I have found that I am a very loving and caring being who wants to share this with all I meet. Sometimes my actions may not reflect these qualities and this is when I receive another internal message that something is amiss. The more I listen to and learn from these messages the closer I get to fully appreciating and knowing who I am. This understanding has nothing to do with how I behave or what I do, but rather it is a self-generated feeling that needs no outside stimulus to support its existence.
The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am; it forever unfolds before me when I take the time to reflect on the internal messages and feelings that guide me back to a truer and deeper understanding of all that I am.
I have searched for this understanding of who I am far and wide and it was my introduction to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon that showed me clearly that all the answers were inside of me already; all I had to do was to start listening to that inner voice rather than allow another source outside of myself to tell me who I am.
We all have this exact same inner dialogue of feelings that is us, and from my experience it just takes a bit of listening to start to build a relationship with ourselves. It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life.
The never ending support and love I have received from Universal Medicine, Serge Benhayon and his amazing family has made this possible, practical and tangible for me. This is the greatest gift I have ever received; it keeps on giving as I grow to understand more of who I am. I am forever grateful for this.
By TS
Further Reading:
We Are So Much More Than This
Who I Really Am
Stillness and Aloneness
The greater the transparency of those ill ways of living from our past the simpler it is to heal them, so that then our evolution will take a giant leap towards heaven.
There is no end to exploring who we are and why we do what we do. This is part of our personal medicine cabinet.
When you met someone who knows themselves completely like Serge Benhayon who has no doubt of the absolute divinity he is from it reminds us to of that universal quality that is innate within us all.
Considering the greatest ‘gist’ my feeling is that it is delivered on a simple platter when we let go of our ways of living that are not Loving and when we find those things that we are good at we simply deepen our relationship with that aspect of life then everything is also pulled up so we can also deepen in this area of life.
We are continually becoming more aware, and have more understanding of so much, it is awesome, ‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am; it forever unfolds before me when I take the time to reflect on the internal messages and feelings that guide me back to a truer and deeper understanding of all that I am.’
Starting to listen to that quiet voice within is starting to honour and respect ourselves, ‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am; it forever unfolds before me when I take the time to reflect on the internal messages and feelings that guide me back to a truer and deeper understanding of all that I am.’
I agree with you Lorraine that underneath all the raciness of life there is a stillness that resides within each and everyone of us. However our current way of life makes it very difficult to feel this. I am finding for example that the smallest amount of sugar disconnects me from what I can feel if I don’t eat sugar. So I prefer to eat as little sugar as possible.
I’m learning that movement is everything -not from what I have been told – but from what I feel in my body when I move in a way that is healing and true. In this – I have access to so much more than just me – I have access to the universe and I am not just a single individual anymore.
A newborn baby just is who they are with no words of thought to confuse them. As we grow up in the world around us we can choose to stay connected to the beauty of just being who we are.
“Who am I?” is a great question to ask, I think we spend way too much time just existing and not truly maximising life and I think there are much greater depths to ourselves than we could ever imagine.
Yes and if we don’t know who we are, which is an ever deepening understanding, then we trundle along following a route that may not be the right route for us. We just fall into it because everyone else does it but then get trapped with a constant feeling of tension.
Everything we are searching for is within -the difference is being willing to stop and connect to what is on offer.
‘I am not regretting me so these feelings are not me either.’ This is such a great point that exposes what it really is that we’re ‘regretting’ when we go into that regret- leaving ourselves, overriding our body’s messages and our internal compass to make a choice that wasn’t true and didn’t serve us or anyone else. But we can never regret ourselves and regretting our choices is a pointless distraction and waste of time that keeps us in the trough, instead of learning and evolving from those choices. There is always something to appreciate and a learning to be had from every single choice we make, moment to moment.
There is so much more to us than meets the eye and whilst we remain thinking we are what we see physically we will always feel the tension of being less.
If you don’t have that warmth in your heart, that tenderness and surrender in your quality then chances are you’re not living you at all but just another costume from the endless fancy dress disguise rack life offers us.
We really do look for who we are in what we do and the rolls we take on, instead of looking at who we are from within. turns everything on its head to look at life from how we feel within and what we know from within, rather than trying to seek recognition from the outside for what we do.
I can also remember that question of ‘who am I really?’ and ‘what is our purpose of being here?’ burning inside me for many years until it was dulled by the activities fuelled from ideals and belief that the answer lies in what we do. All along, and as had been shared through the ages by many world teachers and prophets, that all the answers to who we are and the universe we are part of lies within us, and through our connection to our Soul all makes sense as we are guided to live the power of who we naturally are. Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness represents and presents a way that this knowing can be lived, a way this is guided only by our connection to our essence within; our Soul.
Our Soul, something that we often neglect, but we can all feel and know, that warm stillness, those moments of depth, truth and clarity, our Soul call us home.
Yes, this is an age old teaching and one that will remain, till we are ready to re-discover it for ourselves.
Nothing is wrong, we are not bad human beings, we just allow a toxic energy in that is not loving, understanding or who we are.
When ideals and beliefs first begin to be exposed for the false light that they are it can feel extremely uncomfortable as we are aware of how we have been duped and taken it as real. It can take a variable length of time to accept them for what they are and appreciate that this is the beginning of the Return Path Home to the truth of ourselves.
“We all have this exact same inner dialogue of feelings that is us, and from my experience it just takes a bit of listening to start to build a relationship with ourselves. It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life”.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person” So many of us would agree. It is common when people retire, having given up the job that occupies such a large part of their lives, they feel lost – after the first few months of so-called freedom. Yet if we don’t have any quality in how we move our being and do what is necessary in life, then regardless of the amount we do – and achieve in the doing – it adds up to very little. We are human ‘beings’ first
Yes I can really see and feel how draining it is to be jumping from one role to another and that, actually, the only non-draining way to live is as yourself.
It is true, “The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am” and it is a constant discovery because as you unpeel one layer, another layer makes itself known!
With the way the world is set up, run by age old, ingrained beliefs that simply serve to keep us away from who we truly are, it is no wonder that you, me and many, many others go through life asking “who am I?” And in the process of trying to figure this out search far and wide for the answer. How amazing it is then to finally come to understand there is no searching outside of us required, but a simple turning inward – and there we are, and always have been.
Listening to the quiet voice within..we override it so often because we’re so busy distracting ourselves that we can’t hear it- it’s like we drown it out with endless activity, work, or whatever our particular drug is. When we start to listen to it, even in the smallest and simplest of ways, it becomes easier to identify it- and to want to drop the noise so that we can hear it even more clearly.
When we start to have a deeper relationship with ourselves we start to realise that what we thought was true for us turns out to be ideals and beliefs that we have chosen to follow without discerning if they even make sense. These days I ask myself, where did that come from and is it even true?
It is very liberating when we discover that we are not any of these external things – the challenge is to then live it consistently.
We are not defined by our physical shape or our output, we are who we truly are by virtue of our innermost which is our connection to Soul and our divinity.
‘If these roles were who I am I would not exist without them’. This line struck me because so many of us are identified by what we do and not who we truly are and as we all know, whether we admit it or not as you have beautifully pointed out, who we are comes from within and there can be no changing that.
Who we are is not an identification, it is a being and it will reveal itself in all it’s colours and magnificence when we learn to let go of all the things we have taken on along the road that identified us.
Getting to know ourselves is literally the date of a lifetime.
In order to not be shaped by the outside world and all the societal ideals and beliefs we have constructed that dictate who we are to be or become, we are to live from our inner-most and allow the quality of this to inform our movements and thus reveal to the world who we truly are.
It’s important you daily literally take note of your qualities and the values you bring. It builds a foundation of your truth. If not, your focus can diminish into distraction and you can find yourself not in a place of truth. I have found if it is not your focus to initiate by consistently appreciating what you bring you will comfortably be not where you should be.
I have found that no matter how much I do it does not surmount to the truly lovely feeling of simply “being,” me in my body and then moving from this quality. It is in the constant search I found over the years to figure out who I was that simply stopping to feel my body and how I moved showed me all of the wisdom i ever needed and brought me back to myself and the longing and searching outside of myself dissipated.
Yes, I remember many years back having no sense of who I was, or why I was here. I am so appreciative to have found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and the support I receive in discovering who I am in truth, in my essence, this is still an unfolding process.
Thank you for reminding me how wonderful it is to know what is truly me and what is not.
The fact that so many ask the question ‘Who am I?’ reveals that we know that we are not defined by anything we do. When we reconnect to our inner being we reawaken the spark that knows we are so much more than our physical body and are part of a Divine all that we are returning to.
It’s easy to see how we learn to define ourselves by what we do when our whole life is geared at receiving recognition. I know I used to look down on people who I thought had menial jobs, and I have also looked down on myself for doing those so-called menial jobs, but no more. Every job is as important as the next providing we are being ourselves while doing it.
We might define ourselves by our actions, thoughts, intellect, social standing, title or output or the perceived lack thereof, but what we are is far grander than any of these attributes, mere appendages and in many ways, distractions from our true essence unless they are brought back into the fold and aligned to purpose.
It is immense what we have to call in to actually not being divine. Saying YES to our power and purpose will instantly let the divine speak and communicate. No matter how much you have called in before. That is how divine the divine in us is.
Reawakening from all the ideals and beliefs we are carrying and actually rediscovering the true sense of life with us in it is the most freeing process I can imagine and experience. Getting to know myself without all the roles I consciously put on to get through life easier is an amazing journey. It is a never ending journey and the underlying fact, we actually avoid feeling after all, is that we have to accept our grandness that is within us all the time.
My body has been speaking loud and clear to me lately and has been asking me to stop and review and reimprint an old pattern of mine of never leaving enough time to get to where I am going, so I put myself into rush mode to ge there on time but am no longer in my body but in my head.
The deeper I go and explore my relationship with myself, the more I have been finding I have had such a deep and entrenched association with what I do and the quality of what I do and I realise just how sickening it is to see yourself purely based on output and doing. I sometimes think what do I have to do to be me. And the answer is absolutely nothing! Your blog beautifully confirms the truth that we are already who we truly are within so we only need to surrender and say yes to that.
When we go through life without truly knowing ourselves and living a lesser version of ourselves every single person on the planet misses out. Not only do they miss out on what we can bring when we are truly connected but they also miss out on the reflection we can give others who have yet to know their true selves.
It is true who we are is not the human doing aspect but more the human being and from the being comes the doing and everything else. The major question is which energy have we aligned to and everything else is a result of that. We are vehicles of expression and then the question is what are we expressing – all that is from the source of true love / Soul or all that is not.
Very true – for ‘who we are’ as a spirit, is very different to who we are as Soul.
When we become aware that we only get affected and are not defined by the outside world we can also notice that our thoughts are not defining who we are either as they come from the outside world as well.
I have searched for this understanding of who I am far and wide and it was my introduction to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon that showed me clearly that all the answers were inside of me already; all I had to do was to start listening to that inner voice rather than allow another source outside of myself to tell me who I am. When I reached this moment of understanding and knowing, everything in my life changed as I realised my search for the answers to who I was and what my purpose was, I had within me all along.
As I was growing up I often asked myself or the universe or God… what am I here for? As getting a job, being a housewife, having children, owning a house, car, travel etc. all seemed the ‘normal’ things that everyone was doing but I always sensed there was a deeper purpose for us all being here together. I also noticed that if this was really our purpose, why were there so many unhappy people in the world, even though they were doing and achieving all these requirements that supposedly equate to a purposeful and ‘happpy’ life? I have since discovered after trying it for myself that the greatly missing factor in all of it was my connection to my essence within. Without this connection, nothing we do in this world will truly fulfill us, yet with this connection, everything we do has purpose and a loving presence, as we are living who we are, being ourselves, as such true fulfillment is a common experience. This for me is the marker of what real success is.
“The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am” and this is something that is a work in progress for me too; and a very delightful one it is. In making the choice to peel back the many layers of ideals and beliefs that are not actually me I have finally discovered the gorgeous woman that I spent so much time searching for everywhere for but where I actually was.
Isn’t it interesting how we often search high and low to find who we are, to find love when in fact what we have been searching for has always been with us all along. It feels like we’ve put blinkers on to play a game of hide and seek.
It’s easy to see how depression and giving up can take hold of us if we believe we are what we do and then say, lose our job for example. With the job gone we do not know ourselves and think we are worthless without the identification of being what we do. The longer we are unemployed the more the feelings of worthlessness build, unless we can bring ourselves to the truth that we are everything without doing a single thing.
The proof that all that lies within is seen all around us in nature. The fact is the universe shows our magnificent every single moment. The fact we get in the way of ‘trying’ to figure out who we are is just proof of other influences that are not within.
And this is just the story of one person….. multiply this by many and we have a small insight into the extraordinary support that Serge Benhayon is offering humanity
I alway knew who I was , but the world did not want me to be who I truly was , so I began to live what the world wanted and I made choices and decisions on how this world worked. It was not until I met Serge Benhayon and his presentations of the ageless wisdom that I learned it did not have to be this way .
So awesome to reconnect to the purpose of life rather than the endless looking outward for affirmation of our worth. That pursuit is one that sees us chasing our tails. Breaking out of the cycle of outward looking is the game changer of how life can be lived.
What I have noticed when pondering who am is the clarity that comes with who I am not. Putting aside who I am not thus gives me a clear understanding and appreciation of the essence of who I truly am. Deepening this understanding and appreciation is certainly a work in progress.
When we are not present in our actions, we don’t offer anything but a void result. We all are much much more than what we do, and this is what makes the difference, when we are aware of it and allow this to unfold through our expression.
I too searched high and low trying to find the truth of who I was, it never made any sense why it always felt so difficult to feel truth in any of what I was encountering until I found Universal Medicine and realise everything I was looking for is inside of me and it is through my holding of this connection that I have come to know myself as a son of God.
We are the gift that keeps on giving both to ourselves and to others when we are connected to who we truly are.
Children ask all sorts of questions. But I have never heard any child asking the question who am I? The fact that as adults so many of us do ask such a question is an indictment of a society that actually pushes us away from that innate awareness of a connection and oneness with the whole of the Universe. A separation from knowing that there is no image or picture to fulfill, because just as the Universe is forever expanding so does our expression and the glory that we bring.
When we have inner turmoil we believe that no other person could possibly understand what we are going through, because it all feels so intense and raw, but the truth of the matter is everyone has these similar feelings and thoughts. Equally so on the other side of the coin we have the ability within us to connect to something far grander than our minds can imagine and that also is there equally so for everyone, with no exception for anyone who is considered special or gifted. Or as many would like to think unworthy of such connection.
Not knowing who we are comes forth out of a disconnection with our body and thoughts (that in truth are not ours but fed by ideals and beliefs) can enter that are pretty intense but never supporting who we truly are. Discerning and focus on the inner voice that’s truly loving is the way to go and this will deepen the relationship we build with ourselves. Lately I have allowed myself to go back into this old pattern of overthinking and analysing. My body has giving me very clear signals through aches and pains how this is not the way, and I know and feel how I’ve been sabotaging a deepening of the love I feel inside.
It seems as though when we are in our teenage years we start to get the picture that you are by the definition of your job and the schooling is geared up to have you educated enough so that you are employable, or at least that was the thinking in the 1970’s.
We were assessed depending on our abilities within the classroom to be either mothering/marriage material or office/career person, and there were no in-betweens. I still remember the meeting with the career guidance officer who steered us according to our abilities within the classroom. So for instance if you did badly in the classroom you were guided towards the cooking, child raising type classes and if you were more successful within the classroom you were guided towards some sort of career, and in my case it was office work.
So, I can relate deeply to not knowing who I was and in fact giving my power away to anyone who seemed remotely like they knew. And it was only when I met Serge Benhayon that the I posed the question to myself of ‘Who am I’ and realised that I did not have a clue – I had become the roles of mother, daughter, sister, wife, friend, employee, the list is endless.
Trying to figure me out used to take up so much of my time; I suspected that there was more to me than what I did, especially the very crazy and unwise things, but I just couldn’t find the key to unlock the door that I knew was there because I was looking outside myself. It wasn’t until, with the love and support from Serge Benhayon, that I turned and looked within and found what I had been looking for, for so long – the true and amazing me.
Who am I? What a beautiful question to ask ourselves and what a joy it is to keep unfolding and deepening our understanding and acceptance of who we truly are.
When we build a relationship with ourselves there is this choice to connect with our inner heart, feeling our breath and how we are moving with our body. The moment I start to see the world only with my eyes, I lose this connection and thoughts can come in which make the outside more important than who I am.
We can waste so much time searching for our identity on the outside when all that is required is to connect with our inner self and start the dialogue that will support us in whatever we are doing. I wish this had been part of my education because it would have saved a lot of heartache but awesome that you have now started this conversation. Thank you.
I was pulled to look at this blog this morning from the awesome photo that illustrates it. What I love is the simplicity and clarity here. Bringing our focus to how we are on the inside rather than how the world views us on the outside is huge. Living our life as a spherical being rather than someone who is going from A to B in a straight line “I have found that who we are is a quality that exists within. That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within.” As we allow ourselves to reconnect to this quality, and live it, life becomes naturally more spherical and expansive. We no longer have to limit ourselves but are free to express what is true for us as we honour the increasing love that we feel.
Building a steady, supportive, loving, true relationship with ourselves is the most important thing we can possible do
‘Who am I?’ When I was first asked this question – many years ago – I wanted to run away, it was as if it was something too enormous to even contemplate. Since listening to presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine it is a joy to rediscover, step by step, the enormity, beauty and Divinity of Who I am.
We seem to spend so much time looking for who we are, only to simply find it by connecting and loving ourselves first.
The key here is to be patient and wait for the unfoldment and what needs to be presented next.
“It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life.” What an important statement, as we can confuse these feelings. I notice if I choose to act on my familiar feelings I tend to end up with the same result, where as the unfamiliar feelings are sometimes the ones with least safety but most evolution.
It feels like a great exercise to shed the identities of what we live as, our work, family and everything we think we belong to and see what is left… a beating heart, a body, and a constant and steady breath.
It is through the deepening relationship with our ourselves, our bodies and our movements that we discover the majesty that we not only are, but are also intrinsically, inescapably and divinely part of.
I spent many years searching for the answers as to who I am through all the things that I did. I identified myself with what I was doing and more to the point to how well I did them. I found though that when I was not ‘doing my thing’ I felt a sense of melancholy and often questioned ‘if I wasn’t doing this who am I then?’, as I also had a deep sense that there was much more to me than the things that I did. Through the presentations of serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I discovered that my deep sense of there being more was true. I discovered that through my connection to who I am within, to my Soul, all that I do through my day as best I can, is done with the quality and joy of knowing who I am.
It is very easy to get caught up in the momentum of life and forget to take time to smell the roses – in other words to stop, appreciate, and take stock of our own magnificence, and the magnificence in which we are held by life.
Trying to find ourselves in different identities through relationships, work, or by what we do can be a quest that dominates us throughout life. There is a constant need to fit in and be accepted and to do this we pin everything on the roles we undertake. Looking within and connecting to the innate tenderness and love I contain has opened a door of wisdom that hitherto had been locked away. The weighing scales have tipped as the former quest to fit in is receding in favour of a new-found settlement and confidence of who I am within.
At some point in our lives, particularly as teenagers we try to find our indentity, fit in with a crowd or group, have a sense of belonging. But all of this actually takes us further away from ourselves. As you have said ‘So the world outside of me does not define who I am. It may affect me, but it does not define who I am.’ All we need, who we truly are, is innately there within us already we don’t have to try or search just allow ourselves to be and live from here. I am still learning this but feel so much more connected to me and who I am than I ever have done before, with thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who have shown me this through how they live.
It’s fascinating what you say about ‘listening’. So different to what I spent so many tears doing – which was seeking and searching and looking at the external for some kind of validation. If only I had listened all this years ago!! To me just simply saying to me “here I am and here’s what is true and what is not true”. Anyway, I’m now beginning to listen! After aeons of not doing so I still slip up, or still don’t fully hear what is being said, but like any relationship – with commitment, consistency, understanding, love and transparency that communication gets simpler and simpler and carries more and more truth.
The journey back to self can be difficult at times, however not as difficult as living a lie
I like the picture that comes with this blog. Humanity, obsessed and entranced by technology, movement, travelling, progress, distraction whizzing past, in a dead straight line, the circular beauty and power of the sun.
I have found in Esoteric Yoga, the Yoga of stillness, it takes a while to feel what it is like to stop. At first there is lots of motion going in in the body and mind, even when laying still. Then there is a letting go into a stillness that feels full, great to be with, natural and yet different to the usual doing and motion. From this experience as a reference point, it has been possible to bring more moments into the day where the doing does not take over and the quality of life is enhanced.
‘Who am I?’ is one of those questions that we all have asked, what I love about this article is it lays out some practical tools of how to begin to discover the answer truly for yourself. It can be a daunting question that some avoid but I think that if you are brave enough to look beyond the deeds and tasks you may identify yourself by, you will find that there is much more to all of us and a quality that goes far beyond face value.
Today I was trying to make a choice and it really occurred to me that I did not know what I wanted as with either side of the choice there would be reasons to go with it. It really made me wonder who am I as I can be so divided by thoughts? I feel like you that I am a quality and that I can choose the quality and that the thoughts will come from there. Defining which quality I am and want to have in my life is then crucial. This quality is tenderness, delicateness, loving and honouring of me, knowing this choice is easy to make.
‘Finding myself’ was a theme for many years… looking in the Himalayas, in books, in mediation. Yet here I am, always available to me whenever I can be bothered to make the connection!
What a great illusion-busting blog this is – that I am not what I do because if I were and I stopped the doing, then I wouldn’t exist. So what a waste of all that energy in managing what I think I am on the outside when the real jewel is what is already on the inside – that quality you mention, the constant, the connected, real me.
What is of great help with being myself is to be with myself in what I do, so that I am present in my body, that my mind is in line with my body, my movements. My body knows who I am and what is true or not true.
The inner voice that is true will never complicate life but wil always make life more simple and practical.
The beauty is we have the answers with in us, we do not need to look for them out side, we do not need stimulates for this. We need to just connected to our stillness and be open to our inner self. Through this we connect to the knowing and the awareness.
An age old question, to which the answer is remarkably simple. It is the coming to that answer of one’s own accord where all the complication ensues.
I too searched for understanding who I am and why I am here, never realizing the answers were inside me all along, ‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am; it forever unfolds before me when I take the time to reflect on the internal messages and feelings that guide me back to a truer and deeper understanding of all that I am.’
I so often used to make life about what I did that I ended up forgetting who I was, now I am learning to stop making my life about being recognised and accepted, and simply focus on caring, loving and honouring myself and my preciousness.
I have learned so much about me over the last few years assisted along the way by Serge Benhayon and the Ageless Wisdom he lovingly shares , but “the one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am”, and I’m loving this exploration. Every day brings me many opportunities to get to know me a little more and every opportunity I grab with two loving hands, as from me knowing me even more, I get to know and understand others and the world I live in even more as well.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person.” I too find myself under this illusion of being identified with what I do often but am becoming much more aware of the empty feeling inside me when I place importance on the roles instead of making the focus on the quality of energy I am in.
I found my way back and who I am by reconnecting with myself. I had stopped listening to my heart and plugged into what was expected of me. I ended up way off coarse, disorientated and not trusting. It is beautiful now to live with my authority of who I am. It is truly powerful.
I have taken on so many ideals and beliefs about who I should be and how I should be that at times it can seem confusing and I do not know which choices to make. This is when my head gets in a fuddle and all sorts of areas of my life start to spiral out of context. However, I am learning more and more that all of this can be changed, and easily undone by the conscious act of will to choose how I move my body. With this simple act, there is clarity once again and I get a sense of who I am and no longer believe that what is expected of me is who I am. It seems remarkable but it is true, the power we have to appreciate ourselves lays with the power we have in the quality of our movements.
‘It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life.’ These ideals and beliefs and pictures can be such a trap and distraction away from our true selves. As I become aware of them I choose to let them go so they lose the control they had over me.
Hear hear, Anna I have had the same experience, and wondering what life was about, what was my purpose for being here, in this life.
Every day that I take the time to truly connect within I discover more and more of who I truly am. Many inspirational Universal Medicine courses and also Esoteric Healing also supports this process. One week when I thought I knew myself, more will open up the next week, and this is a forever unfoldment week by week, day by day and if I allow, hour by hour and moment by moment.
This is really beautiful Danielle.
My experience also Anna. And it not only keeps on giving for one person, but for all you come in contact with.
Agreed Benkt. It’s a gorgeous way to live, makes it fun –
Learning who we are again as we’ve previously chosen to walk away from it.
Doug I can relate to what you are sharing, for along time I was caught in this illusion too, but over the last few years I have been changing thanks to the awareness from Universal Medicine that we are not what we do. That concept took awhile for me to come round too, we are love, we are divinity, we are not the jobs we do.
“I have found that I am a very loving and caring being who wants to share this with all I meet. Sometimes my actions may not reflect these qualities and this is when I receive another internal message that something is amiss. The more I listen to and learn from these messages the closer I get to fully appreciating and knowing who I am.” It is about appreciating oneself, something we all for get, in the appreciation we get to know ourselves more, and connect to that loving caring person we naturally all are.
So true Matthew. I was on that bandwagon myself until I met Serge Benhayon!
‘So that leaves us with the beating heart in our chests and our breath – a consistency that offers a connection to the being we are (not the doing!).’ Simplicity is so beautiful and true, we cannot deny the truth here being offered.
When I read this blog I get a sense that I have not taken the time to get to know who I am. Your words allow me to feel that I have been missing out on a truly beautiful relationship with an amazing being.
This is such a beautiful blog, I particularly like the part that proves so simply that we are definitely not what we do or achieve, it is all about the quality that resides inside everyone of us.
So true and so inspirational. Love your contribution, I am already uplifted. Thank you Natalie.
I love the way you have shared here Victoria. This part ‘ there is a still place within, from which we know the truth of our being’ This living stillness is always there…eternally and as we choose more often to reconnect back to this sacred place those around us feel inspired to do the same.
It feels like the more I get to know and can accept who I truly am, the less personal the ‘I’ becomes.
So true Fumiyo. The I turns into we as we become more in tune with ourselves and so… More one with all.
Yes Victoria we are under constant bombardment, pressures pushing and pulling us in every direction away from our divine self. It is possible to feel that bombardment and know how false it is and hold ourselves unaffected by it and like you wrote “glorious beyond measure.”
‘ I have searched for this understanding of who I am far and wide and it was my introduction to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon that showed me clearly that all the answers were inside of me already; all I had to do was to start listening to that inner voice rather than allow another source outside of myself to tell me who I am.’ The simplicity of this is beautiful.
There is no end to knowing who we truly are for what we have learnt so far is just a speck in the universe, to the depths we have yet to explore. Universal Medicine is the true road on which to travel to these depths.
This is true Kevin, we are only at the tip of the iceberg. The grandness from which we come is inconceivable to the mind yet the knowing that we are so much more is immense.
So true Kevin, we have touched a speck in universe, it is just the beginning, the journey is unfolding with deeper awareness and knowing, through the beautiful support of Universal Medicine.
It certainly is far too easy to get caught up in what we do or have achieved or not achieved but it is becoming all the more obvious that no matter what we have in the material world there is always something missing unless we look within.
Yes, that constant looking of outside, and only to go even further and further out as everything we momentarily hold as ‘it’ never satisfies this desire/longing. After so many tried and tested attempts, I have finally stopped and admitted that I was in fact completely lost and was going the wrong way, and I had my destination wrong. What a relief!
The search for who I am has been shown to me consistently by Serge Benhayon until I gradually got to feel it for my self and realised it was my essence and the exquisiteness of this was so subtle so deep and so lovingly still inside me and that it is always there. Choosing to live as this is a ongoing choice in every moment leading to the next moment lovingly so.
How gorgeous that we get to be inspired by each other to live a different way to everything we were taught and believed was true.
I loved this line as well Katie – ‘‘So the world outside of me does not define who I am. It may affect me, but it does not define who I am’.
Marika I can really relate to this. Just today I spoke with my husband about something I was considering to do and yet realised that there was self involved in this activity if I pursued it.
Beautifully expressed Amelia – living from my inner knowing is something I learn more about every day.
The expectations you have on yourself and others drop away and there is an ease with life that is simply gorgeous. This is so true Natalie, only in the need does complication come in. Choosing to be ourselves is a constant source of enjoyment.
To make the choice to stop and turn inside after spending most of our lives looking outward for all the answers, is going against everything that we have been lead to believe is normal. But from knowing that all the wisdom we will ever need we already have, and letting go of all the beliefs we have been programmed with, is opening the way to show the world that there is a new and wonderful normal waiting in the wings.
Growing up, not many kids I went to school with actually were inquiring into that big question, who am I. Yet I was always drawn to be inquisitive and ask what life was about and what was its purpose, because I always felt there was one. This feeling came from within me and sometimes I saw it as a torment but I could simply not ignore it. It lead to quite a ‘different’ childhood, while still having lots of friends and being popular because there was a light shining through. It is with great appreciation that I found Serge Benhayon and what he presented as the simple truth of who we are and what life is about. It was from this finding, that all the parts came together and I began to value what I always felt inside but could never bring into a consistent way of living.
Reading your comment today Simon brought up memories of my early pre-teen and teenage years and like yourself I was full of questions ‘what is my purpose here’, ‘why am I here’ and yes the big question ‘who am I’. 40 years later the answers came gently at first when Serge Benhayon came into my/many students lives. I feel those questions if not similar came from many corners of the world, fellow students who put out the call that they too were ready to start to live ‘ another way’ and they themselves are now shining examples of living their true purpose in life. To set the seeds to inspire others also asking those very same questions. I sit here in deep appreciation for the gift of Serge Benhayon and my fellow students of this life. There is no more searching as we do ‘all know’.
All this outside seeking creates excess motion and activity, which in truth, is a known, delibertely chosen by us to create distraction and an irresponsible choice to take us away from stillness, and with that our divinity.
Gyl yes how easily we can distact ourselves from responsibility and our divinity and stillness, by distractions through excess motion and action. This is why Esoteric Yoga is beautiful it shows us how to connect to our stillness and bring that into our quality in all our movements.
It’s crazy that we seek so many things outside ourselves to ‘find ourselves’, from climbing the tallest mountain to meditating for days on end – when truth is so simple “all I had to do was to start listening to that inner voice rather than allow another source outside of myself to tell me who I am.”
The inner voice which we all have if we stopped looking outside, and looked within.
All too often that search for who I am was in what I thought I needed to be when I grew up. It was looked for in a job or a particular career, a relationship or even where to live. It is as if I was trying to piece together the bits of life that I observed that I thought were me, then put it all together and called it me.
‘No one can see the uniform we wear or the many roles we take on during our waking time when we are lying surrendered in sleep’.
Ill-health is a great leveller too. When something goes wrong with our body, it matters nought whether we are rich, poor, successful or not. We are all equally prone to the same kind of humbling. We are all vulnerable in the same way.
A great sharing Doug, I have lived most of my life defining myself by what I am doing, I too waver back and forth between just being with what I am doing, or going into drive. more for me to ponder on, thank you Doug.
I can relate Doug and Jill, breaking the doing habit is a big one for me also. The big thing for me is trusting that I have the capacity to do things without nervous energy and prove that my stillness is my true power and what will get me through.
That same line also tells us where the true treasure lies. The fruitless, spirited seeking we do is nothing compared to finding and deepening that which lies within us. There is no need to go anywhere, or do anything extreme by way of exploration. It’s all here.
Trusting ourselves creates a strong sense of being held. You are in effect holding or backing yourself no matter what and that feeling of support is tangible. Knowing everything is already there within us takes the pressure off and stops the desperate seeking of solutions outside ourselves.
I agree that almost all of us are identified by what we do and can feel lost when we are no longer doing that. I can think of examples such as the man who is lost after retiring, not knowing who he is without his work. Or the mum who feels lost when she has an empty nest, not knowing who she is as a woman if she is not being a mother.
I am sure most of us wonder who we are at some stage in our lives. We try out different outfits as we develop in life, looking to the outside for ideas about how that should look. When I came to Universal Medicine I thought I knew who I was. As I started to feel this more from my body I discovered that I was not the person I had created at all. Much of my persona had come from reactions, coping mechanisms and attempts to hide my true nature. I especially found Esoteric Yoga supportive for reclaiming the real me and peeling away the false me.
So do I. If I hadn’t found Universal Medicine, I’d still be living a rollercoaster life, sometimes more in touch with the stiller me; more often off and lost in the ‘doing’, looking for answers by constantly seeking outside of myself and distracting myself with all manner of stimulating and self-identifying activities. Goodness, how exhausting and pointless it all was!
Yes, what an irony – we claim not to know ourselves ‘…yet we live with ourselves every single moment’ as you say, Karoline. Usually we attempt to ‘find ourselves’ by running off and doing all sorts of things – emphasis on ‘doing’ – which is really just our spirits running wild. The answer is to start to be still and get to feel our bodies and our essence – our soul.
Gosh, how many times have I asked myself that question. I’ve identified myself as being x, y or z in the past, but was still left with a hollow feeling, but all the roads have led back to me and building a loving relationship with myself and it is here that the question can be answered.
One way or another, the Search for Who We Are is a major theme in life for everyone. We walk in life, learn things about ourselves and the others, carve our way of being in the world, get pleasure for others recognising our way and relating to us because of it. We create a character and a way of living that is not in true who we are. Cutting through it is an amazing endeavour only to realise the grandness of what we are about to discover.
This is very sweet and powerful Deanne – ‘…to be inspired to know myself more and more from my essence…’ this is the game changer to life, to knowing who we are.
The unfolding path of returning back to ‘who I am’, starts with building a relationship with our body…and because many of us have been living so identified with the world to tell us who we are, for example I’m a great artist, everyone loves my work therefore I must be great. But if the next day nobody loves my work, then nobody loves me.
It takes time to return back to knowing who we are again ‘It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life.’ But when we do, it changes our lives, as who we are holds an inner richness. As I have said, what took me so long?
When I read this I can feel how pivotal it is that we have a strong foundation within ourselves – before we do anything else. How many times have we seen people fall over when their careers end mid-stream, or even in later years? And that foundation starts with our relationship with the most fundamental aspect of us – our body. If we don’t know our body, we can never truly know ourselves.
Do all paths lead to Rome? Not really. We try many ways to find who I am but most of them fail because the body is not at its heart. It is a bit like trying to go to a part of town that can only gets accessed in a specific way and feeling that we will make it if we try other ones. We may have the fantasy that we are getting there because there is a sense of familiarity and a feeling safe but usually is not the case. Not all paths lead to Rome.
Agreed Eduardo, they are merely a distraction, the long way around, because we have to return to the very pale we started in the end.
It is very true what you express here Karoline. Developing a relationship with your body stops the constant yo-yo effect of letting the outside world tell you who you are and whether you are loveable or not. Our body has a steadiness to it that allows us to be in life without being pulled about by it. I have found that knowing who we are is not something that magically happens overnight and it certainly has no end point – there is always more to shed and rediscover.
I love what you write here Amelia, thank you. The outside world does not define who we are. There is a living essence within all of us that is connected to something much grander and when we live from that, we live with a greater understanding and love for ourselves and for our fellow brothers and sisters.
“I have found that who we are is a quality that exists within. That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within” This is so true and a beautiful gift when we learn to see things from what they truly are. A real necessity to be learning this in our lives from young and an important marker for us all. A great revelation about how we are living and marker for us all .
There is no way around the fact that who we are is a quality that exists within that is the essential part of our make up. This quality is divine as they are our origins. Surrendering to these facts hold the key to really finding who we are.
‘That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within’ – yes and those messages are often in the form of health crises, illnesses or accidents. Yet we can be in such a momentum of activity and identification with that that we aren’t able to appreciate the ‘stop’ moments these corrections bring. Our main concern is to get back on our feet and return to normal life, which means we will just get the same message later, perhaps delivered more powerfully. It seems we learn the hard way!
Does is not seem ridiculous that we should even think about needing to search for who we are? Who we are is right here. Sometimes we are buried underneath a whole lot of stuff from accumulating things from life, but we are still there at our core. Knowing this now it seems odd that I ever went searching somewhere else to find myself. Where on earth did I think that was going to happen!?
Yes, I travelled the world in search of me, only to come back home and I was still not found. But all the while, on every bus, train, tube, plane or camel ride, I carried me all the way and didn’t know it at the time.
Nowhere on Earth, that’s for sure! It does seem odd, I agree. And it seems too we have created on planet Earth – at least from our spirit’s point of view – a giant playground within which to play sophisticated (and not so sophisticated) hide and seek.
It is our attachment to what we do that not only gives us identification to fill the void of our own disconnection, but also ultimately leaves us drained and disillusioned with life. Because ultimately we get burnt by the experience, for eventually we are shown that there is no true sustained joy in achievement orientated success. The only truly sustainable way of being is that of love.
“The only truly sustainable way of being is that of love.” This is a truth I cannot deny any more, if I try my body is exhausted very quickly – particularly in a typical working day. It is a commitment of loving responsibility to say no to any form of being identified with working outside of my true essence.
Yes Adam, all the attachments in the world will not truly sustain us as that of being love. It’s almost like we hold attachments to ‘grim death’, because without that what is there and that is where the deception lies, that there will be nothing, when in fact, that is where the love sits waiting to be -ing lived. This is who we are!
It is ironic that what we seek to fill us only serves to leave us feeling empty (because we started from emptiness). The feeling of ‘thats not it’ once we achieve something, feeds the drive to move onto the next thing and then the next… It is only when you realise your worth just being that you can be free of this cycle.
‘…there is no true sustained joy in achievement orientated success.’ This we can see in people who spend their lives in the spotlight chasing money, power, fame and winning at all costs. For one, they can never let up for fear of losing what ground has been gained, and two, it is ultimately an exhausting game to play. If it doesn’t catch up with their bodies during their current lifetime, it will the next. Meanwhile, this dynamic plays out much more rapidly in the lives of most of us – we learn, hopefully soon enough, that chasing achievement-oriented success is a path to ill-health and or perpetual discontent.
This blog and all the comments are really helpful to me. I’m struggling a bit with detaching from my believes and identifications. And what Sandra Williams said was to the point : There is nothing outside of me to compare to because what is inside of me is unique……..I always felt that, and then felt that I don’t fit in and self doubt and insecurity ran my life. This is probably so with many people, and the driver to attempt to be someone we think will fit in. This drive is still haunting me, even though I have already developed a strong and deep connection with my innermost, but I keep forgetting to appreciate myself, my preciousness, and then loose it. Thank you all for reminding me.
Beautifully expressed and true Amelia. We take on so many ideals and beliefs from outside of us- our family, friends, TV, media , and think we need to conform to these to be accepted and loved, or recognised as being successful. But we are not what we do. And indeed I have also found it an amazing and beautiful process discarding ideals or beliefs that no longer feel true, leaving my body feeling more spacious and light, for more love to be embraced.
I would still be searching outwardly now if it wasn’t for Serge Benhayon who with such inspiration supported me to feel the difference between my inner essence and the beliefs of the world. We are not what we do we are so much grander than that. We are made of love and anything else that doesn’t feel like that is simply not true. From there the unfolding can begin.
I love how the first few lines exposes how identifying with what we do is so harming. It immediately exposes how when we need recognition through achievements that we set ourselves on a merry go round of chasing accolades. I know many of us are attached to being seen and fed with praise, I certainly am but I can see the harm in this as it is an instability. There is nothing more confirming than giving ourselves love and permission to accept ourselves as wonderful regardless of what we do.
I’m with you Paula, I so agree, all the answers are inside of us all, not on the outside of us. We just have to make the choice, to re-connect and listen to our body….. our body always tells us the truth and our inner voice will speak, it comes with no judgement, or critique, just love and truth. I’m very aware of my inner voice.
Who am I? Everyone asks this question and it is a sought after thing in the world “the search for who I am”. ho we are is very simple, we are ourselves, we are a natural emanation of God within, this spark does not need any working on or improving it just needs to be OUT there! We already have everything we evened to know, we just have to accept that it is within and never found on the outside.
Yes Harrison – it is very simple, we are love – it is the complication of making it complicated that we will never know who we are.
You are right Harrison – it does just need to be out there – we need to let it out! The next trick is to become comfortable with letting it out. Because so few people let their natural light shine, when someone actually dares to it can trigger all sorts of jealousies. In the naturally emanating person, all we will see if we are not that, is the pain of what we could naturally be but are not.
The more I discover about myself the more I find is there to be re-connected to. This is an ever-unfolding beautiful appreciation I’m deepening with myself. There is nothing outside of me to compare to because what is inside of me is unique and totally precious to me. The really fun part of this is knowing this is true for everyone. We each have and hold this and the more very deepen our appreciation of this truth, live from this and enjoy ourselves the more we open to this truth and appreciation in everyone with an open heart. This is very worth looking with-in for.
It is only when we start to ask the question ‘Who am I’ that we start to question our lives and look deeper into what life is really about.. Without questioning life it is so easy to accept what is before us as being it. I know I would question things for myself from quite an early age, such as what is life about, why am I here but nothing seemed to make sense. The answers I found just took me round and round in circles, it was only coming to Universal Medicine that I got to understand who I am and what the world is really about .
I’m with you Bernadette … I too used to get caught up in the thoughts of what I do is who I am. This is such an illusion, which needs to be exposed for what it truly is… to the world all over.
So many people in this world identify themselves by what they do, but if this was true, we wouldn’t exist when we stop doing something….that is a revelation for people to know. It is the quality that is within us…. that is who we are ….which is forever deepening…..this is love, this is truth. We need to break all these beliefs and ideals down, that hold us back from being who we truly are.
Absolutely a HUGE revelation Jody, most of us think or believe we are what we do. We will always be empty if we do not give any credit to who we truly are, before we do anything.
I agree the scourge on our society of a lack of ‘self acceptance and appreciation’ is a world wide disease. The fact that Serge Benhayon is addressing these fundamental issues is a complete breath of fresh air. Through his livingness Serge Benhayon is a role model of how to live life differently.
Our search to find who we are is the problem and the solution. Our life and we are so full of possibilities it will take life times just to get a taste. It’s the journey that is important, the destination is just the next level.
We can spend a lot of time, energy and money seeking to know who we are and what our purpose is. Through Serge Benhayon, I cut through the long grass in seconds when he offered this to us ‘ We are here to evolve and support others to evolve,’ This clear, simple expression laid to rest years of complication and soul searching.
I love this simple way of looking at the truth. Thank you Andrew I agree.
I spent much of my life looking for who I am, thinking it was defined by the things that I did, I participated in lots of sport and taught sports. I think I actually thought I was a sports person and that was who I was, not realising that it was actually my relationship with my inner-self that really made me who I am, and as I have slowly built my relationship with myself, I no longer feel defined by the things I do, although it is easy to slip back when my awareness drops.
Yes Michael – we are truly exquisite and rediscovering this is like unwrapping an amazing gift.
Yes Syliva and very debilitating to identify with what we do rather than who we are from within which is far greater.
“The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am” what a great point to ponder on. How can there be a dull moment in life when there is no end to deepening, learning and exploring all of who we are?
Absolutely David, when we let go of the idea of there being an end point, we can let go of the pressure to be something or get somewhere and enjoy the process of “learning and exploring” and continuing to expand all that we are.
I agree Liane, our challenge is to arrest the constant motion and perpetual noise we surround our self with so that we can re-connect with who we are innately-love
I also tried this for many years but ever felt complete until I realised that I was already home, in my heart, – ‘I tried to find myself in relationships, in motherhood and a variety of jobs. But when all of these roles were absent from my day I was still here, so I realized that none of these roles defined who I am.’
The question ‘who am I’ is often followed by a set of identifications that change every time we find some of those do not work for us. Yet who we truly are is not found in the images, pictures, ideals, roles actions or any form of identification. Who we are is found in the deep connection within, a quality that is accessed through our body.
All that we are not needs constant stimulation to perpetuate itself, where as all that we are simply is and will naturally emerge when that which we are not ( that which we take on from outside of us) is let go of.
I love this, Liane – ‘Our Soul is the voice of God that never stops speaking to us’. Re-connecting to our soul brings meaning and purpose to life, as we become a representative of God’s love on earth.
I love how our bodies support us to be more of who we truly are as they are sending us messages all the time. Our quality within is a result of us listening to the sent messages.
“it just takes a bit of listening to start to build a relationship with ourselves.” It amazes me how life is set up for us to not listen to bodies. Though the inner call is always there, calling us to be the natural love we are. Never will that inner light go out and how we connect to that will govern all our actions thereafter.
That is so true Janet and it is such a joy to re-discover this best friend as he was such a valuable companion.
I agree Jonathan. The teachings of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon and his family, along with the ever developing student body have made the fact that we are mutidimensional beings existing in a third dimensional realm, very simple, tangible and real. Who needs mysticism and spirituality when the truth is so much more grounded and glorious?
Everything we need to be we already are. Our task is to merely let it unfold by removing the obstacles we have put in place to inhibit its expression, which is love.
So beautiful said Liane, thank you.
Yes very beautifully expressed Liane; so simple yet so profound and divine, thank you.
Beautiful Liane, thank you.
It is only when we separate from the Whole that is the Soul that we sense that something is ‘missing’ and thus begin the desperate quest for our true identity…a lonely fragment forever seeking the unity, oneness and love that it departed from.
How very strange that we search for the love we already are.
Yes Liane , we take the longest route home.
Classic Jenny!
This is a great point Lucinda that it is important to learn to discern between those feelings or messages that come from our soul and the messages that we get from our mind in response or reaction to the world outside. Developing our sixth sense of energetic awareness is the key here to knowing which feelings are true to ourselves or not. Universal Medicine has supported me greatly in developing this sixth sense.
I know in my life I have often been attached to what I do and defined myself by that. Particularly as a man it can be challenging to understand and accept that I am already enough just as I am and my worth is not defined by what I do. I do agree that who we are has nothing to do with what we do or achieve and I see as a great purpose in life to let go of all those ties and attachments I have to the ‘doing’ and keep working on my connection with the ‘being’.
“The more I listen to and learn from these messages the closer I get to fully appreciating and knowing who I am”. Its true, observing right now I clocked I actually make a choice to not listen – total arrogance and comfort when in truth it is simple to allow it to constantly flow and enjoy life by what it offers all the time.
Beautiful Rik, enjoying the true flow of life and the tiger picture that brings.
It is thanks to Serge Benhayon that I have learned that I no longer need to play any roles or try to be anything. Simply being me has made such a difference to my life in that there need be no push, no trying, and I’m learning that I don’t have to ‘do’ anything, but simply allow my natural light and beauty to be seen and felt by me and by those around me. Then that flows into and out of everything I do.
If I am not honest about my feelings and accept what I am feeling especially when I feel awkward and / or invest in how I should be feeling, I am going up against and challenging what I am feeling.
If I am not my work, not the daughter, not the sister, nor the partner, wife, good friend or any of the other roles we take on, then who are we? We have taken on so many roles, that we seem to forget and therefore not live who we truly are. A divine pure being with an essence of love. Who me? yes, you, and you and you and you, all of us.
‘A divine pure being with an essence of love. Who me? yes, you, and you and you and you, all of us.’ Beautiful Mariette.
We become so used to running with all the energies around us, that it can be hard to distinguish between a thought, another energy, and our own true inner voice sometimes. Taking time to feel one’s body, allowing oneself the space in one’s day to do this, is a true support in mastering living who we truly are.
Wow, so true Jenny. I know for me I can sometimes get to the end of the day and say to myself, ‘whoa, where have you been all day?’ or not been able to as you say, distinguish between a thought, another energy and my own true inner voice. This spaciousness only can come from making time to feel our bodies, it is so very important and with that spaciousness, comes clarity, awareness and the ability to make other choices.
The search for who we are is like looking for home whilst standing on your own doorstep!
This is gorgeous and funny Alexis for we are always home, yet we just don’t always remember it.
I love this because wherever we are in the world, we are always home.
Gorgeous …. We are always at home when we are connected to our bodies.
That’s a great analogy Alexis, it really points out the absurdity of our endless searching for something we already have, but have simply never been taught to utilise or nurture.
The search for who we are is like looking for home whilst standing on your own doorstep! I love this Alexis.
Just in the title alone “The search for who I am” is a great reminder for us all I feel. Why? If we had not started out on that ‘search’ (no matter which path we took) in the first place, how would we recognise the ‘what is not truth’ in our lives. That pathway of return (truth) eventually leading us to the open door of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon.
How lovely Mary – thank you. This is perfect for me to feel at this moment as the world is full of stuff and activities all derived to create nervous reactions. But inside there is all of me and no space to take on others stuff.
Revealing who I am is a work in progress, with each session I have with an esoteric practitioners I remove one more of the overlays that I have taken on in protection from the harshness of the world. Recently I had a session where I got to feel such sweetness, and tenderness, next morning I woke with a bitter taste in my mouth . For the sweetness to be any bitterness has to be released, so another layer removed and the connection to who I am revealed.
Amazing to understand that the quality within us sends us messages all the time to let us know whether we are on track or off track, I know I can often ignore these messages which is crazy as it places extra strain and stress on my mental and physical well being. Through the teachings of Universal Medicine I am starting to listen more to these messages and when I listen it is quite simple life flows and is magical when I ignore these messages then it becomes heavy and stressful.
It is also the most natural and joyful thing to do, and way to be. Life really makes so much sense and becomes o full and rich when we let this unfoldment take its place, and let the inner depth of who we are being to pour forth.
It is the illusion we are raised to believe; that what we achieve and what we do is who we are, and so we end up accepting at an unconscious level that “If these roles were who I am I would not exist without them” …and indeed when something happens that these roles get taken away from us we end up in depression and feeling the total loss. It was only at this point where I started to look at my relationship with myself and explore who I am if I am not all of that. What I’ve discovered is a deep and divine recourse within myself that far outshines any expectation or satisfaction I could have derived from identifying with the roles I played.
‘I have found that who we are is a quality that exists within. That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within.’ This is how we need to be brought up: to feel and to trust what we feel, not to be told by anybody else how we should be – the knowing is innate, and, even if we are not brought up that way, the quality is still within, it is our choice to connect with it – or not.
Yes Carmel you have ‘nailed it’ it is the quality within and when we express from this quality we are in line with a power and wisdom that encompasses the all, so no more searching for identity in the outer world we have it all within.
How many of us identify who we are, or are identified by others of who we are by what we do or have achieved or own, or what we do for a living. The remarkable thing about being involved with Universal Medicine it sometimes took years to find out what someone did for a living as it didn’t really seem to matter as everyone is there for pretty much the same reason and that is to connect to who we really are and also be able to see it in others.
That is so true Kevin, the beauty is we are all just connecting to being love and who we truly are, all the identification is not important.
I love that sentence so much too Leigh ““I have found that I am a very loving and caring being who wants to share this with all I meet.” – I also have found the same and even though some do not want a ‘bar of it’, it does not stop me from connecting to that being inside and take it with me wherever I go and whatever I do. Sometimes I slip and when I reconnect it just feels truly beautiful.
Very beautiful Jill, once we stop defining our selves through the roles we take on, and return to stillness, it truly feels just joyous when we connect to that love deep inside.
“The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am; it forever unfolds before me when I take the time to reflect on the internal messages and feelings that guide me back to a truer and deeper understanding of all that I am.” This is my experience too, the exploring is forever unfolding, the deeper I connect the more us revealed.
“We pick up so many ideals and beliefs from the external world along the way, it is a beautiful process to discard them as we choose to live more from our inner knowing and less from their constrictive impulse.” Yes it is beautiful to discard what is not us, and bring fourth the true impulse we are. We are all beautiful loving Souls, and letting go of these external ideals and beliefs will bring us back to our true essence.
When I have tried in the past to listen to any communication from my body, I imagined for some reason that it would speak to me in the same way as the thoughts in my head do. It is only recently that I have let go of this, to just feel my body and what it reveals to me in a way that is wordless but expresses a whole world of truth. I can feel that this has actually been there all along and it is a joy to re-connect to who I truly am and what guides me.
When I was quite young, I connected with a mental approach to “Who am I” through contemporary Yoga. It was very powerful in the sense that it raised awareness of my thought processes and of the game of life , yet it also was quite entrapping because the power was not based on love and feeling, but on thought and rationality. Such a focus of who am I raised more questions then it answered and I even believed this to be a good thing, yet if left a deep emptiness in constantly searching in my life, thinking that ‘finding’ was a long way off. I have since learned that we can indeed rationalise any behaviour or action and that there is no connection to truth without connecting first to our feeling and inner hearts, I discovered a unifying truth that offered the full and complete experience of one-ness with others and with life.
Simon I really appreciated your sharing here, bringing awareness to contemporary Yoga for us to know and feel. Great to have that understanding of what is lacking when we don’t bring love into what we are choosing to do, especially in a modality that you would think is beneficial.
I know what you mean Julie, I too lost my self in roles I played, the people pleaser, the fixer, to name just a couple. I can remember saying to myself one day “I’ve lost who I am”. I too eventually ended up with an illness. Which was a big stop for me, to re-flect and re-imprint my life with love, truth and be honest with myself, how I was truly living in my body. From there, the true me is unfolding and deepening more everyday.
This is an awesome blog that shares with people, we are not what we do. That simply put -outside stimulus is not who we are, it can affect us, if we let it, but it does not define who we are. We all have this gorgeous quality of stillness within us; this quality is our essence which is who we all really are. This is profound for many people to read, as a lot of people are driving themselves so hard in this world, as they fully believe they are identified by what they do.
There is a vast difference between the spiritual search that pretends to search within, but in truth connects to outer forces, deities, spirits, teachers, gurus – and the esoteric path that truly connects to the inner most. I find it genius to have learned from Serge Benhayon that there is this difference and that it is up to me to discern on which of the paths I am on, and if it is healing or harming.
Yea, the spiritual way completely takes it outside of you in that it is searching for someone else to fix it, asking for someone else’s forgiveness or you put energy into striving to get something . With the ageless wisdom and esoteric, you are already enough, and just reconnecting to the love you are inside 🙂 how gorgeous.
I find it hard also Stephen not to want recognition for something I do well, and sometimes I find I am in it well before I clock what has happened. Wanting recognition and acceptance from others seems to be ingrained in everything we do to such a large extent that it seems as though it will take some time to really knock it out.
I had a beautiful experience at a Livingness Workshop presented by Serge Benhayon recently where in one of the exercises we got to experience was how it is to feel the essence of another and express this. Expressing from who we are and not what we do. Not knowing the different roles and titles people held was refreshing and removed any separating layers that can often get in the way of truly connecting with others. Every one of us is equal in essence and this is powerful to feel and appreciate.
Yes, Victoria, to feel our essence and the essence of another (even a stranger) is the most confirming experience, reminding us that we are all from the same magnificence.
So true Janet. And this becomes easier and easier when we reconnect to the love we are first in all that we do.
Victoria this can be a very revealing moment when we realise we are all equal in essence nothing is between us , it’s a point when I felt the love that connects us all. So different to being in the head and rationalising and trying to get it in theory.
Very true Victoria. It is so powerful to recognise us all as one, and super gorgeous to appreciate it.
Quite amazing really we can spend a lifetime searching for who we are outside of ourselves, getting lost in roles, identification and distraction, until that is we realise the quality of our inner essence is who we are, before we do anything.
Absolutely Victoria, and in that it poses a bigger question, the question of why if everything is already inside of us, if who we are is all there, are we raised and conditioned by everything outside of us that it, that which is outside of us, somehow has the answers? Time to break that cycle.
Yes , and this is where our true power lies – knowing our essence.
‘I have searched for this understanding of who I am far and wide and it was my introduction to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon that showed me clearly that all the answers were inside of me already; all I had to do was to start listening to that inner voice rather than allow another source outside of myself to tell me who I am.’ I too searched and again, like you, found the answers when I first met Serge Benhayon, without whom, I may still be searching. Now the search is over making way for discovery and evolution.
‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am;’ This really knocks out beliefs we have about ourselves and who we are.
I love this line, thanks for sharing it again Michelle.
In a world that is based on recognition for what we do, not who we are, it is refreshing to read your blog. This is what true education is all about.
Well said Heidi, super true.
The doing is the means by which we are able to express the being. Doing is not who we are, it is the being and the being is expressed and put into action via the doing.
I love what you have said here Nikki, clearly defining what doing is.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person.” This is something I too get easily trapped in. When I appreciate myself it is far easier to focus on what I do. Appreciating who I am is much harder. Deep within me I know who I am but I feel a little stuck in the layer of doing. A beautiful blog to remind us all that we are not what we do.
And once we get behind the focus on the doing, establishing a rapport with our true nature and qualities, we being a different, steadier and more complete attention to everything we do…getting behind the doing to the being we enhance the doing – great side effect!
This is what I absolutely love about the inner exploration that I have been committed to for the last 11 years: “The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am”. There are no limits to our exploration of who we truly are, no need for any goals, outcomes or expectations, but to simply allow all that we are to be revealed with every choice we make to know ourself a little more every day.
Well said Karina, this understanding that the world outside of us does not define who we are is so important, and allows us to express freely without feeling burdened by society’s expectations and ‘roles’ that we feel are necessary to meet.
I feel most of us want to know who we are and are searching for this answer. I know I have, but I was always looking in the un-loving and not truthful places. Basically I was searching for truth, as through truth, I know now who I am. And truth I have found through Universal Medicine.
Beautifully said Stephen, whenever I am invested in something I am doing, there is an opportunity to see how I may be looking for recognition, acceptance or approval for a role I play in life.
‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am.’ I find this too, that everyday it’s possible to spend every moment of the day either in automatic and taking everything for granted or exploring who we are, like a never ending treasure hunt, it’s amazing what we can learn about ourselves in the most simple daily tasks.
And what a gorgeous way to live life – forever exploring. There can be no boredom, checking out nor is a mundane life possible when we live in this way.
That’s true, it makes the most boring and mundane task beautiful. After-all, how can a task be boring when you are exploring you?
Reading your comment has been really great Sandra as it made me more aware of the difference between our internal messages and the ideals and beliefs we can live from. It is great to realise that I am simply very beautiful inside and that all the rest, what I thought in the past that I was (shy for instance), was not really me at all.
Richard, what kind of intelligence is that, that goes looking for something that was never lost? What is it that distracts us from ourselves by providing all sorts of temptations, so-called issues and problems, and so much to strive for to make our life better? We get so caught up in the search and it’s only when we stop and feel that we realise that “your glasses” are where you put them – on top of your head. It’s only when we get out of our head and feel from the body that we realise we don’t need to go anywhere, for we are already home.
‘If these roles were who I am I would not exist without them.’ This says so much – we are already everything without anything from outside of us.
Every time I remind myself of this Michael it creates a moment in time for me to stop and feel.
Thank you Michael and Abby for your comments, it has reminded me at a very fast paced time to stop and smell the roses, so to speak.
Yes Michael I love this too. It’s just common sense. We are not what we do.
‘Who am I?’ was a question that I kept asking myself, and all the time my essence, was just there within, to be felt and appreciated. I am forever grateful to Serge Benhayon for meeting me as an equal and standing with love and truth, this is constantly inspiring.
Yes, Samantha, you have reminded me of the first time I ever met Serge Benhayon. In that meeting I felt that I truly met myself as a soulful being for the first time in a very long time.
It is a point that cannot be argued with, if I lose my job, am I nothing? Unfortunately for many this is their experience, and losing a job, or even retirement can be a real challenge in life, largely because of the self-worth attached through what is done, rather than who they are.
Yep so true Kerstin – how truly crazy it is to forget who we truly are. It is quite insidious when we feel into how deeply ingrained the teachings are to identify our selves by what we do. Understanding where that comes from and that is not so, is the first step into reconnecting to our most truest self.
Yes Aimee. Recognition keeps us flailing about in the rough seas, but when we are connected to ourselves we are sailing free in the bay with all of the other beautiful yachts equally.
So true Deborah – it really hits the nail on the head.
Before we can ‘do’ anything, we must first BE ourselves and then all that we do will be infused with the All that we are.
Other wise the doing is empty. The doing can be very rich, expressive and offer so much when it is full of who we are.
Who we truly are is who we truly allow ourselves to be.
Liane, this sums it up beautifully. I love that word ‘allow’. Why is it that we put up so much resistance and fight to not be ourselves when we could just surrender and allow ourselves to be who we naturally are?
What I realize as well is, that my need to fit in was very huge in the past. The momentum of it I can still feel today and I still have to look after myself, to make sure, that the old patterns don’t come back through the back door. I have to close all the windows, where I allowed this pattern in.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person.” I can feel how much this limits us to reduce the grandness that we are.
Absolutely Marcia, what we do is but the expression of the grandness that we are.
I was also looking for a long time outside of myself to find me. But, as you, only when I started to look inside, I found out that everything what I was looking for is in me. Part of my search was, that I visited a lot of courses. But not one single course helped me to sustain a solid feeling of myself. Only when I started to visit Universal Medicine Courses, then my life changed, because amazing people like Serge Benhayon reflected to me, that I don’t have to do anything, I just have to be myself.
Alexander, I was also looking out there for the answer and I tried many courses, sat with gurus and learnt many modalities but all of that just took me further and further away from being me. As soon as I met Serge Benhayon I deeply felt that he was reflecting the truth that I already knew and I dropped everything else and studied the Universal Medicine Therapies. It is such a relief to know that “I don’t have to do anything, I just have to be myself” by letting go of all the things I thought I was and committing fully to life.
Sandra I think that which you have shared about committing fully to life is the key difference between what is offered by the many courses, gurus and modalities, and what is presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. I too did all those things and none of them ever spoke to me about being fully committed to life. They only ever offered ‘solutions’ to my problems or the promise of an easier or better life – things that were ultimately hollow. It has only been through committing to life in full, instead of trying to shirk it and all the responsibility it entails, that I have begun to live a life that is true. Interestingly, there is far more joy in my life now too.
Alexander great comment! I have to admit that I did the same – visiting a lot of courses looking for myself. It was first Serge Benhayon who showed me through his living example that I just have to be myself . . . now there are so many more people living this to the best of their ability.
It is interesting how we try to define ourselves with our jobs, being a parent, what type of friend we want to be or how we are in the world by how we act. All of these things searching for ourselves to then discover what we are looking for was within us all along, and had never gone anywhere.
I remember asking myself ‘Who am I’ and I did not know, it’s as if my mind went blank and there was nothing – I now know that I had capped myself to knowing who I was by looking outside for others to tell me who I am. In this way of living there is no contentment with ourselves only a tension.
I too remember asking that question Julie, many times in my early years, and was stunned when I didn’t have the answer. I actually did not know who I was as I was so lost in the roles I was playing in the belief that they were me, when all the while the true me was waiting patiently for my search for the answer to turn inwards where all the answers I will ever need are held.
“I now know that I had capped myself to knowing who I was by looking outside for others to tell me who I am.” And this feels like the way we are taught from a young age to see and feel ourselves based on the outside world and other peoples opinions. In fact though beautifully so the essence of who we are is quietly sitting there on the inside until we choose to reconnect to this or another reflects this way to us.
How ironic that we are born with everything we need, kind of a lump of clay ready to express whatever shape we wish, that gets molded by the world around us to be what it wants! Unless we are baked in the shape the world wants, we can return to our origin. If, we are baked into that form we can become like the pots found on archaeological digs… stuck in that shape for life times.
More and more I feel how it’s me that makes what I do great, and how it doesn’t matter what I do as long as I bring all of me. It’s not what I do but what I bring, that makes me, me.
‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am’; there is such expansion in this line, one can feel how massive we are and how seeing ourselves as what we ‘do’ we miss exploring the enormous grandness we are.
Asa teenager I often found myself asking – ” Who can I be?”, and looking outside myself for the answers . How wonderful to have a greater understanding now , presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine in so many ways – but always from the power of ‘I am, that I am’.
When we strip away all of the things that we do and the roles that we play as a means of identifying ourselves, when we strip away our colour, our race, our gender and nationality, we soon realise that in our essence we are all the same just different expressions of it. We are brothers who all are the equal Sons of God and together we walk here on earth until there comes a time where we all live together in true brotherhood and then we will return home to heaven.
I agree Michael, a very beautiful sentence that is worth repeating and feeling many times.
I have identified myself throughout my life by many roles, jobs, studies, beliefs even where I have travelled. But one thing that was a common thread that connected all of these things is that through all of this I was searching for something about myself, I didn’t quite know what, but I kept on this relentless search because I knew that something was missing. What was missing was a relationship getting to know me, who I am and what and how I live everyday. What I am finding now that no matter what I am doing or where I am I am bringing this ever deepening relationship that I have with myself, wherever I go. This is one of the most precious things as the searching for that something has stopped and I know that I am so much more than what I do. Deepest thanks to Serge Benhayon and all at Universal Medicine for this amazing gift.
Jennifer this is really beautiful to read. I know I am more than what I do and am deepening my relationship with myself and feeling the quality I do bring. I am also aware of a habit of going into doing without full presence and how damaging this is. So it is really lovely to read about you getting to know yourself. Once I believed I could only be myself when by myself and now it’s about being me wherever and whomever I’m with.
I love this too Karin – “…and now it’s about being me wherever and whomever I’m with.” It is so liberating not to have to play roles and conform to expectation, and it feels very empowering to just be who we are in any given moment.
Exploring who we are is a great thing, as it is a continuous development without an end. Getting to know ourselves gives us the opportunity to see more and more of what we are not.
I like this Benkt, ‘getting to know ourselves gives us the opportunity to see more and more of what we are not’, so true.
Yes never-ending, allowing us to go deeper and deeper if we so choose. And by recognising what we are not, we can come forever closer to our true self. Awesome process.
Indeed, only by knowing ourselves we realise what we are not but have been identified with for so long; it is like an actor who has lost himself so much in the role he is playing that he confuses the stage for being all there is. Only by stepping off the stage he can look at it from the outer and see it for what it is.
I love this analogy, Alex. Many of us have been in roles for a long time, acting out life , playing parts that have been given to us ( mother, father, sister, brother, nurse, husband etc) but now realising that these parts are not us but are just roles we have taken on. Once we understand this we are able to feel deeper into who we truly are -we can get off the stage and start living from our essence instead of being defined by roles, and the ideals and beliefs we have been carrying around with us.
Great analogy as that is what it is, we are constantly looking outside of ourselves, and see this as the reality of who we are. Letting this go and step of the stage, gives us a much wider scope to see life as it truly is, and what we have created to play along in the play of the world.
I always felt that I was here for a purpose when I was in my teens and that I would find this at some point and I have, although it is constantly unfolding further to reveal more. This was found, not in looking outside of me but from learning to reconnect to the truth within and with the love and support from Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and a number of inspiring practitioners and many fellow students.
Helen absolutely, and what I see now is that instead of searching for who I am somewhere “out there” it’s always been inside. It stops one to consider that the search of who we are needs go no further than connecting to our self as it shows just how many layers we’ve imposed on ourselves for that not to be all our living way.
More and more I am learning to see that it is who I am and not what I do but how I do it that makes the difference and letting go of the picture what i feel like that should like, so I can see what it is that I am there to do.
Yes, letting go of the ideals and beliefs that create pictures in our minds of what our life should look like, frees us up to connect to how beautiful we are just being ourselves, in the moment, without needing an identity or status badge.
“all I had to do was to start listening to that inner voice rather than allow another source outside of myself to tell me who I am.”
What a beautiful and profound realisation; listening to our own divine inner wisdom instead of being dominated by outside influences.
It is indeed up to each and everyone of us to continue to deepen our responsibility, listen and respond to our own innate wisdom.
I agree Janet, all the warmth, tenderness and unconditional love you can share with another there within me.
What your discussing is so important – the fact that for so many, without their roles, labels and jobs, they wouldn’t perhaps know who they are. And so many people feel the need to find who they are, but just like a dog is a dog and doesn’t need to find that out, or a rose is a rose and just blooms beautifully without question, we are already all that we are should we take the time to allow it out.
It is true we tend to define ourselves as what we do but that is not who we are or we would be called Human Doings rather than Human Beings. However, our actions can very often be a reflection of our beingness.
Who we are is most certainly a quality that exists within. We all know what truly supports us and what doesn’t, but most of us choose to ignore the truth, myself included, because it is much easier to not listen to the voice saying that chocolate, alcohol, cigarettes etc. are poison for our bodies. I am very blessed in that I have managed to let go of alcohol, cigarettes and recreational drugs, my only weakness now is sugar and I can so feel how racy it makes my body, but I still eat it, because it tastes so lovely and also helps me to not feel what is happening in my body at certain times and to hide in comfort! However, everything is a process and I am learning that sugar does not help me to stay with me in conscious presence and after the high, comes the low!
Yes Janet, the body knows.. and when we call to its command of stillness, in there, everything is found or known for what it truly is.
I had all sorts of imaginations of who I am often related to my job. I thought I am only somebody worthy when I have a good job. Later on I was a good mum, but I still missed the identification with my job, so I was torn between two things. Learning to know Universal Medicine I experienced who I am in truth and since then am relearning what this means in my day to day life.
I found a similar thing Kerstin and that identification has many layers within that. I would identify and judge myself on whether a day was a good one or not, on whether I achieved all that I had tasked myself for the day rather than feeling everything that was needed was attended to simply from that fact that I walked into a room. I am still working on this, but I am feeling more of this everyday. We certainly do bring a whole lot more that we have ever been lead to believe.
I agree Susan that it is devastating to the bone when we fall for the idea that the are what we do. Often when I ask people how they are I get the answer “Good and I am very busy” and that is to be honest not what I was asking for as I can feel from that answer that people are not used anymore to go to that intimate place we all equally hold within, that place where our connection with the one unified truth within us is.
Very true. We have come to depend on subjective opinions outside of ourselves to determine our own worth. Who we really are and what we should be doing can be discovered through connecting with the wonderful being we all are within.
Stephen, I love what you have written here and realise that I do this with so much more than the achievements in academia or work, I do it with relationships of the people around me. I am invested in being liked, in the relationship growing, rather than just being myself and accepting that if I express who I am then the outcome of the relationship does not really matter as I have been me and it is the relationship with me that I really miss.
Thank you for your honesty, Stephen. I am with you on the measuring myself and my success based on others’ reactions and responses to what I do. I have been feeling my own self-confidence building to a place where I do not need someone else to confirm for me that I know what I am doing, but it takes time and self-care.
I have spent most of my life measuring myself and my success based on other’s reactions and I have realised that it is ok to not live like this thanks to Serge Benhayon.
The moments when we appreciate the qualities we are by discerning what is absolutely true for our selves and not an absorbed ideal or belief from another source are magical and very foundationally building. I love these moments of claiming me in full.
Thank you for sharing Emma, I can really relate to what you have expressed here. I always had a sense of the truth of who I am but it wasn’t until I discovered Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that I was able to take steps towards living this truth. I am only just getting started in a relationship with me and the more I get to know myself the more there is to love.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person. If this were true, then when I stopped doing something I would stop existing.” The concept of defining ourselves by what we do rather than who we are is one that leaves you feeling very lost and empty and what many retirees can struggle with. I have recently being working through really trying to see myself outside of the duties and actions and feel what it is that I bring with to everything that I do.
“All the internal dialogue is poison to feeling that I am already everything that I am searching for outside myself.” – this cannot be said and understood deeply enough. They way we poison our lives with conditional thoughts and expectations of how we need to look based on how the world around us want us to be
“But when all of these roles were absent from my day I was still here, so I realized that none of these roles defined who I am.”. What an incredible realisation – thank you for sharing that with us all and for what unfolded after that
Our greatest disease is that we do not know who we truly are.
…and our greatest hurt that we have chosen this for ourselves.
We are not our roles – what a relief! Going through the education system teaches kids that they are what they achieve, what they can remember, and after that – what job they can get, how rich they can be, what house they can have etc. I love this blog because it shows us that we don’t have to conform to this – no matter what job, family situation, amount of money – nothing can take away or add more to who we are.
Yes Jessica, those things are all great to have, and the commitment to life through a good job/profession, and one that pays well and supports oneself to grow or educate, is essential. It’s when we get owned by such lifestyles that it becomes an issue that drives us to not be the real-us, to make us lose the plot should we ever loose any of those self-identified factors.
Yes, Jessica, how amazing would it be if teachers from any early age taught children to appreciate who they are rather than what they can achieve?
I love how you broke down the contradictions with the belief of who we are being tied to what we do. What a simple way to say that if we took away those things, would we not still exist? This seems so obvious, yet I can see how personally I have tricked myself into believing that somehow my self-worth was tied to what I did for work or identified with other activities and accomplishments. But now I can feel a growing ease within me after I have committed more to taking care of myself more deeply and allowing myself to deal with any issues that arise regarding an old pattern of not feeling ‘enough’. However, how can we possibly not be enough if we came from a Divine source in God?
This is huge and beautiful Joseph, our bodies really are our vehicles of quality that in-house our being and when this is known it is very shallow to judge or identify another (or ourselves) by our looks. To see and observe only looks is to leave out one very important factor in life and that is our ability to read energy, which delves far deeper than the surface of our skin to the very quality that you speak of Joseph – that of true stillness, love and care.
‘We leave the world of complication we’ve created and come back to the simplicity of who we are.’. Thank you Monica for expressing the beauty of coming home to ourselves.
‘I am not what I do as I would not exist without any stimulus outside of myself. ‘ I just love the simple undeniable logic of this. So to seek who I am in anything that I do or role that I perform, no matter how subtle, disconnects us from who we truly are.
It is true that in taking away all the roles I have put on myself in the past, and that was the first time I had a chance to really live the discovery of who I truly am. Recognizing myself as a role never felt quite enough and I was always looking for more, but nothing ever fulfilled.
‘The search for who I am’ is a search that some have not begun, others are well and truly on it and others are at the end of it but how absurd that we all get so totally lost and seemingly so far from who we are, when all along we are always right here.
Very true Gill, but what I’ve also found is the key is to not focus on what we are not, as otherwise, we can stay homed in on that instead of connecting and accepting how truly beautiful we actually are. I’ve found that there is always a pattern or behaviour, another way of protecting myself, reacting etc that will reveal itself, a little nuance or pocket of something that I know isn’t me. For a long time, and I still need to catch myself now, I’d give this all my focus, while all along the beauty inside me has been blossoming and blossoming — but I wouldn’t notice!
I wish I had read this blog when I was around 10 or 11 or even earlier and come to the same realisations as you have but then. Truly valuing and appreciating me for me rather than what I do is huge and has been a huge learning for me. Wow I exhausted myself trying to constantly prove myself!
It’s amazing how we create all our issues, dilemmas and woes as a form of identification and complication. When in simple truth we have no issues at all, and there is no need for searching. From the day we are born we know the truth of who we are, we are born all knowing. it is we who have chosen to walk away from it.
True Gyl. And it is even more incredible that once we have walked away we choose to ‘forget’ and start thinking that it is life’s fault, our partner’s fault, the politician’s fault, God’s decision…. anything but our own responsibility and accountability. In contrast if we choose to truly observe life and deepen our understanding, we will find how life simply keeps reflecting what we have been choosing so we have the opportunity to refine our choices and keep evolving back to the true essence we have walked away from.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person. If this were true, then when I stopped doing something I would stop existing” – could this be then why we and our spirit love motion so much? Because if the motion was to cease then it would loose its self created identification – and we could not but live in full responsibility with our Soul and God. In this there is absolutely no denying the fact, which deep down we all know, we are all one and the same. (a clear and true definition of spirit and soul can be found here – Spirit and Soul)
In the quiet moments when I prepare for sleep or first wake up I can connect to who I am. The stillness, the sweetness, the all knowing Soul. In these moments I know Oneness and my own divinity, the trick is to stay connected through my day. The teachings and modalities of Universal Medicine have offered me invaluable support to help me surrender to knowing, accepting who I am and to bit by bit live more of me.
What a beautiful way to live, Jeannette. I can feel how simple and sacred life becomes.
There are very few people in this world that confirm the absolute truth of who we are – sons of God. Serge Benhayon and his family do just this, confirm and reflect all that we are, all that we have been before and all that we are returning to again.
This is a very precious thing Gyl, to know others who deeply live in and by the consistent knowing of who we are and make their life-long purpose about reflecting this truth to everyone they meet and equally everyone they don’t meet. Confirming that we are about a quality of being and never just about what we do breaks the mold that humanity has been encased within, the one that has kept us in the illusion of needing acceptance and recognition from anyone else.
The other day I was having this conversation with my wonderful colleague and she shared about how concerned she is for her son. I asked her: so who are you, when you are not mother? This was such a big eye opener for her. We talked about so who are we when we let go of all our roles? I noticed that it became so spacious when we talked about this. It is like taking off a coat that no longer fits you.
I agree Marika, it is tricky and interesting to observe how it pops its head up every now and then. My whole life used to revolve around this as it was all I knew so to write about this makes me appreciate how far I have come in letting go of the false foundations I was using outside of myself.
For anyone on the search of ‘Who I Am’ Universal Medicine is the one stop shop to go to.
“I find it very easy to get trapped in the idea that what I do is who I am as a person. If this were true, then when I stopped doing something I would stop existing. ” i love this as its something I have battled with (who I am being what I do) yet the way you express this exposes the ridiculous nature of that. Much to take into my day!
“I have found that who we are is a quality that exists within. That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within.” Yes, true and to expand it even more, the other part is the incessant messages we send to our own body to honour (or not) the quality that we know is true, which then feeds back at us.
Life used to be a constant struggle and I always felt that I needed to always push, push, push, either to be seen or liked by others I had to be doing things constantly. Finding Universal Medicine allowed me to see that when we look outside of ourselves for answers, we will always be searching for what is already right there in front of us. The true power we hold is found in the truth of our love within. You don’t need to travel far to find that?
Many people turned to Universal Medicine because of the answers to their questions. This was not my experience. In my case there were no questions I was seeking an answer for. Universal medicine has ignited in me the appetite for questions and has provided me with the space to slowly learn how to answer them.
It’s so incredibly common to try to find ourselves in our jobs, and careers and in our relationships and family life, but you are so right, if none of that existed we would still be here! Learning that the answer to who I am may just lie inside me has been totally revelatory, I am constantly amazed at what I feel and the truths I simply know without trying.
Yes Meg I found it also revelatory that – I would be still there if non of our so called important things in life are not existing. To get a feel of who I am truly is a great journey – it is a not an outside journey – it is an inside journey and I have to admit that I am still amazed how beautiful this journey is.
I used to ask myself very similar questions when I was younger, ‘who am I’, ‘why are we here’, ‘what is my role in all of this’. I would painstakingly be hard on myself for not knowing, not being all of who I could be. Because I didn’t know the answers, I lost myself also, in drinking, partying, work, being a step mother, wife, on the treadmill of life, never feeling satisfied or content within myself. It wasn’t until I came upon Universal Medicine and the works of the ageless wisdom, that I was able to start to connect with who I truly am and live that, very transforming.
Gosh Stephen I appreciate what you have shared here and can totally relate. I think there is identifying with what we do and then celebrating what we bring. It may look the same on the outside, but it feels very different in the body. It’s exhausting identifying in what we do.
Absolutely Jeanette. It is inspiring to realise that there is no end to deepening our connection to Soul, to God and with All.
And we can do this while living a very ordinary, everyday life.
Absolutely Jennifer, a beautifully ordinary, amazing everyday life.
‘I have found that I am a very loving and caring being who wants to share this with all I meet.’ What an amazing way to get to know who you and we truly are through understanding our deep loving nature and the way this naturally emanates outward to everyone one else without any need.
Yes Michael – knowing the truth of who we are from within is a beautiful way to understand our deep loving nature – gorgeously shared.
I was always looking for confirmation or acceptence ouside of myself as a way of determining who I was, however I have now come to the realisation the search for who I am is an ongoing internal search
Me too Joe, and when I used to look outside, I’d always have to keep looking. The longing would always be there, a longing for something I knew that I missed so much but didn’t know how to get to it again, find it again. The moment I felt the inner grace of who I am through an esoteric healing workshop with Serge Benhayon I knew that I no longer needed to look, and that the deepest truth I had always known had been reignited: that the love and glory we seek to emulate with outside distractions, entertainment and highs and lows, is always within us, so beautiful so grand, that nothing outside of us can come close. Once you are home, you are truly home.
So gorgeously expressed Gina, and it is in the exploration and continual unfolding of who we are that we get to feel the true joy in life that comes from living who we truly are from the inside out.
And once connected as you describe, we have to express it, as the Benhayon’s do so consistently, showing us how life can be lived.
Amelia I agree what you say about ideals and beliefs: ‘it is a beautiful process to discard them as we choose to live more from our inner knowing and less from their constrictive impulse’. To walk with steadiness and an inner sense of knowing means we are not torn and pulled this way and that by the external world. This simplifies life.
What I love about this blog is that it exposes all the outward searches to find or become who we truly are to not be true and actually false and misleading. Who we are is already inside us and this makes simple sense. It is about removing everything that we are not and just let those bits go which will reveal who we truly are.
Yes Lieke, by removing the all that we are not, we reveal the truth of who we are and that it far surpasses anything we could find out there.
‘I have to find myself’. This a phrase I heard many times in my life. It was the prelude of an action (leaving a relationship. travelling, etc.). Yet, is it really it? Do you have to go and find yourself? Or do you have to connect with yourself, to accept and honour what you already are and will always be?
Yes Eduardo and you can sense the huge difference in the two. Having to find yourself indicating that we have to get or acquire something that we haven’t got yet, so hard work OR connecting to ourselves indicating that it is already there just not felt and given attention to which brings a feeling of already being totally fine where ever you are at. It reminded me of the slogan of my high school that said: “Becoming who you are” but that is just like having to find yourself, it is saying you are not right yet and you have to become something (you) before being ok, but it totally leaves out the truth and that is that we are already everything we need to be, we just need to re-connect to it and nurture it.
I love what you share here Eduardo. Trying to find ourselves is a common expression for a common problem. Yet, what you share contains a truth that had I known when young would have transformed my life… the answer lies in connection not looking and seeking.
I am constantly amazed and inspired by the fact that when someone knows who they are in truth and lives that with consistency – like Serge Benhayon and his family, they probably do more and have more productivity than those who think they are what they do.
Absolutely Fumiyo, the way and number of hours Serge Benhayon works blows out of the water the notion that you have to push yourself and burn the candle at both ends in order to achieve.
When there’s any investment in anything offered by the world that recognises and rewards us for what we do and achieve, whatever and however we say ‘we are love’ etc. doesn’t quite satisfy us, it is just information. And we cannot get enough of recognition either, it needs to keep coming for us to think we know who we are. So we keep doing, and doing, and doing and doing…
The way I was asking the question ‘Who am I?’ – it was coming with an expectation that there is a package with my name on. So, even though the question sounded as though, and I convinced myself as such, there was a desire to know the truth, but I cannot deny there being a hint of indivualisation and glamour about it. This makes sense why it can be hard at times to just simply be love and let go of all the ideals/beliefs/emotions/attachment etc. and completely renounce what is not who we truly are. There is something about us that enjoys and is attached to this world created by separation.
So true Fumiyo: “even though the question sounded as though, and I convinced myself as such, there was a desire to know the truth but I cannot deny there being a hint of indivualisation and glamour about it”
‘I have found that who we are is a quality that exists within. That quality sends us messages from time to time to remind us that what we are doing is either in conflict or in-line with, the quality we are within.’ – such a beautiful description of what I also have discovered. That when we are willing to pay attention to messages that are ever-present from our quality within we realise that there is a deeply beautiful and intimate relationship to be explored with ourselves, one whose purpose is only ever to guide us to be in connection to this quality within, with who we truly are.
That it is Michael, and a never ending one as there is always a deeper place to go within ourselves.
Your blog is philosophical and I enjoyed reading about your pondering. It has also been my experience to discover the importance of listening to that quiet inner knowing that knows what is true and can so easily be overridden by the much more forceful and wayward voice that delights in leading me astray, so that I do not shine my light in the world. As I give my attention to the quieter voice it becomes more solid and forms my foundation.
When I was around 8 or 10 years old, I remember lying in bed at night and asking myself ‘What happens to ME when I die? Where do I go?’. I knew then that there was more to me than my physical body, although I had never discussed it with anyone because I didn’t feel anyone around me could answer my questions. So there was a knowing at a young age that there was more to life than what defines us on the outside.
Who we are is not found in the complexity of what we do – who we are can only be found in the simplicity and stillness of our inner heart and living this fact.
“We all have this exact same inner dialogue of feelings that is us, and from my experience it just takes a bit of listening to start to build a relationship with ourselves.”
I love this article and the line above is a stand out as it allows me to feel I am not alone. It is alarming to realise you do not really know who you are and very reassuring to know that the answers are inside of us if we are willing to make the space to listen.
Leonne, I have found this to be very true, ‘It is alarming to realise you do not really know who you are and very reassuring to know that the answers are inside of us if we are willing to make the space to listen.’ After years of searching for answers, trying to find who I am in far off lands and various meditation courses, it has been wonderful to come across Universal Medicine and discover that everything I need is within me.
It’s funny how we define ourselves by what we do – when I am asked ‘How are you?’ I often reply with a list of all the things I’ve been doing, but I am learning to feel my body more, so sometimes my reply can be ‘I’m feeling pretty vulnerable today’ or, ‘I’m feeling great thanks.’ I love it when people say ‘I’m feeling amazing today’ it inspires me to go beyond my personal issues and appreciate the amazing being that I am too.
Yes Jonathan – when we take away all our identifications, not only the doing part, who am I then ? I realised the other day, that I had a picture in me, to which I always tried to live up to. And this was very exhausting. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I know now, that there is nothing to be found outside myself, everything what I need is inside me.
Wonderful expressed Lieke – I also allow myself more and more, that my beautiful spark inside me leads my way and gives me the quality to serve humanity.
So true Alexis – we can always deepen our relationship to ourselves and to our body.
Thanks Kim for reminding me on simplicity. Always when I read this word, it creates space in myself and I want to check all areas in my life, where I still allow complexity.
What you do will always be of value because of ‘you’ that is doing it.
That’s when it is you doing it, and not some energy that is not you that is now expressing through the body.
Yes so discernment in all we do is of the utmost importance.
It is so worth the process of discarding self doubt and investment in seeking identity in life achievement to arrive at the underlying truth of how amazing we are in our essence. Even just beginning to live from that quality in daily life is something so precious that all the material wealth and comfort in life could not compare.
Susan I agree it is a devastating when we loose the inner knowing, we get caught in the outside ideals and beliefs that takes us on a different journey away from our true self. Thanks to Universal Medicine we are finding our way back to that inner knowing.
‘I am no longer allowing what is happening outside of myself to dictate my value’ this is such a powerful statement Nicola, one that will one day become a truth for everyone. Our current society is designed in a way to keep everyone less than who they truly are; there are SO many ideals and beliefs, pressures and un-normal ‘norms’ that make up a recipe for every type of individual to ‘stay down’ and not express the light they are in an otherwise dark cloud. This keeps love at bay, until people such as yourself begin firing up a spark that will shine the way home for everyone, back to a true way of living with ourselves and one another.
I agree Susie. There is an elaborate reward and punishment system to keep us off balance and to make us fit into the group of people we live with. It takes a lot of strength to still express our truth and our love rather than fulfil expectations.
“The Search for Who I Am” is actually physically exhausting, It’s only once we stop, and live the truth that there is nothing, not one ounce of anything, recognition, acceptance, work, relationships, food, money, jobs or accolade that will ever bring us the truth depth and wealth of love, warmth, simplicity and stillness that is already there inside us from the day we are born, to be connected to and lived.
I loved reading this Gyl: “there is nothing, not one ounce of anything, recognition, acceptance, work, relationships, food, money, jobs or accolade that will ever bring us the truth depth and wealth of love, warmth, simplicity and stillness that is already there inside us from the day we are born, to be connected to and lived.” It is true and I feel to connect to this wealth inside me by loving myself deeply.
I felt this ‘void’ you speak of also, I just kept feeling that this wasn’t it, and so the question what is ‘it’? I know I have found ‘it’ because I have become open to a relationship with my inner being, my soul. I am learning to live from this and so love is felt and lived more naturally more frequently. The ‘it’ was not from any one else, it came from within me and the emptiness I once felt I carried around with me and yes tried to fill with food, drink, smoke and relationships is no longer empty and in fact never was. I have transformed layers of hurt that caged my body and heart and what is ‘it’ my soul and connection with the all, with God, which has always been there, has expanded.
Great discernment of the nudges, and pushes we all feel in life when it comes to what we consider to be a tricky decision. As you say “It’s interesting how they often contrast, and that the outside voice hardly ever offers a loving option.” It is a physical and energetic experience, we can feel the difference and yes the inner voice offers with love, this has been my experience also.
I agree it has taken awhile for myself, and what I am finding is that there are layers and layers of it, so where I would have had the thought that it was a okay or somehow justified to shout at someone else 10 years ago, something I would know now is that thought is not from my inner being, I can still however go hard in my body and have a reaction to an event, a layer of protection and beliefs that attempt to allude my connection with my inner being, “It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life.” I continue to unveil and allow expansion of what is love in my life rather than what is not.
So simple and so true “If this were true, then when I stopped doing something I would stop existing.” If what we do was what we where this would be the outcome if it stopped, and so this revelation allows us the space to ponder, so what are we without the doing, a very valuable subject to consider…
I love what you shared Samantha and I agree this is really a very valuable subject to consider – and it would make so much sense to do so as living like this is something what is not so healthy as our illness and disease rates are showing us so clearly.
Love this, Susie. I find the ‘inner voice’ very respectful, practical and considerate of the big picture. The ‘outside voice’ is often defiant, self-centred, rude and dismissive. I am refining my listening and response skills.
‘…it just takes a bit of listening to start to build a relationship with ourselves.’ So simple. Everything is already in place we just need to turn our attention to what our bodies are showing us all of the time. As we develop this respect and care, we can take responsibility for where all of our choices lead.
Building a relationship with our body and trusting/listening to what it communicates to us is really key to the choices we make each day.
Our bodies really are telling us what is going on all the time. It is just whether we are wanting to listen to it or not. Even when it does speak to us, I have found it confusing at times, being in a momentum or way of living, that my awareness doesn’t or hasn’t lent itself to me understanding what it truly going on. This can take time, which can cause frustration, but I am finding it is bringing love and understanding to my body, knowing that it is a result of my choices, so I have to take responsibility for that and love myself more.
We can spend a whole lifetime searching for who we are and never find the elusive answer… until we stop and find that what we have been seeking is us.
Nailed it to the point, Steve. There is no need to search what is already there.
The answer lies in that one word Steve “Stop” – only once we stop the incessant motion and compelxity we as humanity choose to live in, will we find the truth of everything. That all we could ever possible want and have been searching for is right on our doorstep, it’s never gone away. All we have to do is open the door to our inner heart and the simplicity of love and truth is there for all to live, feel and see – if we so choose.
Said like this Steve highlights the craziness of human life.
Yes Steve this is so true and I have spent many years on the seekers path myself. The irony is that we are only searching because we have left that which we are seeking, ourselves, our connection to our Soul. As in leaving or disconnecting from this we have discovered that there is no greater fulfillment in the external world than there is in our connection to all that we are within.
That is very true Steve, there are many dangling carrots out there that offer an enticing invitation to find ourselves through success, achievement, spirituality, religion, ideals, and so on. Yet, what we are looking for is perhaps most simply reflected in the purity of a tiny child completely at ease with all of who they are. There is such wisdom in the innocence of a child expressing their true and whole self. For those of us who search for or feel disconnected to ourselves, this is perhaps the most important reflection.
Underneath everything we all know who we are but just get a little thrown out by the bombardment of outside influences. Some get so far from who they truly are they think it’s OK to kill, rape or abuse for what ever reason they choose to justify their actions. By knowing who we truly are it is impossible to harm another as you know you are doing it to yourself.
Kevin you have highlighted the importance of this topic as an essential part of a harmonious society. I agree completely, when we are connected to who we truly are, we cannot harm.
Absolutely Kevin. If we understand that everything we do and say not only has a HUGE affect on the people around us, but also on our own bodies, then behaving in an abusive manner in any way shape or form becomes out of the question.
It’s so beautiful how the more we listen to ourselves, the more wisdom we are given.
I agree Amelia and don’t our attempts to assemble who we are from bits and pieces that we’ve strung together from the outside feel so incredibly shonky compared to the beauty of what we all have awaiting us on the inside.
Love your expression here Alexis ‘don’t our attempts to assemble who we are from bits and pieces that we’ve strung together from the outside feel so incredibly shonky’ This perfectly sums up the DYI barrier of beliefs we erect that we hide behind when all we need is right here inside us. Our true expression It needs the space to emerge and how magnificent it already is…. not a belief in sight!
Yes Alexis, it’s like patching together a costume that we feel will keep us safe in the world – and in doing so cover over the immense beauty that we naturally are.
And it is a costume that never really fits, feels somewhat uncomfortable and made in a quality we know doesn’t reflect what we are truly worth.
Love this Alexis, I know exactly when I feel shonky and it is not a pinch on feeling the beauty that I already am.
So true Alexis, many have spent years refining this shonkiness so it looks pretty smooth and well managed but the beauty of the inside and for many the hardest part it that it requires no management or control – just an absolute commitment to discern the energy we live from and that surrounds us.
It is interesting how quickly we can loose ourselves in the doing and the getting things done. Just the other day I felt delicate and gentle but then I had some dead lines to meet and suddenly I became this person on a mission and the drive kicked in to finish what I was doing. I lost my delicate gentle way of being and hardened myself to get things done and in no time at all I was not the loving person I was at the beginning of the day. I had to really make myself stop both physically and mentally (with the negative thoughts that were creeping in). This hardening was not only affecting me but everyone around me.
Thanks for your comment Alison, I have also experienced this same drive and zeal to get something done at the expense of my connection to myself. It’s so destructive for our health and wellbeing, yet it’s drummed into us during our education and in work – to put all that is in front of us before all that we are.
I love how You gave these amazing examples of identyfing oneself with the roles and the doing. And I agree Your blog should ve spread in many magazines it is so amazing and supportiing. Confirming. Thank You for expressing this the Way You did.
” The search for ” Who I Am ” came to a conclusion when I first attended a Universal Medicine presentation, I knew I had found ‘home’ it was felt in my body, everything resonated. The process since has been one of discarding the layers of hurts and ideals and beliefs to get to a point where I started to see glimmers of the child within, and feel the quality of me and to live and appreciate and accept the unique person I have developed a love affair with. Now life has a purpose and if I make love my way, the way is before me, no further searching required I am ‘home’
What I could feel reading your blog Tony I likened to the Greek philosophers of old. You raise much to question and ponder within ourselves and to go deeper to this quality or essence that is within. To make it only about this quality, and not anything outside of us is something I am constantly working with. At times I find it uncomfortable when I have to feel the gap of where I have been living from an ideal or a reliance on a recognition with something I do, but if I surrender, I know I will find my way back, as is the same for all. That is what I know and trust to be true.
Beautiful comment Amelia, I am inspired, I too am finding the unfoldment process amazing. Sometimes not easy, but each time I shed another layer of what is not me, based on what I can feel deep within is me, it is so worth it. I will never stop until I have nothing but my essence once again.
The way I see it we have both a BIG voice and a small voice within. The small voice thinks it is the big voice because it makes the most noise, is in constant motion and gets very excited about the images it receives from the outer realm. The true BIG voice is naturally quiet for it speaks through the sound of silence and in this Stillness, the All is known. Therefore it has no want nor need for the spoils of the externally created way of living we have thus far aspired to living that is based entirely on ‘who we are not’, at the expense of who we truly are, for it knows that true living comes from letting the inside out and not from letting the outside in. Only when we live this way will we infuse all that we do with the All that we are. Such is the way of life for the human being (Soul) and not the ‘human doing’ (spirit).
Only when we truly know who we are, will we truly know who we are not. The treasure of our true self – our Soul – lies within. Those that seek for it outside of themselves do so with their eyes closed, in full and known illusion.
Through Universal Medicine I have come to know that I am stillness, I am truth, I am harmony, I am joy, I am love. And that this is all within me and I have a choice to walk this heaven here on earth.
To discern whether the inner feelings are aligned with my Soul or come from an outer source – that’s a great way to connect to who I am. I find it supportive to discern my muscle tension. Impulses from ideals and believes cause tension, whereas impulses from my Soul cause space and a warm yummy feeling in my muscles.
Very good point Felix, our bodies are an amazing marker of truth, as Serge Benhayon has presented many times. The fact is our bodies very clearly and loudly speak to us, the question is do we listen.
Yes Felix this is a great point. Our bodies reflect precisely what quality we are in. I have found that when are willing to be honest and listen to our bodies we discover that there is a beautiful inner guidance always on offer, highlighting how vital is to develop an honoring relationship with our bodies as we are then ever-guided from within to be all that we are.
A great description Felix and marker from your body to know what is a true choice.
I agree Kim when we remove the outside influence and look within we are solid and light at the same time.
I am deeply connected to my delicateness, The problem is that when I take on too much I disconnect from this quality, speed up, and act anything but delicate. This blog is a great reminder to put being before doing anything, then this gorgeous quality I am will remain through the day.
Gorgeous Mary-Louise. This delicateness is a solid marker for us to refer to and check if we are with ourselves deeply so or not.
Bang on Mary-Louise, I can very much relate to this – as soon as I step into motion and rushing, in comes the hardness, whereas as in stillness I am naturally super delicate. I am also very aware of when I am rushing etc it’s all driven by my head, as in thinking what to do next, whereas when I am still my body simply knows what to do next.
What a lovely reminder Mary-Louise to enter the day with. Thank you.
I felt something very interesting reading your blog, in that it isn’t the role that defines who I am but my to do list!!!!!! This isn’t on a huge scale but instead a very subtle level, it’s great to see as it is showing me to deepen my connection with myself.
I can relate to what you share here Vicky. I too am redefining my relationship with my to-do list. I impose so many expectations on myself and then give myself a hard time for not meeting them. I remember reading another blog recently where the author wrote about changing her ‘to do’ list into a ‘might be done,’ list. That’s what I’m calling mine from now on.
So easy to default to defining ourselves from the to-do list Vicky. I find that when I am less connected to myself I instead chase ticking of actions to fill the gap rather than stopping and reconnecting back to me.
I know the ‘to do’ list so well. The list, the roles, the mission, the hurts – there are so many ways I can get caught with discontent, a chasing , a needing to do or get something, all the while feeling less and less connected to myself. Yes Vicky, it’s great to see being caught in such activities as the ‘to do’ list “showing me to deepen my connection with myself”.
Yes, how easy it was to get distracted and identified in our to do list. I like what you say Vicky, ‘it is showing me to deepen my connection with myself.’
No, we are just love. Well said, Rachael.
Excellent blog. This constant stimulation to sustain what we do has become so dynamic and distracting that the very essence of who we are gets buried. But it is never lost.
Shami I agree “the constant stimulation to sustain what we do has become so dynamic and distracting that the very essence of who we are gets buried.” This is so highlighted when retirement comes around there is nothing or no one asking anything of us and we are no longer employed to be ‘doing’. Up until that point we have not lived according to our own impulse, so when it comes to going it alone we have no reference point for a new way and feel purposeless.
It’s a huge step in responsibility to then take control of your own life when the ‘doing’ has kept us distracted. For me I am in this phase but have found with connection to myself first and a purpose to stay in community and service, I have moved from one project to the next with such harmony that you would think I spent months planning. No one could have planned how my life is panning out and I’m so loving every day as my life continues to unfold.
Beautifully said Shami. Although our essence does get buried through constant stimulation it is never lost. Through connecting to our stillness we can uncover it in a moment.
True Shami Duffy, the exact opposite of our innate stillness often runs the surface layer of life and often we ‘think’ that this is the truth, and yet our inner being is left unchanged and yes makes itself felt. The ‘discomfort’ we can some times feel can come from the knowing that what is occurring in our lives is not supportive, the truth or ‘in line’ with our inner connection, with the whole. Practicing to connect and be aware of what we feel opens up a door to wisdom, we say yes to listening to our inner being, our soul.
Being reminded that we possess everything we ever want inside us already and can connect to the truth of who we are is one of the most amazing gifts that Universal Medicine offers…. Blessing us with no longer needing to look outside as we have done and enabling an understanding of ourselves that the world could never teach us… for it had to come from within.
i agree with you Helen, ‘”it has inspired me to continue my commitment to knowing and appreciating me for who I am”.
Listening to our inner dialogue and deciphering what is true is in itself a science and comes from our body and not our mind. The more I listen to my body and not my head the more I have got to know who I really am, this has been an amazing journey and one that I thank Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for because without their reflection I would still be questioning who the real me is.
Well observed Stephen. I feel the same way and often find it difficult to separate what I do from who I am. It’s a work in progress of course.
This is so true Fiona, the world is geared up to take us further away from ourselves through advertising and achievement based acknowledgement. A world based on support and acknowledgement of our inner self would be a different world indeed.
“So what is it that truly makes us who we are?” We are in the belief that there is something that has to give us an identity, that forms us, that gives us a right to be in the world, but there is nothing like this that makes us who we are as we all are from a much bigger expression than this human form and by understanding this we realize that divinity just is in its grandness and that nothing has to be done.
Beautifully Said Rachel. When we understand that there is nothing we can do in this world that will make us who we are, but that we are already from a grand form of expression well beyond here, we will know precisely who we are and what that means down here on Earth. I have experienced this to be something very tangible and very real.
Your blog exposes how as a society we see others and ourselves for what they ‘do’ as being them, and how in doing this we truly miss meeting each other along with ourselves. If we are not living from our inner heart which is our true self then how are we to show another who we truly are.
It’s the peeling away of what we are not that allows light to shine on the all we are.
Beautiful wisdom Kim. I am feeling another round of layers peeling off and I welcome wholeheartedly.
Gorgeously said Kim. Our job is to reignite the inner light that casts away the shadows that have sought to mask it, and in whose ‘darkness’ we have chosen to dwell.
Beautifully expressed and claimed Kim.
Beautifully and wisely said Kim – I agree. There is no greater light than the light of the Divinity we hail from.
It can take quite a while to discern which feelings are coming from within and which are coming from ideals and beliefs. I find that the more self-loving choices I make in my day, choices that I know support me to feel connected with my body (rather than in the busyness of the mind) the more able I am to discern.
It is kind of an expedition into the unknown before we realise that the seemingly unknown is all that we are and know inside out, we have just been blinded by the outer light that lured us away so far from the inner that we lost ourselves for a while. Often it is only when we reach the limits of the outer that we start to return to the inner to then realise the vastness of our true nature.
The journey of learning how to express one’s self is a challenging yet rewarding path. It shows how we have invested in many masks yet never dare express nakely who we truly are. The break down of the mask can be confronting and painful not because the mask is painful to remove but because we have to accept the fact we have tried to hide for so very long.
Its like being in a dark room for a week and then opening the door to a bright sunny day. Your eyes are going to sting for the first little while.
Our inner voice from our heart is certainly very powerful, when we listen and trust it we are then lovingly guided through life.
We are constantly encouraged to be someone, to assume roles in life and be a certain personality. There is an endless array of personalities we can take on always striving for getting better, finding finally who we want to be….and never ever feeling satisfied. The quality we live in has been twisted and distorted and made into something to be achieved on the outside instead of understanding that the truest quality we can ever live is our divinity and this is who we are and that nothing in this world can even get near to our very own divine quality.
You are right Rachel, it seems as children we did not fit in for who we truly are and we felt that there was an assortment of acceptable personalities that we could choose from. We made our choice and left our true self behind. Our longing for ourselves is never fulfilled by anyone else, but we can reconnect back to the love we came from.
Very well said Rachel – it is really crazy. As long as we haven’t connected to our essence, we are oscillating between so many different parts (roles) of our personality. And in each role we try our best, to become a better person. This game we can’t win, there is nothing to improve, because inside us, we are already complete, we just have to connect to ourselves.
In the forever trying to discover who we are, we get lost on the way by being something that others have; decided, forced, convinced or chosen what they wanted us to be. What is the question we always ask small children ‘what do you want to BE when you grow up’, are we not being guided subtly way back then?
Even if we think that we have the job that was made for us and is the a job we love to do… it is still not who we truly are. We can BE anything we chose as long as we are being all of us to it.
This is so true Steve, ‘What is the question we always ask small children ‘what do you want to BE when you grow up’, are we not being guided subtly way back then?’ I can feel how questions such as these can make children think that life is all about what you ‘do’, I have noticed when people ask my son this that there are also acceptable answers and unacceptable answers, my son loves to sweep and so sometimes says ‘a sweeper’, this is laughed at as it is not seen as a job that someone should want to do, it feels like there is also pressure to choose a job that is seen as desirable rather then simply what work you feel to do, as you say Steve, ‘We can BE anything we chose as long as we are being all of us to it.’
Great point Steve – by doing this we introduce the concept to children that they must develop into what they will be i.e. by doing things they will become who they shall be rather than knowing that they are all they will ever need to be already from the love from within.
I really love that line, the world outside may effect me but it doesn’t define me, We have to live in this world till it’s time to move on and we can’t help being influenced or effected by what goes on around us,but nothing or no one can change the essence that is us. Nope it just can’t be done.
I’m with you here Kevin, this line, the world outside may effect me but it doesn’t define me. When that not-us energy comes in, we know it so because it does not match with how we feel when we have chosen our own essence to hold us in that moment, and nothing can ever change that.
I too have spent many a year questioning Who Am I? Thanks to Universal Medicine I now know the answer to that question, I have stopped searching for that which is outside to give me the answers, but instead connect with my body and feel beneath the surface to what is deep inside. What i have found inside is love, harmony, stillness and truth. I now know that this is who I truly am.
Beautiful kehinde2012.” I am universal and my guiding force is love.” The only thing we all identify with is the love of our divine souls. All else only takes us further from such joy.
“The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am.” Yes this unfolding discovery of self allows us to connect to others effortlessly too.
There is no end to the exploring, and the deepening understanding of who we are. The pictures we had of who we are slowly disappear, and with dedication are replaced with appreciation.
Love the simplicity in the way you answer that age-old philosophical question that has hung around humanity since time began. That it is merely about listening to our inner voice rather than allowing another source outside ourselves to tell us who we are makes perfect sense, particularly when you realise that the reason why we choose not to listen to that inner voice is because it requires a level of responsibility for ourselves and others that most people don’t want to embrace.
The thing that hurts us most is that we don’t remember where we can find out who we are.
It is like a millionaire forgetting that they own a million dollar, then forgetting their bank account number, then forgetting that they have a bank account, then forgetting that there are banks and then forgetting that there is such a thing as money. It takes work to get back from that level of forgetfulness.
That is an interesting way of looking at it Christoph, and as you say a lot of work required to find their way back with all those degrees of separation.
Beautifully, brilliantly said, Christoph. It’s that spiralling that takes us further and further away from ‘it’ and we don’t even remember what we were looking for in the first place.
Exactly Stephen! If we stopped doing something we wouldn’t cease to exist, so who are we? We are a grand being that can be felt when we accept our inner stillness. In the world we have made it so much about doing and are excessively in motion, so much so that we can be doing something with our body and be thinking about something else completely different with our minds! how crazy is that? It can be hard to accept that we are great and amazing just for being who we are because the world rewards us with so much for what we ‘DO’ and achieve, but this has proven to be a road that leads to self-emptiness and is never fulfilling.
Reading ‘The question I always asked myself when I was a teenager was “Who am I?”’ made me realise when I was a teenager I knew who I was, at times I felt older and wiser than most adults around me but because there was no one to reflect this back to me in my life I played small and stupied so I could fit in. Thank Goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who live their truth and reflect back to us all the grandness of who we are.
‘We all have this exact same inner dialogue of feelings that is us, and from my experience it just takes a bit of listening to start to build a relationship with ourselves.’ With listening to ourselves we are feeling inside of our body, this brings our focus back to where it belongs, we will never find the answers in the outside world, we need this relationship with who we are first to be able to be honest and live our true love with everyone else.
Yes this is an important conversation to be having and one that will take some unravelling. My feeling is that is why so many ‘newly retired’ people struggle, because they have been caught up in who they are through their jobs (as well can do) and when they are no longer that, then who am I?
Beautiful Susan….we do know deep within that the roles we take on are not who we truly are and because of this knowing there is always something about life that is not truly satisfying, that feels incomplete. “…and that is why when we are presented with the Truth through Universal Medicine and blogs like these that something deep and familiar within us stirs, we know we have found the Truth once more because it has always been there within us.” Thank God for Universal Medicine and its reflection of Truth.
Love how you wrote this Stephen. Love your honesty.
We are so much more than the game of success.
Even the term ‘game of success’ reveals that we are like pawns on a chessboard when we play life in this way. We might think we are in control, because our life appears ‘successful’ but if it isn’t based on integrity and truth the ‘success’ becomes just another distraction.
That is what I have really embraced and enjoyed doing over the last few years. Breaking down those ideals and beliefs that I picked up and took on without even realising. The more we get out of the constraints of the pictures that we have created, the more room there is to be and live from our inner-most and let ourselves shine.
So true Rosie- freeing ourselves of the constraints that ideals and beliefs have on us is so power-full and liberating. We can then give ourselves permission to be ourselves from our innermost. Truly empowering and awesome. I am deeply appreciative of Serge Benhayon who has shown so many thousands of people all over the world how to reconnect to our inner heart and soul, and live life being impulsed from here and not from an outside source.
I agree Amina, the more we live who we are the more there is and should be appreciated. Appreciation is a part of life.
How true Rosie, the breaking down of the ideals and beliefs, things we have have taken on without the full realization of who we truly are!
Yes Mary. It is such a step by step process to break these down as there are ideals and beliefs so ingrained that we have no idea they are there until we start to butt up against them. Fortunately they have their way of revealing themselves and then the choice is ours. To let them go or to hang on and dig our heels in.
Yes Vicky, when I think about all those ideas of how the world is and how we should be in it that we carry around, I get the image of a big old suitcase that we lug around on our backs – it’s exhausting, uncomfortable yet we are afraid to let go because somewhere along the line we got to thinking that the contents of the suitcase (all those ideas) would keep us safe in the world. In actual fact they just give us something to focus on, a massive distraction – and life is so much simpler and so much lighter when you let them go.
Absolutely Hannah, what complication we have chosen to carry around, for many letting them go means there is simply nothing left – but as more and more people reclaim themselves & release this baggage, the simplicity and lightness of their walk will be an inspiration to many, as Serge Benhayon has been to them.
This is exactly how it is Vicky, a gradual releasing of these beliefs and images as we become aware of them, or choose to remain under their dominance.
This is a really amazing thing to do, letting go of all the beliefs we clog ourselves up with. But until I met Serge Benhayon this was never an option so blinded was I by the belief that without beliefs at best I wouldn’t be able to function, at worst I’d be crazy mad.
Even at Uni where the course was about deconstructing belief systems and critiquing them, the underlying belief was you had to have them else you wouldn’t have purpose, meaning, identity, and life would become pointless to the point of despair. So it’s really something to break free from them and discover they are bonds not arm bands and we shine brightly without them.
My experience with ideals and belief is like Laura mentioned, they are very ingrained. I thought I could solve them by reading books about them, doing special programs in order to get rid of them. In truth the only thing that happend is that I thought I had got rid of them but my feelings about myself stayed, they did not change. Only when I learned to know Serge Benhayon in a workshop I was attending I slowly got and still get aware, I cannot get rid of any belief or ideal unless I allow love into my life which starts to alter how I am with myself and how I move my body. Slowly getting more awareness of these qualities I find that my ideals start to get more exposed and step by step I can let them go.
Yes Kirsten we cant just talk ourselves out of an old behaviour. No quick fix here, which is what we are used to in this fast paced life we live. We have to change how we move and think and live. This is a slow process, but step-by-step it is possible to make these loving changes that can become our new way.
Ha ha so true!!! I must mention that when next asked!
If they are teaching that at Uni Karin, it shows how even our education system is pushing having ideals and beliefs as being important so that we feel we have a purpose. No wonder we find it so difficult to free ourselves from their constraints, when our highest places of learning are promoting them in this way.
Definitely the way to go Rosie!
And the more we re-connect to our inner -most and express from here the more the pictures we have been trapped in are revealed and we can free our self from their constraints. We can continue a rhythm of connecting and letting go of all that we have taken on that is not who we naturally are.
‘Continue a rhythm of connecting and letting go’ the amazing changes that start to come about by this new pattern. (way of living) – not allowing more ‘pictures’ to lead us astray and take us off the course of living life in full.
Great point Mary-Louise the learning never ceases it is a consistent process of un-learning and re-learning how to move and express from our truth.
This is something I feel I very much still need to do (break down ill ideals and beliefs). I agree with what Laura has shared but it should be taught everywhere not just in schools. This is why Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are an absolute blessing as this is what they are tirelessly doing and bringing .. and much more.
Yes Rosie, me too, realising that I had taken them (ideas and beliefs) on as my own when they were someone else’s to begin with – accepting this has not always been easy but always leads to more of me to be felt again, a gorgeous process once I allowed it!
It’s this freedom, that makes us truly enjoy life.
Rosie that has been my experience too, to break down the ideals and beliefs I grew up in, which where very limiting, now as I have been letting them go over the years the freer I feel and more space I have created for me to live from my true essence and my inner connection. I no longer feel suffocated and constraint.
Love it Rosie. Since coming to the work of Universal Medicine, so much of what I had clung to by way of beliefs and ideals – how I thought life ‘was’ and ‘had to be’ – has broken down, and this process has been absolutely amazing, the inner growth and indeed ‘flowering’ in my life transformational beyond measure.
We are designed to shine, absolutely, and it is this shedding of all that we are ‘not’ in truth, that allows our light to be all that it is – gloriously so!
The journey back to a relationship with our inner self, the inner knowing is the connection to our Soul. A relationship that has no beginning and no end . It is this reconnection in this temporal world that we yearn but it is not an obvious as we are encouraged to identify with everything outside ourselves, once we feel this reconnection it’s like we have ‘ come home ‘ it’s so familiar and from there we can build love and appreciation of the quality and essence we are in truth. such a different approach to life, but one that feels so familiar in knowing who I am.
It is so easy to get caught up in the belief that you are what you do, but when I think about it, I have done so many things, lived so many roles and some of them feel like a lifetime away and are so far from who I really am.
Something that struck me reading your comment Amelia is that everyone understands we carry beliefs and ideals. It is instilled into every culture. We say it so freely “I believe in this or that”. but what strikes me is until the work of Serge Benhayon I for one never questioned that belief, just because “I” believe it it must be true. Yet we have people killing in the name of God because they believe that is what God wants and we have people who believe there is a difference between people with different skin colours. Breaking this down and looking at all the beliefs and ideals and the way they impact on us and the all really is the way to go – this is what we should be learning and doing at school.
As you say Laura – for the most part we are blinded from seeing the truth by the massive amount of ideals and beliefs that we carry.
Very Tamara and Laura, the images and pictures we have about how we think life should be or look like can be very hindering towards seeing truth. It is like we put blinkers on ignoring everything that does not fit in or pertain to the vision we have.
Yes James and these images/pictures stay well over their use-by date causing huge harm until seen for what they truly are – a massive hindrance to our evolution.
Yes James, it is like a cocoon we have put ourselves in , made of ideals and pictures of how we should be, instead of the living love that resides in our hearts. That is all of who we are , no picture can match that (good so).
Yes James, we see what we are programmed to see until we can see beyond the program.
Yes Tamara, we can carry around so many pictures or images of how we think things should be – ourselves, others and the world – that we are in fact blinded to the simple truth right in front of us as it does not fit with the images we’ve created. So we spend our lives searching, trying to get everything to fit an image and miss out on enjoying the real deal that was there all along!
Very true Hannah, even just reading this blog I had the image literally come into my mind about what being naturally ‘loving and caring’ is – to be soft, pandering, kind and polite to people. What a big fat lie because being polite at all costs can hold me back from expressing what could truly support someone or myself, such as addressing too hard a hug or ignoring when someone is not ‘fine’ when they say ‘I am fine’.
Excellent point Tamara and to consider how instead of bringing us to truth, our ideals and beliefs often push us further away from seeing it.
Absolutely true. We are buried in ideals and beliefs that start being heaped on top of us from the day we are born. The healing process I have learned from Universal Medicine is to bit by bit release myself from the web of my ideals and beliefs and to unravel and heal the hurts they have caused along the way. And still I only glimpse the beauty of me and who I am.
Wouldn’t it be a gift to humanity to free us all from ideals and beliefs and return to the truth that we are all equal in essence, all from the same source, and that each one’s expression is unique and yet equally divine.
I welcome that day when we are all free of the ideals, beliefs, pictures and images, and have no hurts. How glorious we are in our essence will become apparent to all.
Love it Amina, very well said and so true. We do only want to see what we want rather than truth, often as it keeps us in a place of comfort rather than exposing the mess the world is in and taking responsibility for our part in that.
We get caught in the ideas and beliefs that we are brought up with and then the desire and illusion take over as we get caught in the rat race of life. I see many people around so caught in this way of living and are in so much of indulgence they cannot see beyond. It does take true responsibility to break through these layers.
Great points you are making here Laura B, a belief that it is ok to kill another in the name of God is in fact beyond belief. I am very thankful to have had the opportunity to examine my beliefs and find them come up wanting when love, truth and common sense were applied to the equation. The wonderful work of Serge Benhayon is a great ‘waker- upper’ in this regard and has changed my life, I am much more open, loving and accepting of myself and others as a result.
Great comment Jeanette.
Beautifully said Jeannette. I too have let go of so many ideas about myself, others and the world since coming to the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – which has been, as you shared, absolutely life-changing. The ideas and pictures we hang onto really to keep us closed of to the world – and to our true selves and it is incredibly liberating to let them go.
Agreed Hannah, this has been my experience also. Serge Benhayon presents a true and living philosophy that offers a tremendous opportunity to drop the pictures we have of who we think we are/should be/have been told and educated ‘to be’… like no other I know.
Yes Jeanette, Serge Benhayon has awoken me from my sleep – it was as if I was lost in a dream in the field of poppies from the Wizard of Oz before then, though that dream was often more like a nightmare and full of yearning to understand and validate myself.
Yes, we are ready to do amazing things, including amazingly bad things, when we believe something deeply enough. It is our choice and we eventually have to face the consequences of such choices.
Well said Christoph. The fact that we can do bad things in the name of ‘good’, with good intentions even, is sobering. No one is immune to this happening, thus the need to solidly know who we are in truth and constantly make choices from that place of truth, without deviation.
This is very true Christoph, believing in something that is not from the truth of us causes harm in varying degrees, it’s critical that we have awareness around misled ideals and beliefs.
It actually feels so very arrogant and deeply separative to hold this notion that what I believe to be true must be true because I believe it so. In this we are not understanding that there are 7 billion+ other views and perspectives other than our own
Joshua it is absolutely a deep level or arrogance to be caught in the notion of what I believe to be true is true. What we believe is just one view or perspective out of billions test are there, we need to be open to other views and perspective to truly be able to evolve and drop the self arrogance.
Well said Amita. Pure truth is energetic and absolute and is true for all, yet when we dilute this or taint it with our own individual perceptions it can appear as though we live in a realm with many different truths.
We all have our unique view of the universe and we need to be open what every other soul can see before we have the full picture. We are one divine constellation trying to ignore the fact by living our lives as separated individuals.
When we let go of all these false perceptions and arrogance we are left with the truth, surely that is what we all crave.
Absolutely to believe that our own personal beliefs are ‘better’ or ‘right’ or hold more power over others is extremely arrogant and also exposes just how very lost we are in the first place to do this.
Yes Joshua, beliefs and truth are two very different things – one does not equate to the other.
Indeed it is Joshua. Yet we have all been hoodwinked at one time or another. It is so important to only choose Love & Truth knowing that it serves all equally. Therefore we have to live in a way that is loving and truthful so that those qualities are known and felt with every breath, to the best of our ability.
Yes Laura, I was just pondering about beliefs yesterday and how constricting they are; pitting people against each other from spouses to nations! They are but a defence and protection. They come from a lack of acceptance of others and ourselves. Feels to me like our expression has be suppressed due to judgement and control and then we hide behind our bastion of beliefs. All a game really!
Well said Bernadette, a game that keeps us from being intimate with one another and getting to really know who we and others are.
I agree Sally and Bernadette, it’s a silly game we all play as deep down we all crave love, intimacy and connection with each other.
True Bernadette, and when we allow the feeling of love we feel inside, out and express with no delay or water it down, it supports you to feel who you are.
“Pitting people against each other from spouses to nations!” Bernadette I love how your comment connected that conflict in the world is reflected with conflict in the home. We use our beliefs to blame other people so that we don’t have to look at how our actions are contributing to the mess the world is in.
Well said Bernard and Bernadette. How rigidly we hold onto what we deem to be true, so often based on mental constructs that indeed hold us in our own safely constructed fortress, as you say Bernadette.
We are, so much more than this. To live responsibly, is to be open to shedding beliefs that we may have long held, and reconnect to a truth that is unifying and steps us out of conflict altogether. It takes diligence, dedication and work, but we are all worth it.
Wow Laura, imagine classes in the deconstruction of ideals and beliefs? I love this.
Children would have an opportunity to take a look at what they were being taught by society and decide themselves what they feel to be true. 🙂
That’s beautiful to read, Susan.
That’s amazing Susan. Giving children the understanding to look at the media in this way will give them the tools to discern what is true and what is not in every part of life around them. That’s true education.
Yes, sounds awesome Kathryn! I know a school like this ‘The school of The Livingness’.
That’s awesome Susan. Absolutely wonderful to read.
Thank you for sharing this about a teacher Susan. So powerful with her not holding back in speaking this to her class and the parents. A great future role model for the children too.
Wow Susan, beautiful to read that there are teachers teaching in this way and in doing so offering our children true support.
Wow, bring it on! Teacher’s play an important role in expanding the world view of the young so it is important that we support teachers in this role.
That is so rare and so significant Susan. And the fact that she did not hold back because the parents were there means the teacher knows the harm being caused by the media and can educate people about it with the authority of love.
I absolutely agree Laura B, instead of accepting what we hear and learn as truth we should be taught to break down these beliefs and ideals and feel what is true. Because we all have the ability to feel what is true and what is not true. And because we do not honor this ability we start to doubt ourselves and start looking outside.
Yes it keep us in check if we choose to listen to them. And when we don’t. it keeps sending them a little louder each time until we get it.
True Heather, and if we don’t listen, inevitably our body turns up the volume.
Trusting that a loving gesture towards myself is equally as powerful as a loving gesture towards another is allowing me to deal with the ‘lack of self worth’ I have been choosing to live with.
Yes Heather, I have had some loud messages come my way from my body as I obviously chose to miss or ignore the smaller ones.
As you say, Heather, the trick is ‘listening and responding, instead of interpreting the messages to suit oneself, which I used to be so good at doing
I agree Heather, it is amazing quite how loud and clear the body can be at telling us when things are not quite right. The more we listen to our body the clearer the messages become. And conversely the more we ignore our body the louder and more shocking the messages need to be to get us to stop and listen to them!
It is the greatest gift I have – to feel what is true and what is not.
Isn’t it just Rik, to start to feel what is true and what is not, makes life more spherical.
and makes life very very simple – it’s either love or not.
That is so important, Heather, and yet it is something that we are not taught to honour, especially as adults. It may be paid more attention when we are children, but as we grow up it gets replaced by a drive for achievement and recognition for what we do, overriding the clear wisdom of the body.
That’s a great point Heather, I think many of us hear those messages from our bodies but don’t actually action them, which is the absolutely vital part!
I agree Heather, I was on a body awareness program for three days recently – this was simply being aware of how I sat down, drove the car, walked, chopped vegetables etc – the amount of clarity and wisdom this immediately allowed to be felt and come through my body was immense, there was no questioning, debating or thinking about anything involved what so ever, everything was there when it was needed. For example in conversations words would come to me to be said or to be felt to bring more understanding of what was being said, and at work when I had to do something and wondered do I have the time to get something before class, a teacher said the time as I walked past her class.
Very true Laura – beliefs are born out of separation from the truth that we innately know and the extent to which we will defend these has led to horrendous conflict and war being a constant feature in the history of humanity. What will it take for this separation to be seen and the primary focus of our true education?
Michael we will probably see major things happening in our bodies if we continue to ignore the gorgeousness of who we all are.
We are definitely blinded by that what we believe, it is very freeing to be aware of this, and take the opportunity to let go, which will have a great impact on all we do in life.
We are so blinded aren’t we Benkt van Haastrecht, and when I choose to see a belief for what it is, I am amazed that I ever held onto that in the first place.
Yes I agree Julie and Benkt, what always strikes me is why was I holding onto a belief that when exposed seems quite silly and unbelievable, along with why haven’t I clocked it sooner?
Yes Benkt, it is incredibly freeing to walk in the world as ourselves, not restricted by ideas and beliefs.
This would be a fascinating curriculum subject Laura. Children have a love of going deeper with life’s questions and are open to understanding what is going on and feeling the truth behind all things. It is we, as adults, who become entrenched in our beliefs, which are used to shield our hurts. By dealing with our hurts the beliefs we used to prop us up fall away and we are left with truth we felt when we were Children.
Hmm yes I agree entirely with you Rachel, for sure it would make a fantastic, and I’d even say – ‘national’ curriculum subject, in other words, compulsory education. Of course such education can really only truly be taught when what is taught is being lived by the teaching person, and so I guess then it must lie at first with self-education as mature adults to ensure that we untangle things/our hurts as best as we can to make life along the universal principles of love, to be a Teacher of Love for our kids.
That’s true Laura, ideals and beliefs are killing us.
Yes Rik, that statement “ideals and beliefs are killing us” seems pretty strong at first but it is absolutely true. Humans kill other humans over conflicting ideals and beliefs, and we cause huge harm to ourselves, trying to live up to, fit in with or obtain a myriad of pictures of how we should be.
Totally agree Laura, before i met Serge Benhayon I had not questioned that these beliefs were not actually part of the package that was me. The gentle breath meditation was a huge key in re-opening a relationship with my innermost – for i began to recognise that this inner voice was with me often but i had been suppressing it for years. It was only as i honoured this inner calling with greater consistency that i began to identify behaviours and patterns that adhered to a consciousness i had espoused to, be it manners and etiquette, intimacy, etc. What is so apparent is that these consciousness are deeply imbedded in my body, my muscle memory, and although it maybe easy to mentally cast them out, breaking them down within the body is an exercise in relearning to move.
So true what you share Lucinda, one of the greatest learnings i have understood over time through Universal Medicine teachings (and it’s taken ‘time’ because of what you say about rooted muscle memory….), is that’s it’s very easy to mentally get something and go ‘aha’, but unless it’s actually (and honoured to be) felt in the body (and when the head/mind reduces its embedded dominance), it cannot ever be fully understood, lived or embodied. It is then to develop ‘an honest body’ – a body that is indeed as you say Lucinda, an exercise in re-learning to move. Understanding expression is about the movement, of one’s body and being and together aligned just as a clock might strike it’s hour, with such precision, is what it’s all about.
Great point Zofia. There is an incredible precision that our body requires. The way we sit in a chair, for example, can have a huge impact on how we feel, what we are thinking and also what we choose next. Do we sit with a body that is open and aligned, or do we find ways to sit (which is still a movement) to block that?
We may never question until a certain point perhaps, but deep deep down it is always known i.e. that the way life is, is not as true as it could be where the handicap of ideals and beliefs are passed down and ingested from generation to generation. And so, really before school, the education begins with the way of the parents and how they are at home, that it is with love to then encourage their child/family of this way, rather than the alternative that creates all the disharmony for later adult years. In short open dialogue, free expression together with respect and understanding leads the way with love in a family.
This can be one of the biggest challenges to a family, and indeed all relationships also Zofia. Yet, without the open dialogue, we set ourselves up to remain in ruts that have existed for centuries (if not millennia…). Any rigidity in beliefs, that does not come from a depth of love that truly unifies, are going to be ‘challenged’ at times, when we make our lives about love as the bottom line. This can be a test for our relationships, but from all that I’ve experienced, it is worth the exploration – not just for ‘ourselves’, but for all. For have the conflicts and clashes of belief that have plagued our world for so long truly changed? I would say no… We have such a long and dedicated way yet to go.
I pondered on your comment Laura and I realized how ideals and believes justify my existence, the way I am and what I do. When I am without them, who am I then? To allow to see through the ignorance and arrogance supports me to become the vulnerable and open being I am from my innate nature.
My ideals and believes are as a box in a box, in a box, a very clear structure to feel safe and secure in and with, although it seemed that it is safe and secure it is not actually it is the foundation of a live lived with fear and anxiety. Since I have met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine this box ( with all the small boxes inside) are one by one falling apart and who I am, my innate nature is coming back and the box feels tight and restricted, it is time to let go of living in and with the boxes.
Yes Laura, no drama, just looking at whatever we say we believe and questioning if it is our belief or one we have taken on. Even if it is our belief, do we still hold it as such when we look at it from a loving perspective? I had so many beliefs and it wasn’t until I heard myself say the word and just stopped for a moment to check if it was really what I wanted to say, that I realised how opinionated I was and could see I also had judgements about situations that were unfounded. It was such an important experiment.
Developing a curiosity about life helps. Simply asking ourselves, ‘could there be another way?’ can open our eyes to another way of doing things. I know I never questioned the way things were until I started attending Serge Benhayon’s workshops. Life has changed so much for me now that I am open to seeing how imprisoning ideals and belief can be.
The world is so focused on what we do, the ‘doing’ being the stimulus that keeps us going – to the point of exhaustion. And in all this ‘doing’ we move further and further away from who we are: an innate stillness, the polar opposite of all the busyness of ‘doing,’ a quality that is there to connect to in any moment we choose to go there.
“So the world outside of me does not define who I am. It may affect me, but it does not define who I am.” Yes we may get affected by the outside world but only when we have lost our quality of connection to ourselves.
Beautifully said Paula, I totally agree. When we lose connection with ourselves we lose connection with everything and everyone.
The whole world is stacked against people being themselves, we are expected to be constantly achieving and striving to better ourselves, life’s and family’s, this brings dissatisfaction with who we are, and with that we strive to achieve more, and round and around we go in this insane cycle of never feeling the wonder and appreciation of our divinity.
You perfectly describe the ‘rat race’ Thomas, round and around we go trying to be more, never realising we are more than we could ever imagine already.
After over thirty years of seeking and searching the question of, “who am I” travelling all over the world to spiritual ashrams, and participate in years of workshops and groups, and not getting any closer to finding out who I am. It has been such an incredible and confirming experience coming across Serge Benhayon and his family, who are consistently supporting me to discover the absolute joy of who I am, I deeply appreciate them for this and myself for choosing to connecting again to the beautiful man I always was, but abandoned long ago.
Great comment Thomas, thank you for sharing your appreciation and journey of searching, to now finding your answers and joy from within through the loving support of Universal Medicine is so awesome to read. I never really did any searching but I was questioning why am I here, what I am supposed to be doing? I had a strong sense of who I am but felt completely lost as to what to do, so I lived day to day feeling this sadness of missing something but not quiet knowing what that was. Through the support of Universal Medicine I realised I was feeling the sadness and emptiness of not choosing to live who I am in full, feeling the deep grief of holding myself back out of fear, out of attracting too much attention. This old, old pattern I am learning to let go. I have been deeply inspired by everyone at Universal Medicine to live expressing myself in full and not to fear my own powerful light but to shine it as bright as can be and to share my grandness with everyone.
Who we are has nothing to do with what we do. We are us first and then we do stuff and the quality we are in when expressing defining if we are connected to ourselves or not – it’s simple. What a powerful message to humanity’s eternal ‘Who am I’ question.
If we let go of all our roles, then who are we? What a great question to ask ourselves. We have a tendency to identify with our roles, mostly the role of mother and our job. But we are so much more than these roles and sitting here on my couch, typing this comment, and not being a mother and not being at work, I can feel how great and loving I am. I can feel that I am not any role, but always this gorgeous woman first and foremost.
Beautiful Mariette, reading your comment just gave me a little stop moment to appreciate how gorgeous I am without all the roles. Thank you 😉
I can still remember very clearly at the age of 30 asking the question out loud – who am I?. Yes I am somebody’s mother, somebody’s wife and somebody’s daughter, but who am I? I felt very lost, as although I was aware that the roles were not me, without them I didn’t know who I was, but I did know that I was definitely more than the void I could feel. It has taken me many years since then, and the Ageless Wisdom shared by Serge Benhayon to finally get to know who I am, and the crazy thing is, “I” have been here all the time, just buried under layers and layers of the ideals and beliefs of others, my life experiences and an emptiness that was continually crying out to be filled.
Thank you Ingrid Ward, the interesting thing is that seemingly all these layers have been hiding who you really are underneath it – which is actually a beautiful thing to undo. Not because it is all wrong, but because who you are is who you are truly, so that can not be missed any longer. For me too, it is since I have met Serge Benhayon and all the teachings through Universal Medicine – that I found out I have got so many layers I need to let go – so I can be truly mine- no need for searching outside of me. I got my treasure!
That’s beautiful Ingrid. “I have been here all the time”. It’s a very beautiful thing to re-discover this.
Very powerful, what you are sharing Ingrid. You are right – we are not our roles. The moment we connect to our real being, all the roles will fall away. And you are saying – it has taken me many years -, it makes me aware of, there is no quick fix, we have to do our homework, nobody can do it for us.
These were questions I kept asking myself after the birth of my second child, what is life all about? What is my purpose here, what is the purpose of life? Its only after attending talks and workshops by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that I now have understanding on all of this.
I did not have that question ‘Who am I’ – but I was searching for something. I even did not know what it was. I tried to find this ‘something’ in a study, in a job, in a family – till one day I realized that what I was looking for was ‘Just Me’. I was able to realize this because I a got a very gentle Sacred Esoteric Healing Session and suddenly I could feel ‘me’. ‘Me’ was always sitting there in my body, but I did not connect to it. From there on I started to discover more and more about me by peeling away what I ‘thought was me’.
I searched far and wide, especially in philosophy and religion where there were supposed to be all the answers, and yet it was only when I started looking at myself that I started finding any answers that made sense.
Absolutely beautiful Simon. I too looked at many philosophy’s, science, music etc but the only thing that has really made sense and given true answers and true results has been looking towards myself!
Exactly, I love how you said “… what is within that leads us back to knowing who we truly are.” And so it is definitely very important to build that connection within our selves.
I can totally relate Simon, in my early twenties I got quite depressed about everything and started to search for the meaning of life in philosophy and religion, then moved onto having a family and work for distraction, and coming out of it none the wiser. It’s a sobering thought to realise the answers where there inside of me all along.
It is also thanks to Serge Benhayon and his family that I am learning who I am and where I’m from and probably where I’m going also. There have been times in my life I have been totally lost in what I was doing or who I thought I should be but those days are over, but the quest to be fully me has just begun.
Hear hear Kevin, awesome expression and thanks to Serge Benhayon and Unviersal Medicine we are well on the way now.
At the end of the day we are what we are and there is no getting away from that fact no matter what we do or what influences we have at a certain time, so getting a truer feel as to what that is, the more we will know what is and what is not the real us.
It’s great to ask the question ” Who am I?” I might pose this at school. As how often would we answer with our name, age, what we work as etc well before we answer the deep down truth we all know, and that is we are amazing Sons of God. What would it be like for a group of people, children or adults to share the qualities they are and bring, for example playfullness, strength, clarity, joy, love, truth, precision, grace, attention to detail, well before what it is they do, their age anything we may identify with.
No might about it, I definitely am going to pose this question with kids. It’s staying in the bank for future use with adult groups .So simple, yet profound and asks us to really deepen our exploration and not take our existence at face value.
What a great question to get children to ponder on Gyl, who am I? I would love to hear what their answers are.
Yes that is an awesome thing to do Gyl. I never really wondered who I was when growing up yet I felt this feeling of ‘is this all there is to life?’ It would be brilliant to feel who we truly are at such a young age and question the current status quo of answering with name, age, things we like, our job etc.
I have searched throughout my life, as many have, looking for that one thing, through jobs, relationships, people, travels, friendships, places, books, courses, religions, etc – though not realising what I was searching for was me, and it was all to be found by stopping the constant motion and looking within. It may sound airy fairy but it’s not, it’s a very simple and practical thing. All the answers and everything I could ever possible want is inside of me. It’s just a matter of stopping, listening to my feelings and honouring them.
I like what you have written here Gyl, I used to marvel at people who knew what they wanted and held steadfast in what they knew to be true for them, and I would wonder how do they do that, and slowly these days I am learning that it’s the relationship we have with ourselves first which makes a huge difference to how we see the world and other people. It’s like you have written ‘it’s just a matter of stopping, listening to my feelings and honouring them’.
“…to start to build a relationship with ourselves.” This is one of the most amazing and life changing things, more than anything else in the world, for everyone, that I have ever done. It changes everything, to really build a truly loving and deeply caring relationship with self – and from here all others. You get to know the truth of who you really are. That same untouched, pure, innocent and joyful place inside you when you are born, which never goes away.
‘The one thing I am learning is there is no end to exploring all that I am; it forever unfolds before me when I take the time to reflect on the internal messages and feelings that guide me back to a truer and deeper understanding of all that I am.’ Yes, as we surrender to our bodies in an open honest way, there is more space for the essence of who we really are to come out. And this process of surrounding has no end limit as we are constantly peeling back our layers to be more of the love that we are and come from.
“The Search for Who I Am” as soon as I see these words I let out a big sigh, as I no longer have to search anymore, the minute I walked through the door to the first Universal Medicine event I attended, I knew I was home. Serge Benhayon reflected everything I knew , and everything inside of me to be true, and just made sense. No longer do I have to go anywhere, read any books, do any coursers, or go off to an ashram – for everything I have ever been searching for is here – inside of me, I just have to stop and listen.
I can so relate to what you are saying Stephen, but have to say that, even though I have been trying this my whole life, to boost my self-worth through what I do or otherwise gaining recognition or acceptance has never worked.
The only thing that truly works is if I treat myself with the preciousness that I know I am inside.
This is beautiful Judith – “The only thing that truly works is if I treat myself with the preciousness that I know I am inside.” When i keep it as simple as that, I am open to listening all that I have to share from within.
‘The only thing that truly works is if I treat myself with the preciousness that I know I am inside’. I can relate to what you say Judith. My relationship with self has much more value than seeking recognition from others.
Gorgeous Judith. Yes we are truly successful when we treat ourselves with love and preciousness. How amazing this feels to drop the fight and the push to be recognised and simply focus on caring for ourselves. So very simple but so very powerful.
Through out my life I would question who I was, observing others and comparing myself to what I could or should be and with this came critique and self judgement, so I never really got past this goal post. It was only through Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I can now understand and accept that I don’t need to be more than what I already am and all I have to do is show this to the world, so much simpler than the complicated way I lived my life before.
“It did take me a while to discern which internal feelings were truly mine and in line with who I am, and which feelings were generated from external ideals and beliefs I had taken on or formed throughout my life.”
This is a learning in itself and how to discern those energies has been taught by Serge Benhayon for many years now and is one of those invaluable lessons of life.
Great analogy Aimee, nothing like sitting firmly in our own drivers seat, in direct communication, with less chance of missing the call.
I agree Helen, I had an experience recently where I noticed myself being aware I was not going to be acknowledged for contributions I had made, yet the unrest in me was that up until that point what was actually missing was my own appreciation for where I had got to, and in that moment appreciation was there, erasing any want or need for it to come from anywhere else.
This is key what you share here Giselle. I can absolutely relate and I too have found that appreciation is a key foundation from which to hold myself from.
Interestingly, without that dialogue there seems to always be a search outside of ourselves that remains endless as it can never be fulfilled by any other thing or one.
‘So what is it that truly makes us who we are?’ is a great question to ask. We are brought up to believe we are who we are, by what we do and we spend our whole lives making investments into our identity this way. Because of Universal Medicine I have made the space to feel underneath the drive, push and seeking for success and recognition and ‘to be somebody’. I have found instead my inner divine sensitivity, loveliness, delicateness, sweetness and a whole heap of love and found that ‘I am already somebody.’ In the knowing that this is the true me it becomes easier to let go of the drive and push and express from there. So what others get from my being and expressing is something else entirely from the former investing in what I do.
“If I follow this train of thought it shows I am not what I do as I would not exist without any stimulus outside of myself. A person in a jail isolation cell still exists without outside stimulus; I still am here when asleep even though I am not physically experiencing the world outside of me. So the world outside of me does not define who I am. It may affect me, but it does not define who I am.” This is a great example it makes it so very clear that we are simply by being ourself, that, as you say, the outside does not define who we are.
‘ All the internal dialogue is poison to feeling that I am already everything that I am searching for outside myself.’
Beautifully said Natasha – we are all already what we will ever be.
“So the world outside of me does not define who I am. It may affect me, but it does not define who I am.” There is so much more to us than the roles we play and what we do. The amazing thing is that it is always there and never goes. It’s simlply how much we listen to the internal messaging system that you write about, and make choices based on these and our feelings. If I can make this even more amazing- everybody has these feelings and this internal messaging system about who we really are.
‘nothing really is needed except our own presence. In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other.’ Being present, fully present, with ourselves is such a humbling yet enormously powerful feeling and opens the way for joyfullness and connection with one another. For me practising Esoteric Yoga is a great support for this way of being.
I searched and searched for who I am only to find myself even more lost…..I stopped searching and the space was created to let go of all I had taken on that was not me,( hugely supported by the courses of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine), which initiated my path of return.
I agree Susan, and it’s easy to see how so many are lost to knowing who they are in Truth and how this devastation then plays out in their lives.
This is beautiful, it is great how you point out that when we would be something defined by what we do that we wouldn’t be existing without it, but we still do. So all that we are is indeed there inside us, I feel that it is a great learning to see that that is what we are, as it rarely get confirmed by the outside world, we have been made to belief that all we are is the outside projection. But in our core is that what we truly are.
“I am learning there is no end to exploring all that I am;” and all that I am is true love and as I deepen my connection to the love within my inner-heart so that love is in every move I make and everything I do.
Beautiful Mary, to discover who we are is to discover the love that we all are.
I never asked the question ‘Who am I?’. I have always known, yet I did not get this quality reflected much in the world around me, which unconsciously made me feel depressed and alone at times. I would have loved to be guided as a child and teenager to express the delicateness and tenderness I am. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who’s love and livingness reminded me of how I can live and express all that I am.
Beautiful Katinka. There is a solidness in what you share and a joy at being able to express yourself in a true way.
Until I attended presentations by Serge Benhayon, I was on an endless search for the truth of who I am, all in spiritual or psychological knowledge. Thank God Serge showed me by his own living presence that I could connect with that inner most that is who I truly am at any time.
I agree Susan it’s devastating and such a time waster when we walk away from our inner knowing. It leaves us muddled and not clearly seeing the true way forward. Universal Medicine has definitely stirred up a lot of truths for a lot of people and all I can say is… thank God for that!
Yes Susan and Aimee, choosing to use the external world as the reflection of who we think we are, rather than knowing our inner connection with the truth of WHO WE ARE is devastating – the merry-go-round of never feeling enough and feeling somehow incomplete can consume us in continual searching and seeking leading to jealousy, comparison, competition with and/ or trying to control others.
Thank God for Universal Medicine presentations that have inspired me to step off the incessant merry-go-round and re-connect to the ever-present Divine essence within.
Yes, searching for an identity, to be someone, to be part of something and getting lost in all kinds of areas and further away from yourself. I know as I did this for a while, getting lost in the spiritual search and giving my power away.
Yes, thank God for Universal Medicine Aimee. Every step away from our truth aches to the bone and every step in line with our truth comes with such joy.
What we do is not who we are; one of life’s most important understandings.
‘What we do is not who we are; one of life’s most important understandings.’ Absolutely. I work in a school and clearly see this message being inverted- that what we do is who we are. As teachers, we can also define ourselves by what others do. If students do well in their work then we are seen as a successful teacher.
As has been said before, we are human beings, not human doings. It’s the way we live that defines us, not what we do.
And also the theme of a wonderful book ‘I am beauty-full just for being me’. When I started to read this blog I immediately saw the coloured images which point out it is not about what we do but about who we are.
Thank you Annelies, that is exactly the point, we are beautiful just for who we are and with that we can do anything what we want, but that will never change the beauty that I am for just being me.
Part of the reason we lose ourselves in life is that the outside does not honour what we feel inside, and so we start to question what was there innately within us, as it does not seem comparable with what life has to offer.
Spot on Adam, we lose ourselves because we find no reflection or confirmation of who we innately are… which is love, and there are very few role models living from love and truth, but I was blessed to meet Serge Benhayon and forever grateful for the reflection of his livingness – in how to live in this world being yourself.
‘we lose ourselves because we find no reflection or confirmation of who we innately are… which is love’, As children, teenagers and even adults without this reflection we are left rudderless at sea and float aimlessness picking up whatever flotsam and jetsam we find on the way. Meeting Serge Benhayon was the beginning of a new life for me. It took time, but eventually I started to let go of all that was not truly me and began to connect to my own beauty, trust in my own uniqueness, nothing else needed.
Yes absolutely I can relate to this. And for most the outside is what life becomes about especially as a child. As an adult though we have a choice to chose that in life which we feel confirms and honours what is known on the inside and I am learning this more and more in my choices of friends, food, music I listen to, how I spend my time, the way I exercise. Everything.
Mostly this starts in our childhood. For me it was around age nine. Questioning what we feel for the sake of the outside world, should not be done in any age.
If we were raised from very young to know and honour our feelings there would be no need for questioning them. Our feelings would be the light that shows us the way through any given situation.
I agree Ingrid, if children were raised to listen to their feelings they would not need to doubt or question, they would just know.
This is one of the greatest tragedies of life as we know it.
This belongs in an educational text book Adam. Going back to basics, before we care about whether a child knows their ABC’s lets first make sure they remain who they are and not lose themselves to the many roles and beliefs we ask them to play. Do this and we have a healthy society and decrease so much of what is out of control in this world of ours.
We want to see how smart a child is by what they do and what they know based on outside guidelines such of how quickly they walk, read, or how good their spelling is, etc. But when they are first born, we are in awe of their beauty, grace, stillness, joy and openness, and the way they instantly let us know when something isn’t right. It’s all there from birth but slowly the child learns that who they are isn’t enough, and it is what they do that matters.
Gosh, so true Adam! The juxtaposition creates confusion, and before long we begin to question what’s right and wrong, and then somehow decide that the majority rules…we then accept that…and completely leave ourselves behind in the process.
Yes Adam so true. I felt this way from a very young age and felt to disengage with the worlds reflection and hide the light I knew was there all along. The catalyst for change comes when we in turn stop and allow ourselves to be the divine souls we are. We are the change that we want to see in the world, reflected in billboard size.
Absolutely Kelly, we are way more than our flesh and bone, our essence can be felt much farther and wider than we know.
Adam I had to read what you had written twice, before I felt it in my body, I then got to feel that the deep connection that i had with myself up until the age of about 9 was trampled out of me. The process was an assault no less.
YES Adam I agree! Since I am more aware of my innately sensors I can really honor what I feel inside instead to start to question it This is really powerful as it brought back the security that I am not wrong.
So true Adam and we lose trust in the inner reference point that comes from within as it is not being confirmed.
I love how you have expressed this Michelle: “the innateness of myself was not recognised by anything on the outer and so I started to doubt it.”, and I can so very easily relate to it. I used to feel that I was in the wrong place at the wrong time and as a result I just didn’t fit, so like you, slowing beginning to doubt everything about me and creating a “me” that was far removed from the wonderful “me” that I actually am.
That is so true Adam and it is good that you have mentioned it as that is something that seems to be not so obvious. If it would be known I am sure we would raise our kids differently.
We are taught to fight who we are from a world that has made it all about ‘doing’. If we stopped fighting ourselves we would simply find the truth within, that nothing really is needed except our own presence. In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other.
Exactly Harrison, “we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves” and that is in a way special, for why is this the normal way of being for us human beings and not the other way around, as that sounds much more natural to me. Could it be that the life we have created, disconnected from that grandness that we all already are, makes us not at ease with how we are in the world as we innately know that we are that much more?
Yes it definitely could be that we disconnected from our grandness and from each other. And to justify this we keep on trying to make what we created right, ever better until we accept actually nothing can surpass that grandness aside from returning to it and co-create with it.
It sounds also much more natural for me to be more at ease with myself . . . it is time at least for me to change this game of being uneasy with myself and it helped me to know and feel that everything I am is inside of me – this is a wonderful support.
So very well said Nico. We created a life that is so false we have to create more and more falseness, craziness, to keep ourselves distracted from the falseness, the lie, we set ourselves up to live in, in the first place. And all along, the truth, the gorgeousness we actually are and can be living here and now, is right there within us. We try running and running away from ourselves.
We avoid the one thing we long for most by seeking it but not re-claiming it whenever we come across it. Seeking is doing, finding asks us to be, so we create distractions and diversions to continue the seeking although we know where to find the treasure all the time.
And that is the choice Harrison we all have – to fight or to surrender? Both bring completely different results, the first brings struggle and complication whereas the second brings support and access to the innate wisdom we all carry within. All comes back to choice!
Fight is identification with what we have created as our reality, surrender lets go of identification and allows us to return to what is before and beyond such creation. It is a profound choice indeed.
I agree Alex, surrender is a big choice which takes away the individual and the identification with what we have created. As you say we can then return to what is before, the love that we naturally are, not something that we need to attain in anyway.
And what a worldwide fight this has been Harrison, the fight with ourselves and lack of inner connection gets bigger as the ‘doing’ continues unabated. We then end up in wars against others through our frustration and differences of opinions with self-righteousness from our unseen ideals and beliefs we are laced with.
This dis-ease is constantly reflected in the lethal wars setting nation against nation under the guise of religious differences. There is no solution or quick fix to solve this dilemma – only the return to our inner connection is the true answer to restore brotherhood and joy.
“If we stopped fighting ourselves we would simply find the truth within, that nothing really is needed except our own presence. In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other”.
“only the return to our inner connection is the true answer to restore brotherhood and joy” – the good thing is that this is the one thing we really have the power to do, making the choice to come back to one´s innate inner nature that is equal in all of us. From there the world will change one by one.
Beautifully said Harrison White! And sadly very true, we have lost something very precious by losing the ease to be with ourselves and the exquisite feeling when our own light (of who we are) emanates out into the world.
Dear Harrison,
“In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other.”
These two things I am now beginning to enjoy, accepting in full my life and where I find myself has been integral for me in being at ease with myself. And from feeling this ease, a trust in myself is returning. From having this trust I am beginning again to enjoy sharing from my heart with others. This is truly an amazing feeling. The depth of love and connection with another person, whoever this person may be is immeasurable.
Leigh how true, by just accepting myself in full in every way which in turn brings about the ease within me and consequently with one another.
What you say here Harrison makes so much sense as I can certainly relate to fighting myself. It was if I was listening to the external messages telling me that I needed to be one way and not to the internal knowing of who I truly was; I just wanted to fit into a world that actually doesn’t support us to be the magnificence that we naturally are.
I can totally relate to what you have shared Ingrid – allowing myself to get confused with the never ending mixed messages coming from within and without and, at times, would feel quite lost.
Well said Harrison, from an early age we taught to disconnect from who we are, and not to listen to our bodies and the wisdom they bring, making life about what we do rather than who we are, the way back to reconnecting with ourselves is to deeply appreciate our innate inner quality’s building a foundation of self love.
Gosh Harrison you are wise, “In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other.” Brilliantly expressed and explains the state of the world and why it is the way it is. With increased technology and resources, illness conditions continue to rise, you may have just answered why.
Yes, the world is, and we have made it this way… all about Doing rather than appreciating the Being.
Gorgeous Harrison – a call to express the Joy in our hearts for all to feel and see – I accept!
I have fought myself for far too long and now I am choosing acceptance instead. Acceptance of that fact that I can bring a smile to anyone’s face and share really precious moments with everyone I meet. There’s no point in fighting this anymore or denying who I am – it’s time to live it with no reserve or justification.
You are so right Harrison, we are in a world where we literally have access TO everything and HAVE everything except being at ease with ourselves with our innate and natural joy. It’s bizarre because everyone is on the search for this…how to live a more content life and yet we seek it from the wrong angle going off more and more at a tangent. All we need to do is to change tack and look inward and there we will find it all.
Love the power and clarity in your expression Harrison, you have got it in one, we do have all we ever need within except as you say the ease of being with ourselves. Yet the more we claim back this truth of who we are in the world, I feel that sense of feeling ill at ease abates as we come to know that all we ever have to be is ourselves.
Absolutely beautiful and wisely expressed Harrison, we strive for everything and manage to achieve it but we are deeply missing just being ourselves in the presence of every moment.
Hear, hear Esther and oh so true “we strive for everything and manage to achieve it but we are deeply missing just being ourselves in the presence of every moment.”
So simple and yet so powerful Tamara, we complete moments by bringing all of us to that moment and then nothing is missing.
That’s a perfect way of putting it Jenny…I wonder in total just how many of us are able to live each moment in full, complete as we are? It takes complete commitment to change from the momentum of looking out and seeking recognition in all that is done.
It is true that there is a fight setup, with most things encouraging us to do and not feel, to fit in and not be ourselves. The inner tension this creates then gets covered by anything we can find, so we don’t feel it.
I really get what you are saying here Joel. The inner tension is felt so we all cover it with anything that we can…hence all the busyness, distractions and perpetual motion….
Well said Harrison, the expectations to be someone or make something of our lives at the expense of who we are in Truth is enormous. There is no greater gift than to be at easy with our selves, which is also a gift to others at the same time.
Oh Harrison you have hit the nail on the head and stopped me in my tracks. ‘We have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other.’ It made me quite sad to read it because I realise I, and many, if not most of my fellow human beings have lived a life not feeling at ease with ourselves.
Harrison when you say ‘ in this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other’ then it actually makes it very clear that in truth we have nothing.
I love what you said Harrison, and how you have said it. The way we do what do is from a fight. It may not look like fight, but when you count the cost to the being, and the sense of ease with self then it is exposed, very clearly.
We are joy full, innately and simply. That we live less than this and think it normal is an indictment on our world.
This is spot on Harrison, ‘In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other.’ I can feel that this is so true, more and more as I make life more about my quality and less about what I do I find that I am more at ease with myself and feel more joyful, this is very lovely and very simple compared to how I used to live which felt hard and complicated.
So true Harrison. We have more technology, gadgets and widgets for just about everything these days, and yet the level of dis-ease amongst us is growing.
Our focus on the material is frightening and the more we do that the more lost and disconnected we become from ourselves and those around us. We are focusing our attention in all the wrong places so we miss what we wish for most, knowing who we truly are.
i agree Harrison. From an early age we are groomed to value achievements, qualifications and careers, the outer trappings of success. This is how the fight begins. At no point are we taught how to appreciate who we are and our innate beauty. This sets most people into the world in search of something they already have and consequently and because we don’t find it, we then resort to all the substitute fillers, food, alochol, drugs, nicotine, caffeine. This is how we acquire ill-ness and disease
Profound Harrison, much said in few words ‘In this world we have literally EVERYTHING except being at ease with ourselves and being joy full from our hearts with each other’ When we’re at ease with ourselves we’re at ease with everyone else and the world.
And the illusion played out in the world is that we don’t have everything, and material possessions will fill the inevitable void we feel. How sad this is for humanity. Simple truths buried beneath a sea of lies and distractions.
Harrison this is so true, we are so used to fighting ourselves and the world that it is exhausting – to have that ease you speak of in our bodies as an everyday thing would definitely make a difference to how people treat each other, but ultimately we have to make that initial choice to want that for ourselves first.
Having always been very sensitive and anxious growing up there was never any mention of the body being able to have that ease as a natural way of being, so the fact that more people are living that ease within their bodies and talking about it, I am sure it will filter through to more people eventually and become our everyday way of living again.
So true Harrison. We have everything except being at ease with who we are.
So true Harrison, we fight ourselves and it is devastating to see what is happening when we continue to do so. Being more at ease with myself now since I am a student of the Livingness I can only say there is this amazing unfolding of who I am; letting go of ideals and beliefs I have been picking up along the way. And sharing my joy with all I encounter.
Well said Harrison, it does seem as though we are missing the point somewhat, as all our efforts go into proving ourselves to the outer world whilst we are dying inside due to the lack of connection to ourselves. Could the lie get any bigger, as the one thing ‘our own presence’ which we ignore the most, could actually be our salvation.
Hi Harrison, this is absolute wisdom you share. Even though it is very sad, it is very true.
Living this fight is exhausting as we know we will never win, it is a constant battle that we focus on within ourselves. It is so true that the one thing we don’t have, which is the one thing we really miss, is being at ease with ourselves and being truly connected to others.
“A world that has made it all about doing” .. This is definitely a set up from the start to prompt the internal fight within us because we are quite simply not just a “doing” but rather a “being”. Hence thank God for the teachings of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon for showing us all for a fact that we can be the “being” in the world of the “doing” by living from our inner most
Beautiful expressed Harrison. It costs so much energy to fight against me and it doesn’t make sense at all. And I’m pretty close to breaking the pattern of doing. The doing is so ingrained in my body, I lived it for a very long time. But I’m getting better and better, to surrender. I know now, that I don’t have to do something to be worthy.
Thank you Harrison, a beautful reminder of the importance of ‘being’ before ‘doing’.
Harrison, this is gold – ‘If we stopped fighting ourselves we would simply find the truth within, that nothing really is needed except our own presence.’
Yes, that quality that lives within is who we are. It is quite a revelation for me to see that that quality is most of what I am or even all of what or who I am. The rest is that quality expressing itself or not expressing itself.
Beautifully said Christoph, the quality inside just IS and in my day I can choose to express that or not. I would love to be more present in my day to always express that quality. The exquisiteness of who I am in expression is beyond words.
Beautiful Katinka – I love what you have expressed, being more of you so that you can be that for others. Now that is true brotherhood and responsibility. What a world it will be when others choose to live the same way.
‘The exquisiteness of who I am in expression is beyond words’. Gorgeous Katinka, I will second this.
‘The exquisiteness of who I am in expression is beyond words.’ That is absolutely gorgeous Katinka, why would we want to choose anything else?
Indeed Katinka, as I develop more presence I can naturally express that quality that is who I truly am. When I hold that back, I am not expressing that quality and allow other things to come through me.
I like how you express this Christoph – that it’s the quality of who we are that is the focus, and that everything we do is a reflection of that quality expressing itself…
Yes I agree Angela, the way in which Christoph expresses it is quite exquisite, it shows the true simplicity and beauty of who we are. We are the quality we hold within and ‘everything we do is a reflection of that quality expressing itself…’ just gorgeous!
Me too Angela, this is something very powerful to take from reading this blog. I find there is always more understanding to deepen with this.
So true Angela and Christoph and it makes a beautiful quote :), ‘It’s the quality of who we are that is the focus, and everything we do is a reflection of that quality expressing itself’
I liked it too Angela, it hit me in the right spot. I had to read it again. It felt mathematical spherical as you have expanded on it here. Your expression comes back to yourself – a point of truth for you to see and feel in each moment.
Very succinctly put and crystal clear – the true quality we are within is either expressed or not expressed and that makes for the ups and downs and all the variations when what is within does not ever change.
‘I am that I am’
It is really that simple, we either express from and with that quality or not; either way the quality is always there.
How true Gabriele, and we have a choice in every moment to express our love..or not.
Thank you Gabriele, it is that simple.
I love this too Christoph ‘that quality that lives within is who we are’ it really is that simple! We are expressing all the time, our inner quality determines the truth of that expression.
Yes truly a revelation Christoph that we are and have always been equipped with and in fact are made of gold so to speak and yet we have lived and expressed most of the time like we are made of clay whilst the gold waits for the re discovery. This ‘Eureka moment’ must occur if we are to find and live the truth of who we are.
I love this line Christoph – ‘that quality that lives within is who we are’