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A Love Letter to my Husband

By Bianca Barban · On November 3, 2013

I have been reflecting on the false claims reported in 2012 by some journalists on Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine (UniMed) being responsible for the breakup of families. I felt to expose how this is an absolute untruth by sharing a letter and conversation that I had with my husband of 11 years. Marc and I have been together since I was 19, I am now 37.

5 March 2013

Dear Marc,

I love you.
I know this is unoriginal, a commonly used phrase bandied around by everyone, but now when I say this you can feel the depth and quality of my love that is expressed in these words, and the wholeness they represent. I can see this confirmation in your beautiful eyes – and the way I smile when I say these words to you.

I have always been able to tell you that I love you, but in the past it came with reservation, holding back. I kept a piece of my heart away from you in case you hurt me. When we fought I could console myself in the knowing that you didn’t hurt all of me. The hardness that came with this protection gave me a false bravado that if things didn’t work out and we parted, I would be fine. I would be strong, I would cope and carry on.

This need to protect played out in our relationship with my being hot and cold. One minute I was all over you, the next I was distant, icy and aloof. You stayed. We had fun, we got along, we focussed on the children, we had moments of wow!, but most of all life became dull. I felt something was missing, and that missing was me!

Over time, I have been getting to know the love that is naturally within me. This re-connection began 10 years ago when I started seeing a psychologist and began exposing my hurts. You supported this, even though you had some reservations about what was so wrong that I needed to go. We talked; I explained my feeling that I had to take responsibility for the hurts I had created in my life so I could be all of me, You understood. You supported me to make the choices I needed to heal me.

Marc, you gave me the space to explore what I truly needed, without placing demands on me. As I introduced esoteric healing modalities, and in 2010 began listening to Serge Benhayon’s Esoteric Medicine presentations via audio, there was more acceptance from you.

You also had moments of resistance, but these passed because there was no denying the different quality within me. I was lovely, stable and calm. There was less frustration and less drama. I slowly began making more self-loving choices and this allowed me to feel and express more of me.

The more I lived the deep knowing of me, the more open and accepting you became. You quietly started making more self-loving choices too. The quality of our relationship deepened. I let you in more. I will be honest, there was no perfection as I was still holding back, but not as much as before.

I continued healing my hurts. I attended UniMed courses too. You, my wonderful husband, continued to support me. With time, I began to accept that I am amazing. I began to know how amazing you are too. The more love I allowed myself to feel in me, the more love I felt in you.

I allowed myself to truly feel how your presence is an absolute support for me. How your simply being around, not doing anything but just being there, makes me feel open to being all of me. This feeling is not based on need but an acceptance that true support can occur in relationships.

When I expressed this to you in words you felt it deeply. Tears welled in your eyes, your heart expanded. There was stillness flowing between us and we truthfully discussed how we felt and how we had been. We made love in that conversation and that night we felt how physical union can confirm the love we both equally are. It was amazing. We both felt it. Our relationship evolved to wholeness.

So, my darling Marc I adore you and love you with all my heart. I thank-you for being the amazing man you naturally are. For being open, gentle, fun, committed to our relationship and for allowing yourself to express how you feel. We now have a new marker for our relationship. A foundation built on openness and love which allows me to fully express me. This deepening happened because of both of us equally. I committed to truly healing my hurts which supported me to let go of protection, express true love and all of me. You committed to being open, allowing and real, which has supported you to unfold your own love. You are truly awesome! Thank you for being all of you, it is an absolute blessing to have you in my life.

Much love,
Bianca

Here is living proof that with commitment to true love (which I re-connected to because of choosing to feel – and be inspired by – the example provided by Serge Benhayon), relationships can deepen and be about absolute love.

By Bianca Barban, Melbourne, Australia

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Bianca Barban

Living in Melbourne, with my beautiful husband, daughter and son. I am playful and love laughing. Enjoy walking, exploring parks and kicking a ball, love shopping. I work as a Registered Nurse, which can be challenging, but also very lovely. Autumn is my favourite season because of the colours, snuggles and sunshine.

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312 Comments

  • Mary says: September 14, 2019 at 10:47 pm

    I wonder why we do this to ourselves?
    ‘ kept a piece of my heart away from you in case you hurt me. When we fought I could console myself in the knowing that you didn’t hurt all of me. The hardness that came with this protection gave me a false bravado that if things didn’t work out and we parted, I would be fine. I would be strong, I would cope and carry on.’
    What is it about the way we are parented and are brought up to not feel the love that resides in us all naturally so that we hold ourselves back and do not express all the love we feel?

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  • Mary Adler says: June 28, 2019 at 2:38 pm

    “The more love I allowed myself to feel in me, the more love I felt in you.” This is the essence of love.

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  • Helen Elliott says: December 1, 2018 at 8:11 am

    What a beautiful reflection that whilst love is always there it is ever expanding as we release the hurts that have caused us to live life with layers of protection that prevent us from connecting on a deeper level.

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  • Rik Connors says: October 13, 2018 at 4:06 pm

    To me, there is nothing like a love story that exudes truth and no emotion — and you can express all of you and not hold back one bit. This line captures it for me “A foundation built on openness and love which allows me to fully express me.”

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  • Lorraine Wellman says: October 6, 2018 at 2:10 pm

    Our presence is very powerful in many ways, ‘I allowed myself to truly feel how your presence is an absolute support for me. How your simply being around, not doing anything but just being there, makes me feel open to being all of me.’

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  • Lorraine Wellman says: October 5, 2018 at 4:17 pm

    What a great way to be responsible, ‘I had to take responsibility for the hurts I had created in my life so I could be all of me,’ and then, how that contributed to your lovely changes.

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  • Monika Rietveld says: August 23, 2018 at 5:39 am

    Thank you for loving each of us just as much as you love your husband by sharing your love letter with us. Palpable how healing your hurts opened you up to more love and how we all benefit from this.

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  • Melinda Knights says: August 9, 2018 at 6:14 pm

    Bianca you are an amazing woman, you have steadily healed your hurts to let yourself be all of you and express the love and joy you naturally are. And, you haven’t done that in an isolated way, but allowed your partner into the process of returning to yourself and let your relationship also deepen and evolve as you have. I have to agree that men are truly beautiful and provide so much support, I can relate to this line about Marc “How your simply being around, not doing anything but just being there, makes me feel open to being all of me.”

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    • Mary says: February 19, 2020 at 11:43 pm

      What is so beautiful about this way of being open to everyone allows the other person to feel supported to feel more of themselves even if it is only in a small way, it chips away at the armour we walk around in.

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  • julie says: June 17, 2018 at 3:46 pm

    Open expression like this would change the world as we know it. Having this relationship as a foundation will surely rub off onto all of the authors’ relationships. Thank you for sharing Bianca.

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  • Sylvia Brinkman says: March 30, 2018 at 5:58 am

    By Universal Medicine I get so much support to heal my hurts standing in between me and my partner which makes space for love.
    I was always needy towards men. I was not really opening my heart to them even they were beautiful men.
    Universal Medicine showed me how we can unravel the lies which keeps us separated from ourselves and others.

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  • Suse says: March 25, 2018 at 8:02 am

    It is inspiring to read this and feel that you didn’t have expectations on the other but allowed the other to be and develop in their own way and time, giving space without imposing your needs on another- that is love.

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    • Lorraine Wellman says: October 10, 2018 at 4:29 pm

      It is inspiring to read, and I likewise have been inspired by Serge Benhayon in how I live my life and relate with people, ‘living proof that with commitment to true love (which I re-connected to because of choosing to feel – and be inspired by – the example provided by Serge Benhayon), relationships can deepen and be about absolute love.’

      Reply
  • Joseph Barker says: March 17, 2018 at 9:14 am

    Gorgeous that you shared this letter with us all Bianca. It reminds me that our relationships, Love and partnerships are never just for us, but are for everybody. The worst thing we can do is fall into the trap of seeing ourselves as ‘just two people’ and stop at that.

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    • Alexis Stewart says: January 31, 2020 at 9:41 am

      Even if we see ourselves as our immediate family, county or country it’s a trap. There are no divides when it comes to energy, we are the united energy of God. One glorious seem-less mass of Life.

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  • Leonne Barker says: March 16, 2018 at 1:53 pm

    Who doesn’t want a relationship like this? Together in a way that is equal , tender and true. This is what we all crave more than anything. A relationship like this can be because two people have chosen to be the love that they are to the best of their ability, without perfection. Thank you for sharing this with the world. We all need it.

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  • Michael Goodhart says: February 16, 2018 at 12:49 pm

    Anyone who reads this incredibly sweet and tender blog can not deny the depth of love that you and your husband have tapped into Bianca. You have set a beautiful marker for how relationships can be when we are open to healing our hurts, loving ourselves fully, and then allowing that connection to spread out with all our relationships.

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  • Rebecca Wingrave says: January 26, 2018 at 11:11 pm

    Wow Bianca, I have tears in my eyes reading this, thank you for sharing the honesty and openness that there is now in your relationship with your husband – deeply inspiring and beautiful.

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  • greg Barnes says: January 17, 2018 at 10:07 pm

    We are Love we come from Love and when you share as you have Bianca, then as our Love deepens we get to an understanding that Love is also expanding. So Love must be a grander part of the universe that is also forever expanding?

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    • Alexis Stewart says: January 31, 2020 at 9:54 am

      I’m not sure that using a word like ‘love’ or any word for that matter to describe the activity of what love actually is works. The activity and intelligence of love defies description, we simply can’t go there with our language or our comprehension.

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