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Blaming Women

By Willem Plandsoen · On January 9, 2019 ·Photography by Nico van Haastrecht

Today in a conversation with my partner I finally realised that I had been living in blame for most of my life: blaming people, circumstances, and especially women. This blame was so normal for me that I did not even see that it had been running my life for so long. Until yesterday, if anyone had indicated that I was living in blame – or in other words not taking responsibility for myself and basically acting as a victim of life – I would have said they were completely off track. 

So how did this all start? Where did it come from and how does this continue to play out even today?  

It all started when I was very young. My mother, who was very sick, demanded that I make her happy, which was a mission impossible because nobody can make somebody else ‘happy.’ 

I then chose to withdraw to my own room, feeling a victim of the whole situation, thinking I was unable to solve it. I created my own little bubble of life, with dreams, music and creative activities like building with Lego and aircraft modelling. I became angry with my mother, that she had ruined my life and I blamed and disrespected her. The disrespect and anger played out in my irritation of the things she said or did throughout the whole of my life.  

I consider I am an intelligent man, so on a mental level I knew I had to love my mother. But in my body there was anger and the blame, so I was mentally controlling this behaviour.

The big problem here is: if you blame, or even be angry with your mother, this is transferred to all relationships with women. This stems from a fundamental psychological law: the relationship you have with your mother is the model you use to relate with other women. So, in a very subtle way I started to be angry with all women without even being conscious of it. 

After this conversation, calling out my blaming behaviour, actually renouncing it, I felt like a huge weight was released from my body. I felt my body filling with a warm quality and the colour in my skin immediately changed from pale to more brownish. My hands, parts of my arms, my feet started tingling. What was happening? Then I felt sharp pains in several parts of my body and realised what was actually happening:  

Blame had been the ultimate protection of not wanting to feel my own hurts, my feelings of discomfort in my body. 

For years I have been saying that I wanted to heal my hurts. Being a student of The Way of The Livingness I understood very well that my hurts were my buried unresolved emotional issues and were the opening gates through which non-loving energy could manifest itself.  

When touched upon, I have cried about some of my hurts, but normally if anyone came into contact with them, most often my dear partner, I immediately would turn the attention towards her, not wanting to feel my hurt. In hindsight it was blame in action. I basically said every time a hurt was revealed: “You are the one causing me to feel miserable, weak and sad and I became angry and defensive”… at first openly irritated, sometimes angry, but I learned to manage this anger because I knew that was not how I was supposed to act as a ‘good’ man. 

I became a very sophisticated and ‘nice’ man – a wolf in sheep’s clothing. 

But when this behaviour kicked in, I thought in anger and walked in anger. And sometimes I exploded; my charade dropped and showed how very angry and frustrated I was feeling on the inside – believing “Whatever I do you are never satisfied with me, why can’t you be happy with me? Stop criticising me!”… or something in that style.  

It was the little boy speaking, and my partner had turned into my mother. I understood mentally that I was still playing the same game, just as I did as a boy, but could not find a way to stop this. Better said, I chose to not find a way out, not wanting to see and deal with the root cause and feeling the deep hurt which was underneath. 

Meanwhile my beautiful relationship was like a war every now and then, seeing my partner as the enemy when I chose to go into this blame pattern again.

I even aligned with a friend of mine so that we could ‘support’ each other in our struggling relationships, as he was also in a relationship that was not going so well. But it was no support, because basically we were talking in anger and frustration about “how women play these insidious games” and we were always “the bad-guys.” 

When we want to hang onto a behaviour, do not want to let go, and if we are not honest, we will seek the support of the exactly those people that support the very behaviour we don’t want to let go of. 

I chose to hang onto blame. And when there is blame, there can be no love.

Of course I understood I should not blame and not play being a victim. This was a mental concept that I understood very well. The reality was: I did not live this. This pattern was so ingrained in my body, and the thing I was doing was controlling and suppressing this behaviour with mental discipline, and that just does not work. 

In hindsight I could have easily observed the anger, the hate, the disrespect, the not wanting to take responsibility and seeing myself as a victim, which was all caused by living in blame.  

Examples are: 

  • When any of my numerous relationships ended – even though I saw my own part in it – I concluded that she was not the true love I was seeking and/or there was something wrong with her.  
  • Not really wanting to hear with my whole body when my partner pointed out my unloving behaviours. 
  • Withdrawing in self-pity and victimhood when my partner had pointed out something I had “done wrong.” 
  • Being glad to leave for work, after my partner and I had another argument. 
  • Being glad to go shopping, or do chores so I could avoid my partner. 
  • Eating things to feel better, just like a drug addict who thinks that the drug is the only thing that can make him feel better: a victim in action.  
  • Blaming one of the directors in a company I used to run, or all the things that he did wrong even though I was the one who employed him and did not take the responsibility to correct him or to let him go when the time was right.  

The days after the ‘letting go of blame,’ more miracles followed. People around me observed my eyes opened up more, people expressed that they saw more love in me and that I walked in a different more, gentle loving way. 

When I place things down the way I used to do it now feels hard in my body, so I changed these movements. I felt I could, and that I had the power to hold the connection with myself, feeling an almost constant radiation of love in my hands. Sometimes it went away – for example when I got absorbed or distracted in a discussion – but then I could bring the feeling back easily.  

I even started laughing more, about myself too, so much so that tears would roll down my face! 

Hardness out – love in. 

Is this blame pattern now resolved? Sometimes it still creeps in, when somebody and especially my partner, points out something I have done in an unloving or irresponsible way. I then get this uncomfortable feeling in my body because I know I have made an irresponsible choice. Accepting now that I have the choice to feel in full and not shift the attention to someone else, instead of silently blaming them because I have perceived they are making me feel so awkward and knowing it is me who has to deal with the higher level of self-responsibility. 

So thank you deeply Sylvia, my dearest partner, for pointing out this ugly pattern of blame – that I have been carrying around for such a long time and even considered to be my normal. 

Choosing to let ‘blame’ go has changed my life and my body, and continues to do so. I am a powerful man, an adult and I know I can deal with anything and any hurt that surfaces in my life. There’s no need to defend what is there to be felt; I know I can handle it. 

I know and feel that our relationship can blossom AT LAST.  

Published with permission of my partner, Sylvia Brinkman. 

By Willem Plandsoen, MsC, Sales consultant, Business owner and dedicated student of The Way of The Livingness

Further Reading:
Relationships are always about evolving – the key to making relationships work
Breathing my Own Breath
Having The Right to React?

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Willem Plandsoen

Living in the Netherlands, in a sweet little village near Amsterdam, together with my partner, I am an entrepreneurial guy who sees new (business) opportunities everywhere and is learning what it is like to be playful, serious and purposeful at the same time. For the first time in my life, I am committing and staying in a relationship, which is deepening, where there is more and more love (and not less!), not walking away when things get tough, not only with my partner but with friends as well. Lover of good healthy food, long and short walks, swimming, philosophy, singing and organizing parties, meeting and being around (new!) people.

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252 Comments

  • Mary says: October 19, 2020 at 4:20 pm

    When we can get to the nub of the games we play, then we can let go of those hurts that we hang onto that can literally ruin our lives and keep us in the same old patterns that we have hung onto may be for life times. When we release the energy of those hurts, they no longer have any hold over us and we are free to make different more loving choices towards ourselves and others.

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  • annoymous says: November 9, 2019 at 5:52 pm

    There has long been a game where women blame men and men blame women, this energy is hard and harmful.

    Now more than ever it is for each gender to drop the blame game and instead bring and be the responsibility the world needs to see.

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    • Willem Plandsoen says: November 10, 2019 at 5:08 pm

      A long game indeed, just to avoid responsibility. But it is very simple: when there is blame there can not be love, and going into blame is always a choice.

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  • Annoymous says: September 15, 2019 at 5:43 am

    We are either in love and letting that energy in and out through our bodies or we are in blame letting in and out all manor of nasty stuff.

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  • Leigh Matson says: September 11, 2019 at 4:54 am

    I find that when I get thoughts of blaming or niggling against my partner or another that can lead to even further separation if I allow those thoughts to fester. I know now to nip those thoughts in the bud with appreciation for them rather than entertaining the blame.

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  • Greg Barnes says: September 8, 2019 at 4:15 am

    Thank you Willem, blaming is a silly game we all have played and when we point the finger at another we have THREE finger pointing back at ourselves and in this we are judging another for a part of our problem when the reality is we are the ones who take all the responsibility for everything that happens in our life.
    Then eliminating the self judge-ment deepens our relationship with our essences our Soul-full-ness and thus we are starting to also appreciate the same in another, even when they are choosing not to be in their essences. Appreciation becomes our best friend as we understand that we are energy first and appreciate all equally including the diminishing self, which is stepping aside to deepen our awareness and enriching every-ones life.

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    • Willem Plandsoen says: September 8, 2019 at 12:21 pm

      Thanks Greg. Only looking at our selves takes responsibility. We have such a tendency only looking outide of us, blaming is clearly a part of that. Clocking blame still every day. Even after I wrote the article, it goes deeper and deeper.

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    • Mary says: October 19, 2020 at 4:31 pm

      Very beautifully said Greg, when we can understand that it is not us but the energy we are choosing that makes us what we become. To understand that we are just vessels and there are only two energies to choose from. As we deepen this awareness of how life really works it all makes sense of our split personality, or more truthfully said the difference between choosing spirit over our soul.

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  • Lucy says: September 1, 2019 at 4:41 am

    Thank you for what you have shared here because patterns of behaviour can be so embedded that we fail to see clearly with our eyes, or hear clearly with our ears! Being honest and choosing to see these dysfunctional patters does not need to be an emotional breakdown, it can be as simple as we want it to be once we choose to let it do.

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  • Mary Adler says: July 29, 2019 at 1:43 pm

    When we drop the brittle shield of our hurts we rediscover the innate love that we are.

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    • Greg Barnes says: September 8, 2019 at 4:20 am

      Appreciating our “innate love” or essences is foundational in our True evolution.

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  • sueq2012 says: July 14, 2019 at 1:50 pm

    “This blame was so normal for me that I did not even see that it had been running my life for so long” We can be so blind to our own behaviours. Waking up and owning up to them takes courage. Then we can begin to deal with them until they no longer form part of our life. I’m currently working to remove self-blame.

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    • Willem Plandsoen says: July 14, 2019 at 6:18 pm

      Self-blame and self criticsm is perfect way of using knowledge in a destructive way so we don’t evolve.

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  • Alexis Stewart says: July 11, 2019 at 5:47 am

    Blaming others has become a bit of a cultural pastime, we love to indulge ourselves in the art of ‘passing the buck’. We are quick to join in with others when they take the lead, secretly relieved that the heat is not on us and therefore keen to collaborate with others. It takes considerable effort to not enjoin when others are in the tempo of blaming but after a while it gets very easy and I have found that my starting point of simply not joining in has now shifted to one (if appropriate) of actually suggesting different ways of looking at the situation and also venturing to gently suggesting that we all have a responsibility to look at our part in all that we see and experience.

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    • sueq2012 says: July 14, 2019 at 1:53 pm

      Love this Alexis – ‘gently suggesting that we all have a responsibility to look at our part in all that we see and experience.’ Blame is everywhere in life – in many conversations. So much better to venture alternative viewpoints rather than merely withdrawing form the conversation.

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    • Willem Plandsoen says: July 14, 2019 at 6:16 pm

      Love that Alexis. When you start observing conversations there is so much blame in what is happening in our lives. Take diseases: we blame God, genes, whatever, but don’t want to go that perhaps, just perhaps we play a role in creating the diseases ourselves. Gently offering a different point a view, is the key here. Which still could trigger anger.

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    • Lucy says: September 1, 2019 at 4:44 am

      Yes, even not speaking up can contribute to the culture of blame. At the right moment and with grace, someone opening the door to the possibility that we can contribute to the world we see is addressing the passive acceptance of the world as it is now.

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  • Vicky Cooke says: July 6, 2019 at 5:27 pm

    I love your honesty in this blog Willem. On reading this ‘I consider I am an intelligent man, so on a mental level I knew I had to love my mother. But in my body there was anger and the blame, so I was mentally controlling this behaviour.’ I am wondering how many of us in the world put on a face where we pretend we are one thing but actually feel another? It is so harming to ourselves when we do this and of course affects the genuineness (or lack of genuineness in our relationships). From experience it is not always an easy thing to take responsibility and see that actually it is not another but instead ourselves and how we are living but also from experience when we do this so very much heals to the point that I can say it is totally worth doing ✨#takingresponsiblity #notblamingothers

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    • Willem Plandsoen says: July 8, 2019 at 12:39 am

      Thanks for your sharing. I live as honest as possible, Vicky. But I stil have trouble getting honest, especially when I run into feelings that are awful, and admitting that I feel terrible. Keeping up the illusion of doing good, I call it. Just another defence, and probably more common with men then women.

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  • Melinda Knights says: July 3, 2019 at 11:03 am

    Thank you Willem, there is a lot you have shared here that I haven’t considered, like how a situation can make us uncomfortable and we then perceive it to be from that person (blame) instead of taking responsibility for ourselves. I can still see that in myself and now can see it more clearly in others. It’s a great blog on a topic that we need to look at. Letting go of blame is like a reawakening back to our responsibility and power, no matter what has happened to us, or the hurts we have, we can return to being love if we choose to.

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    • Willem Plandsoen says: July 8, 2019 at 12:42 am

      Yes Melinda, everytime we interact with somebody and we start getting feelings that are not so great, it is an opportunity to heal, to let go and let the love that was always there come out. Great theory, for me still work in progress.

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      • Alexis Stewart says: July 18, 2019 at 5:41 am

        Once we realise that it’s not possible for anyone else to make us feel crap, it’s a game changer. Sure other people can do all manner of crappy things to us but none the less it’s still a choice that we make if we choose to be affected by whatever it is that they’re doing. We spend so much time berating other people and blaming their behaviour on how we feel and all so that we can choose to continue with our own behaviours.

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