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Claiming Back the Courtyard

By Sandra Schneider · On October 29, 2016 ·Photography by Miike Keppler

Recently I realised in my home place, how much we had let our courtyard down – honestly said, it was in a mess. The floor was full of moss, grass and leaves, the outside furniture reflected themselves from scruffy to rotten, and bushes as well as weeds looked like taking over control.

I was looking at this reflection in my life and realised how much my husband and I had withdrawn from here… We did let down the service AND the joy of using the courtyard.

I remembered myself having thoughts like “Outside there are too many insects that disturb me” and “I need someone to clear this mess, but who?” or “I am too busy and have no time for this.” I could see how these thoughts did support a choice I have made: the choice to withdraw from life.

How did that come about?

A few years ago my husband and I were challenged by a group experience where we were left feeling hurt. We recovered and were back on track (we thought) and did go on. It all looked like we had settled back and overcome this experience… yes, it looked like we learned out of it. And in a way we did – and in another way we did not heal the situation completely and so did hold onto a hurt.

This little hurt did hide quite well between our everyday living challenges and caused a maintenance of protection which was in fact called to deal with. But hidden as it was, we did not deal with it. So, hidden it stayed and we went on…

Two years later my partner and I found ourselves in situations where we were not loving with each other, not supporting ourselves in a way that was necessary, and finally after a few drama contributions, we asked a relationship-counselling couple for help. They offered us the reading of that there is still something going on from this group experience, a hurt left over so to speak, and with that the trying to protect ourselves that is now what continues to stand between us both.

We were surprised, but by engaging in this opportunity and then dealing with it we were able to see the shields we did hold for ourselves in protection.

These shields made us unable to connect deeper and build on an intimate level. We did hold each other at a distance, so to not get hurt again, but because we as humans are made to develop, we felt the missing growth and so here we are.

Well, that journey is worth an extra article but here I’d like to talk about how this choice, to hold onto a hurt (and hide it), had a large influence on our relationship, on our way of living and therefore on our surroundings. And our surroundings did reflect our way of being.

Now, by dealing with these hurts and therefore letting down the shields again, I saw things more clearly and the thoughts about my courtyard did change. I wanted to sit outside again; I wanted it to be a beautiful place and decided that I am the one who will make it. I claimed back my courtyard and what it stands for.

So firstly I made the decision that we need new furniture. I wanted something that I can easily handle, light and beautiful furniture. So my partner and I made an appointment with each other, looked for some new furniture and ordered that together.

Then I felt to clear the ground for this lovely new stuff and cleaned the floor, step by step. I thought, it will be easy and quick with cleaning up here but the mud that came up was more than expected (he he – good analogy again) and I needed more than triple of the time I expected.

What I learned is, it needs some commitment and dedication to claim back what I’ve given up on for a while…

Parallel to my ‘claiming back’, I shared the journey about the courtyard on social media and let everyone know about it. I posted pictures of me while working on it, from the mud that came up as well as the ‘ready to sit in a beautiful place’ pictures. And so a lot of people did participate on our journey and also contribute with comments and appreciation.

The old place was given some love again and so it shows. We both, my husband and I, are enjoying very much our ‘new’ surrounding, which reflects our choice to open up again – to each other and the world – and we are looking forward to receive guests in real life and not only via Internet.

BEFORE - Claiming back the Courtyard

BEFORE the Courtyard had been claimed back.

AFTER the Courtyard had been claimed back.

AFTER the Courtyard had been claimed back.

But anyway, it is an openness and love that we claimed back into our life and it is beautiful to share this. I realise how much we are made to connect and celebrate our connection. The moment I withdrew from someone and/or life – I am in fact withdrawn from my natural way of being.

By Sandra Schneider, Germany

Further Reading:
Healing relationship issues: beginnings of intimacy
Letting go of the past is true medicine
Letting Go of an Old Way of Protecting Myself

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Sandra Schneider

I live with my lovely husband, which I have known since I am 17, on the countryside near Cologne/Germany. To connect with the sales assistant while shopping and making us both laugh is one of my favorite everyday ‘hobbies'. I love the juiciness of a moist meadow, feminine clothing, singing sonorously in my car and dancing in a way that rocks the world with grace. So, it’s not just my way of dancing and cooking that is hot my dear - when you are with me, you will experience some fire for sure.

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628 Comments

  • Mary Adler says: April 2, 2020 at 3:18 pm

    This reflects very clearly that if we don’t deal with the little niggles in life they can escalate and become a problem between us.

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  • Mary says: February 2, 2020 at 4:06 pm

    This is a fascinating read as it clearly demonstrates what taking on just one hurt can do and when we are growing up we take on many hurts from our parents, family, friends and school life. They all build up in our bodies over time and change our perception of life so that the openness we had as children closes down behind a wall of protection. No wonder we are so screwed up as adults, as we put up walls of protection to keep each other out so as not to get hurt and then we miss out on connecting to people on a deep level and so can become lonely and bitter towards ourselves and everyone else.

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  • Leigh says: November 14, 2019 at 11:46 pm

    100% agree on that last line. One area of withdrawal affects everything. Open up from that and it all opens up.

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  • Vicky Cooke says: October 30, 2019 at 5:46 pm

    An awesome claiming in many ways ?✨❤️ loved the photos too.

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  • LE says: September 2, 2019 at 5:56 am

    Every part of homes needs to be claimed for the space they are, its up to us to allow magic and love to fill every millimetre.

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    • Vicky Cooke says: October 30, 2019 at 5:46 pm

      So true.

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  • Michelle McWaters says: August 16, 2019 at 7:25 am

    ‘… with cleaning up here but the mud that came up was more than expected’. Quite often when we deal with a hurt, we only dealing with the surface of something that has many layers. I have often been surprised by how deeply I have carried something, but there has been appreciation and celebration when I have finally let it all go!

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  • Greg Barnes says: June 21, 2019 at 7:54 am

    As we deepen our feelings about what we are bringing to our lives our environment will naturally change by what we do and how we place and position our belongings. Simple as you have shared Sandra.

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