For the most part of 40 years I’ve had difficulty truly conversing with my Dad, with much of the conversation pieces being superficial chat about work, the weather or sport. But, a couple of years ago I ‘switched off’ to the sporting banter so our conversations have become really brief.
Sometime ago, we had a skype chat with my parents in South Africa. Since then I’ve had this nagging feeling to write him a letter. So I sat down and the words just flowed, and even during the process of writing the letter I felt it would have to be shared, that it wasn’t just a letter between my Dad and I. So here is a letter written from my inner-heart to my Dad…
“Hi Dad,
Reflecting on our recent conversation (and that it reminded me of a recurring theme in many of our conversations) I feel to share something that has been dawning upon me over the past several months.
I recall during our conversation, marvelling at the complexity and intricacies of the human body and all of its functionings and goings on (fuelled by my studies of Anatomy & Physiology) and your comical reply was “that it (the body) can always be fixed with a triple cane (vodka)”.
I know this is said in jest, but it supports the very notion that I am becoming more aware of in me, that we say and do things (particularly as men) to prove to ourselves that we are LESS…
Less than the absolutely amazing beings that deep down we know we are.
I am coming to terms with just how amazing I am and how much potential I have to allow that amazingness to develop further, not only for my benefit, but for the benefit of all those I know and will meet; and in the microcosm of life, to be that as a role model for my 3 sons.
You have been such an inspiration and role model to me through my developing stages of life, with so much that you have provided to equip me for the way life is, that I feel to reflect on this, and suggest that I have stumbled upon a part of me that you perhaps did not offer me as part of your role-modelling because you too had forgotten that you have it equally within you.
You are AMAZING – always have been and always will be!
So, please don’t feed that urge to be-little the amazingness you are, because I now know you are so much more than you allow / know of yourself to be. Perhaps, let there no longer be a place in our relationship for self-abuse style banter between us, as men.
All my love,
Greg”
And not long after, I received his response entitled “Letter to my son”…
“Dear Greg,
Thank you for your letter.
As a parent one strives to provide the very best in education and life skills for one’s children in order that, with the fullness of time, they may develop on their own chosen path to surpass the skills and character of the teacher.
There is no university degree in parenthood – much of the time one bumbles along as a well-intentioned parent with the above aim foremost in mind.
I am happy to say that you and your siblings have surpassed my wildest expectations – You, Greg, are indeed an amazing person, of whom I am extremely proud.
Some light hearted banter between a father and son is a reflection of our humanity and should always be seen as such.
Love,
Dad”
Needless to say I was not surprised by the response as I had already felt the quality in which it would return, but was nonetheless blown away by his honesty and beauty.
I truly feel conversations with my Dad will be on a whole new level of truth and understanding, going forward.
Having had the opportunity to share in the Universal Medicine inspired Men’s groups has undoubtedly provided the springboard to allow me to understand, recognise and begin to set aside the ‘superficial nature’ of my relationships with other men.
The true revelation however, is the understanding that how I perceived our relationship, at the time, was merely a reflection to me of how my relationship was with myself: I could not hold a true and heart-felt conversation with anyone without first having a true relationship with myself (honouring who I truly am). But, looking back there were definitely many moments where a true relationship existed and I could share from the heart (and that this too, would be reflected back) – but this was not my general way of life.
By Greg Hall, Brisbane Australia (Published With permission by Derrick Hall)
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Opening up and speaking from the heart invites another to meet us from an equal place.
This is truly touching Greg, thank you for sharing.
Thank you Greg for sharing your expression in relationship to another, beautiful to receive and be a part of.
I agree, true, loving relationships, and expression always start with self, ‘The true revelation however, is the understanding that how I perceived our relationship, at the time, was merely a reflection to me of how my relationship was with myself: I could not hold a true and heart-felt conversation with anyone without first having a true relationship with myself (honouring who I truly am).’
Building a loving relationship can only start when we are feeling our own True Connection to the same Love we all come from and then we can start to feel the Humble-appreciative-ness of our divine-connected-ness, which is very much as you have shared Greg.
Thank you, Greg, so beautiful to read that when you call on someone being more love and almost give them permission to be the loving and amazing being they are, you can get surprised by the level and depth of love that comes back to you.
Gorgeous Greg, I love this sharing simply because it is honest. I love how simplicity is brought back when we are simple. So so easy.
When we truly share how we feel with honesty and openness we can invite others to do the same. Your blog Greg reminded me of how precious every moment is and that we can express how we truly feel without holding back to honour the preciousness of ourselves, each other and life.
It only takes the willingness of one to open and begin such conversations for another to feel the quality and pull to respond, with a deep tenderness.
We really begin to see the extent and depth of the intelligence of love when we begin to develop a loving relationship with ourselves first, as the awareness of what then not longer fits or feels right/true or sits well become more and more evident. As such we respond with greater truth reflecting the quality of love we all deserve to live which is how we re-establish and reset truly loving standards in our relationships and the world we live in.
I love this Greg, what a beautiful letter sent and received. The love felt is palpable.
Writing a letter is such a touching gesture in this day and age, replete with emails, WhatsApp and social media. This exchange between father and son is very real, super honest and leaves each where they are but with much more appreciation of themselves and each other and a beautiful dose of honesty and, may I add, humbleness.
So much goes unsaid in our relationships, especially in relationships with family. You remind me how precious it is to open up and let others know how we truly feel.
Beautiful sharing Greg, it is such a shame that many of us go through life without writing a letter to our dads or expressing to them how we truly feel, and that banter you talk about is just too superficial and then its too late they have passed over none the wiser. This sort of thing may have gone on from generation to generation when all it takes to stop it is a simple heart felt letter like yours.
The more truth lovingly shared the more truth and love can emerge. We do not have to put up with anything but with honest communication we can completely change the course of our lives and bring much healing. Thank you for this great sharing Gregg.
Honest communication is so important in every relationship, starting with self.
I feel as though I have come to greater understandings about my parents since they passed and I try not to waste too much time in regret. I remind myself that everything I clear regarding my parents that energetically they are getting the clearing also where ever they are.
Thank you for sharing these deeply personal yet also universal letters Greg. For me the key to deepening relationships lies in accepting and appreciating the foundational relationship we build with ourselves and the appreciation of others that flows from this.