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Education, Family, Relationships, Social Issues 813 Comments on The Education I didn’t get at Boarding School

The Education I didn’t get at Boarding School

By Carmel Reid · On May 8, 2017 ·Photography by Joseph Barker

When we send our children away to boarding school believing they will get a better education, what are we setting them up for? Can an education away from the parental home be truly supportive in developing us as fully rounded human beings?  School is not the only part of our education – our living environment makes a difference too.

So, how was life at boarding school? I can remember the good bits and tend to forget the bad bits, but I do recall that I was terrified of the nun who looked after us, and even more terrified of the Mother Superior. I survived by being a ‘good girl,’ always looking for acknowledgement from the teachers and nuns that I was ‘OK.’

I was born overseas in Baghdad, Iraq, and when I was 6 years old, a few months before my 7th birthday, my parents sent me to a Catholic boarding school run by nuns in the UK. There were three of us, so I was not completely alone as I had my two sisters there, but when my own daughter was seven and we were enjoying lots of hugs together, it made me wonder what had I missed by spending so many of my younger years away from my parents.

Baghdad is 3,000 miles from London and in the 1950s that meant three plane hops, so we only travelled back home for the summer holidays. I only saw my parents for 8 weeks in each year until I was 12, when they returned to England to live. After that I lived at home and attended the same school as a day student until I left at 18.

I don’t think we were ever a particularly close family but there was a great ex-pat social life in Baghdad and my parents would attend loads of parties. During the day we spent most of our time at a club that had lawns, an outdoor restaurant, a climbing frame and three swimming pools. We had some fun times, but my mother was always chatting to her friends and we played with ours. Dad was at work.

Once we were all together in our house in England, we were still distant.

As a family we would eat together but I don’t remember them as particularly momentous occasions — the radio was usually on, and then we kids would wash up together then go outside and play with our neighbourhood friends. There were times when my parents would argue and my mother was always convinced she was right. My father would give up and go outside to smoke his pipe. I used to argue with my middle sister with whom I shared a room, so our life together was not particularly harmonious.

Moreover, my parents were not really huggy people, whereas I love hugs. When I first went to the boarding school I do remember the Italian maids, who were always up for a hug and, as I was one of the youngest and probably cute at that age, I had loads of attention from them. Despite that, and because of the lack of physical affection in my own family, I grew up feeling like an alien, distant from all humanity. I felt unlovable and instead of being open and friendly with everyone, I created a hard shell of mistrust and a spikiness that stopped anyone from feeling my true vulnerability, including me.

The combination of the separation from my parents, boarding school and the Catholic upbringing, left me with a few emotional scars, such as feeling unworthy, constantly guilty that I might be doing something wrong, needing to be good and wanting to do everything right.

At school we were encouraged to compare and compete, with everyone being streamed into class groups according to academic ability. In the senior school, we were also split up into four houses that competed in sports and we’d get house-points for good behaviour, so comparison and competition was encouraged in all aspects of my schooling.

The attitude of competition stayed with me as an adult: in sport playing squash, and with friends, comparing what jobs we were doing and how much we were earning. At work I would measure myself against more experienced colleagues and put myself down for not performing as well as them. Both comparison and competition leave me feeling very tired, so it is something I have recently been learning to observe and let go of.

Thanks to the many presentations of Serge Benhayon and healing sessions with Esoteric Practitioners trained by Universal Medicine, I am also learning to let go of the hard shell of protection that I developed in my body and to let people in. I am getting lots of hugs from fellow students, which is lovely, but I still find myself being distant at times, and I find it hard to express my love in words. If someone expresses their love and appreciation of me, I often find it hard to accept, not really believing it to be true.

I now know that it is important to appreciate who I truly am, to feel how tender I can be, moving gently, being calmer inside, connecting deeply with people, making good eye contact and speaking from my heart instead of my head. These days I don’t need so many acknowledgements from anyone outside of myself. I don’t need to try to be good or right because I can enjoy simply being me.

When families do not freely express their love for one another, it does not provide a great foundation for us in the future. My experience was compounded by being separated from everything I knew and sent to a Catholic boarding school. It gave me a good education, but I have realised that what value is mental intelligence and achievement when it stops us from truly loving ourselves and our fellow human beings, and from living in harmony with each other?

It is 60 years since that first day at boarding school and the scars are only now truly beginning to heal. It is not ‘time’ that has healed me, but deliberate healing through self-care, learning to nourish and nurture myself and to appreciate that I am so much more than my education.

What I bring is more than my brain’s intelligence and what I know; I bring a warmth, love, tenderness, and caring for all humanity that was never taught at school, or even in the Catholic Church.

Schools and religions often tend to pick up on our faults and try to make us ‘better’, so we grow up thinking we are not enough and ‘need to try harder’. Instead of that approach, I am now learning to appreciate the amazing woman I truly am and, as I let go of the hardness, I am appreciating the absolute fragility and delicateness that is my natural and true way of being.

It has been a long journey that has highlighted to me the importance of loving all our children in full right from the start, spending time with them, expressing our love and appreciation to them, and encouraging them to be loving and open without fear so that no matter where they are, they can enjoy being beautiful, tender, expressive beings.

If that loving service can be offered in every family, every school, every boarding school, and in every religion, then perhaps we as a humanity can be secure in the knowledge that our children will be fully ‘educated’.

 Published with permission of my family.

By Carmel Reid, Ocean Shores, Australia

Further Reading:
The true foundations of education – our future
Education, Schools & Teaching Our Kids: ‘Quality of Presence’ in the Classroom
The True Purpose of Education – One Size Fits All or Evolution?

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Carmel Reid

Born in Baghdad, Iraq , with both my parents being English, I was educated in England at a Catholic Boarding school in Surrey and my further education included a degree in Electronic Engineering from Sheffield University. After a few years, and being a parent myself, my career moved into personal development coaching and counselling, which I love. Now living in Australia, I am exploring life in a warmer climate once again, and loving the familiarity of blue sky and palm trees, with the sandy beaches and blue sea as a bonus.

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813 Comments

  • Alexis Stewart says: May 27, 2020 at 11:16 am

    “It is not ‘time’ that has healed me, but deliberate healing through self-care, learning to nourish and nurture myself and to appreciate that I am so much more than my education”. Time itself can’t heal us because time marks the same spot over and over again. As we stand on the same spot we can heal or we can not heal but it’s not the concept of time that does the healing for us. We can be all that we are as we stand on the same spot or we can be all that we’re not on exactly the same spot and who we are is dependant on our alignment.

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  • Alexis Stewart says: May 27, 2020 at 11:09 am

    ‘What value is mental intelligence and achievement when it stops us from truly loving ourselves and our fellow human beings, and from living in harmony with each other?” Uhm how about nada, zilch, zero, nothing?

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  • Alexis Stewart says: May 27, 2020 at 11:05 am

    “The combination of the separation from my parents, boarding school and the Catholic upbringing, left me with a few emotional scars, such as feeling unworthy, constantly guilty that I might be doing something wrong, needing to be good and wanting to do everything right”, that’s one helluva load to bear BUT we all lug similar loads around with us constantly, we just have different flavours of loads. These flavours dictate our alignment to a particular form of energy, which in turn ensures that we stay ensnared to the same energetic source. Our loads lighten and then eventually disappear altogether once we switch our alignment and the way that we switch our alignment is by changing the way that we move, ‘move’ meaning the way that we ‘think/speak/move/feel’.

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  • Alexis Stewart says: May 27, 2020 at 10:54 am

    “Can an education away from the parental home be truly supportive in developing us as fully rounded human beings?” Carmel your question has raised another question in me and that is “if we stay at home are we able to be supported in developing as fully rounded human beings if in truth our parents are able and willing to send us away?

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  • Mary Adler says: February 4, 2020 at 3:38 pm

    “what value is mental intelligence and achievement when it stops us from truly loving ourselves and our fellow human beings, and from living in harmony with each other?” Formal teaching has lost the true meaning of ‘education’. Learning to understand the world from how it feels and to discern truth is rarely on the ‘education’ curriculum.

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  • Mary says: January 30, 2020 at 5:32 pm

    I find it fascinating that we all have different stories to tell of our childhood but there is a common thread that runs through them which unites us. And this is we were not met as children and our parents were not met and so it goes on this perpetual deep angst of not being seen for the delicate and sensitive beings we all are. And so we grow up hard as nails with abusive behaviours towards ourselves and others to sully another generation. Finally there is a different choice to be had one where we can reconnect back to our delicate sensitivity and find that it is actually so worth reconnecting back to as it is absolutely fascinating what can be felt so much so that you naturally want to explore more, what more can be sensed and felt which opens up a Pandora’s box of endless possibilities. Sensitivity is not being a sissy or weak it’s the complete opposite it’s to be strong and all-knowing to me it’s the new black.

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  • Melinda Knights says: January 1, 2020 at 5:27 pm

    “I have realised that what value is mental intelligence and achievement when it stops us from truly loving ourselves and our fellow human beings, and from living in harmony with each other?” I couldn’t agree more Carmel, you have made an incredible point here. Love should be the main subject in school, alongside self care, and promoting harmony and equality, not competition and comparison.

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  • Greg Barnes says: July 13, 2019 at 6:04 am

    Acknowledging we are more than human is what appreciation is all about as you have shared Carmel, and adding to what you have shared with deep-humble-appreciative-ness that to appreciate ones essence with True authority with the ensuing conformation deepens our purpose in life.

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  • Michelle McWaters says: June 15, 2019 at 8:49 pm

    ‘School is not the only part of our education – our living environment makes a difference too.’ We certainly under value the education we receive outside of school lessons, but if we were honest we would realise that this can often impact us far more. In fact this is far more real, and if honoured can counter the hurts we receive in our system. It can feel within the system that academia is all that counts, but this is incredibly far from the truth.

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  • LE says: March 30, 2019 at 9:20 am

    Anyone would think our education system as it is is set up to keep people controlled, dulled and incapable of knowing who they truly are?

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  • LE says: March 16, 2019 at 7:51 am

    A boarding school has the potential to really nourish and support the children, if the children are brought up to know true community and to know all others as family there this can then be a good foundation from which they can grow.

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  • Lorraine says: February 2, 2019 at 5:31 am

    It is lovely to now feel the warmth, love, and tenderness in you, and likewise in other people, ‘I now know that it is important to appreciate who I truly am, to feel how tender I can be, moving gently, being calmer inside, connecting deeply with people, making good eye contact and speaking from my heart instead of my head.’

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  • Lorraine Wellman says: February 2, 2019 at 5:22 am

    Great that you clocked the negative impact of comparison and competition on your body, and so knew choosing comparison and competition was not a loving choice, ‘Both comparison and competition leave me feeling very tired, so it is something I have recently been learning to observe and let go of.’

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  • Rebecca says: January 3, 2019 at 5:11 pm

    Carmel, I can very much relate to this; ‘feeling unworthy, constantly guilty that I might be doing something wrong, needing to be good and wanting to do everything right’. This makes me realise that this is not only boarding school that can make us feel like this, but also education in general and life in general.

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  • Golnaz Shariatzadeh says: November 25, 2018 at 7:46 pm

    Roll on the day when we all realize that bringing up children includes teaching them how to love, take care of and value the preciousness they already are, and knowing how to express that with love and honouring of themselves and everyone else equally – and that this is how we relate to children and one another whether at school or at home.

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  • Annelies van Haastrecht says: October 25, 2018 at 11:29 pm

    Schools and religions often tend to pick up on our faults and try to make us ‘better’, so we grow up thinking we are not enough and ‘need to try harder’. And when we get older and start to work the same culture is found in the workplace we can always do better and so it goes on and on until we start to see and feel there is so much more than our achievements, that we are already everything and deserve love from each other without any conditions.

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  • Caroline Reineke says: October 17, 2018 at 4:42 pm

    To be in the proximity of loved ones and feel their love in their movements seem to be two different things. Even when you were around your parents, they were not there so to speak. It makes me realize yet again how important loving presence is with and amongst each other. A look in the eye, a warm hug, all ways to acknowledge that we see, feel and love each other.

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  • Simon Williams says: October 12, 2018 at 3:40 pm

    I start with the question of how can we get a better education by sending our children away… and there is the rub. Define education. Is it learning things out of textbooks, how to fit in, how to perform? That is the current model and with the increasing levels of dis-ease don’t think its working so well. Or is it about knowing ourselves inside and out, and having the confidence and presence to simply express that? Its certainly worth a try

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    • Carmel Reid says: November 22, 2018 at 8:43 pm

      There are aspects of education that are not taught in any school, such as our ancient origins, reincarnation, energy, only a false image of God which bears no resemblance to Truth, all those academic subjects that are tested to the limit and often bear little resemblance to what we need in the workplace. Some schools make an effort to teach team working and leadership but the emphasis is on doing well not the quality of our being.

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    • Alexis Stewart says: May 24, 2020 at 8:44 am

      We currently educate ourselves and our kids without understanding how life truly works and so how can we possibly have true education if we don’t understand the basics about life?

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