Recently I expressed these words in a letter to my three grown children as their mother and friend, after I completed Level 2 Esoteric Healing course with one son and then Level 3 Esoteric Healing Course by myself. It felt like a wonderful opportunity to heal childhood hurts at the source. I now feel to share this letter to express publicly the awesome healing that is possible for all of us if we choose it.
A Letter To My Children …
I feel that I did not reflect lovingly to any of you, my three children, how to BE in your fullness, allowing your soul to connect to you as you lived and did things every day.
I was very good at doing things with you and for you; and also for many other people and or worthy causes as well. My focus on ‘doing things’ that I gave you unfortunately came with an energy that was full of my un-cleared hurts and needs as I tried to be the perfect mum and friend; to be the best person as a Christian, doing my bit to change the world; to make the world a better place.
In recent years I have found and chosen a new way of living. I have done much soul searching and work on myself to remove layers and layers of hurts and issues that had formed me as a person throughout my life. I had chosen to take on board many influences from:
- my own parents
- catholic church doctrines
- society’s attitudes
- cultural influences.
There were also many other attitudes and ideals that I chose to adopt from many other external sources from the time I was a little girl – who then grew to be an adult and a mature woman. Many of these influences were strongly filtered to be considered appropriate for me to believe in and follow in my decisions in how I lived my life.
Now I know that I have had the truth inside me all along.
No one told me that; yet I also chose not to feel that for myself either. It has taken me quite some time to develop my awareness again of how I actually feel about everything and have always been able to feel, but how I have often disregarded what I was feeling in favour of what I was thinking or what others were telling me to think.
I feel to say that by firstly having self-care, self-nurturing, and self-loving rhythms in my day as to what I eat and drink, how I sleep, talk, move, dress etc. has reawakened my awareness of the truths I know within me and always have. This is my way of getting clarity with my living choices from now on. My four beautiful grandchildren reflect this truth to me from their souls.
I am sorry that I did not reflect this way of living to you when you were little and even sooner than just recently. However, I know that I was always seeking what I can feel now.
I want to renounce my past ways of mothering and claim my new ways of being a mum and now a grandmother in my fullness.
It is not about being perfect and then feeling guilty when I slip up. Those days are gone. It is about living gently in stillness and bringing a loving presence to every moment of every day.
Sometimes I can do that and sometimes I fall back into old patterns of rush, anxiety, busy doings, frustration, judgement, comparison, feeling self-worth issues of not being good enough etc. etc. However, when that happens, I now feel it and renounce it. I let it go. I then trust that if I truly self-nurture and lovingly reflect on my daily rhythm of living I will reconnect to my loveliness within, which is my amazing self – my soul. It is an evolving way of living that never feels comfortable for very long as my soul has a constant way of inviting me to step up to another level of awareness. How awesome is that!
In this way of living I am still able to be very busy at what I choose to be involved in. In fact, it is my way of choosing to serve humanity. That is still my focus as I feel it has always been. However, it is now lived so very differently from before.
I feel that my sharing this with you in writing will resonate with you as I have sometimes expressed some of this to you in many conversations as well. It is not meant to impose a way of life on you. It is simply expressing my truth to you as I have always tried to do as your mother and friend, but it is also now to clear any past influences from me on you that were not from my fullness in my innermost or my soul . . . I feel you will feel the difference.
I hope that you can feel the loving support I am offering you now that comes no longer laced with my hurts and issues or layers of attitudes, values and ideals. I hope that you feel this release of my ‘energy’ on you as you make your own choices about your way of living.
You are amazing people. I feel your awareness and loveliness. You mean the world to me. Be gentle with yourselves. Don’t cap your joy. Your loving reflection is awesome.
With love,
Mum/Janice Mooney
Further Reading:
Good Parenting Skills
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Janice, inspiring to read how you have renounced what you feel was not your true way to live within your family and now, with more awareness, are bringing understanding and healing to this area of you life.
“I want to renounce my past ways of mothering and claim my new ways of being a mum and now a grandmother in my fullness. ” What a precious gift this is to you, your children and your grandchildren Janice. Truly inspirational for any woman in her autumn years who may feel that her life is passing her by.
So gorgeous and inspiring what you have written to your children and shared here with us, in claiming all of you you are re -imprinting your relationship with your children, I am in the process of doing just that, with each one of my children, this then offers so much healing all around.
A women coming out of playing the role of mum and back into claiming herself as a woman is very inspiring and brings a richness for everyone.
Oh yes, The Way of The Livingness is awesome, at 64, and in fact at any age. I was 55 when I was first introduced to it and I knew instantly I had finally found the way of living that I had been searching for, for what seemed forever. Now at 68 it is my way of living and it is a way that I know I will continue to walk throughout the remainder of this life and many lives to come.
There are many, many miracles that occur during the Sacred Esoteric Healing courses that changes people and their lives forever… the workshops cannot ever be underestimated… it a blessing to receive them.
You highlight so beautifully how we really are freest when we live in connection to our Soul and living in this way is what truly reflects who we are, through which others can be inspired by.
This is a most beautiful and true love letter, a letter that was written from the inner-heart and containing not one ounce of emotion. It is a letter when received would not have presented any feelings of imposition but the offering of the truth of how life is for you now and the joy that living in this way brings you. It’s a letter that I would love to receive.
Being “gentle with your-self” is the starting point for us all on our return to being connected to our inner-most.
What an amazing person you are and committing back to Janice. It is never too late… What I have experienced is just how clever I am in choosing just how aware I want to be. I’m honestly scared 😳 to see the extent of the mess we are in, what I have been irresponsibly a part of and how much there is to do. I know when I choose that awareness I receive the full package. This is what I hide from – what it is I’m capable of doing.
Its just so beautiful that you have taken responsibility for your living and the ill consequences that it has produced in the past and now you are setting a true livingness that supports not only you and your family but all of mankind – thank you.
To have such absolute acceptance for one self to be able to renounce an old way and innate a new one is deeply inspiring, and very humbling.
Having the simple foundations of “self-care, self-nurturing, and self-loving rhythms in my day as to what I eat and drink, how I sleep, talk, move, dress” in your day makes a huge difference to our lives. When we don’t let the little things slip in our lives we are able to do grand things but if we don’t hold strong to our foundation it is hard to be in life and be steady.
” I now feel to share this letter to express publicly the awesome healing that is possible for all of us if we choose it. ”
This is very important for people to know and its available to everyone. Total healing is possible and available to everyone if the choice to heal is made. True healing has no conditions just the free will choice to choose healing.
“I have often disregarded what I was feeling in favour of what I was thinking” With the blossoming awareness of all we are feeling we can let go of any regrets and choose to be all that we are.
What a day it will be when such Love is the foundational way in all families right around the world. How could war struggle or torment with another even be a consideration when such love is the basis of how we raise our children?
It is so powerful to acknowledge the things we wish we had done differently without wallowing in guilt and then further imposing on our children. This letter is such a gift not just to your children but also to all who have the privilege of reading it.
Absolutely Helen. We can really ‘milk’ the whole guilt thing and make a wonderful story and drama about it if we so choose, but where does it get us? In truth nowhere, and it just ends up being loaded onto those around us. So what Janice is showing us here is empowering for all involved because of its openness and honesty, and leaves everyone free to move on without carrying the hurts of the past with them.
It is never too late to correct and reimprint our relationships with not only our loved ones, but anyone for that matter.
Incredible how a simple letter can bring so much healing to a relationship. Shows that it is all there in all relationships. All the potential and beauty of what is possible together, and it is all accessible through expression. Protection is definitely the opposite of this.
‘It is an evolving way of living that never feels comfortable for very long as my soul has a constant way of inviting me to step up to another level of awareness. How awesome is that!’ I feel your joy about this way of living, a constant movement towards becoming more of who you are, light and love embodied.
Yes Annelies, there is no time for sitting still when committing to living a life that supports us to return to who we are.