Recently I expressed these words in a letter to my three grown children as their mother and friend, after I completed Level 2 Esoteric Healing course with one son and then Level 3 Esoteric Healing Course by myself. It felt like a wonderful opportunity to heal childhood hurts at the source. I now feel to share this letter to express publicly the awesome healing that is possible for all of us if we choose it.
A Letter To My Children …
I feel that I did not reflect lovingly to any of you, my three children, how to BE in your fullness, allowing your soul to connect to you as you lived and did things every day.
I was very good at doing things with you and for you; and also for many other people and or worthy causes as well. My focus on ‘doing things’ that I gave you unfortunately came with an energy that was full of my un-cleared hurts and needs as I tried to be the perfect mum and friend; to be the best person as a Christian, doing my bit to change the world; to make the world a better place.
In recent years I have found and chosen a new way of living. I have done much soul searching and work on myself to remove layers and layers of hurts and issues that had formed me as a person throughout my life. I had chosen to take on board many influences from:
- my own parents
- catholic church doctrines
- society’s attitudes
- cultural influences.
There were also many other attitudes and ideals that I chose to adopt from many other external sources from the time I was a little girl – who then grew to be an adult and a mature woman. Many of these influences were strongly filtered to be considered appropriate for me to believe in and follow in my decisions in how I lived my life.
Now I know that I have had the truth inside me all along.
No one told me that; yet I also chose not to feel that for myself either. It has taken me quite some time to develop my awareness again of how I actually feel about everything and have always been able to feel, but how I have often disregarded what I was feeling in favour of what I was thinking or what others were telling me to think.
I feel to say that by firstly having self-care, self-nurturing, and self-loving rhythms in my day as to what I eat and drink, how I sleep, talk, move, dress etc. has reawakened my awareness of the truths I know within me and always have. This is my way of getting clarity with my living choices from now on. My four beautiful grandchildren reflect this truth to me from their souls.
I am sorry that I did not reflect this way of living to you when you were little and even sooner than just recently. However, I know that I was always seeking what I can feel now.
I want to renounce my past ways of mothering and claim my new ways of being a mum and now a grandmother in my fullness.
It is not about being perfect and then feeling guilty when I slip up. Those days are gone. It is about living gently in stillness and bringing a loving presence to every moment of every day.
Sometimes I can do that and sometimes I fall back into old patterns of rush, anxiety, busy doings, frustration, judgement, comparison, feeling self-worth issues of not being good enough etc. etc. However, when that happens, I now feel it and renounce it. I let it go. I then trust that if I truly self-nurture and lovingly reflect on my daily rhythm of living I will reconnect to my loveliness within, which is my amazing self – my soul. It is an evolving way of living that never feels comfortable for very long as my soul has a constant way of inviting me to step up to another level of awareness. How awesome is that!
In this way of living I am still able to be very busy at what I choose to be involved in. In fact, it is my way of choosing to serve humanity. That is still my focus as I feel it has always been. However, it is now lived so very differently from before.
I feel that my sharing this with you in writing will resonate with you as I have sometimes expressed some of this to you in many conversations as well. It is not meant to impose a way of life on you. It is simply expressing my truth to you as I have always tried to do as your mother and friend, but it is also now to clear any past influences from me on you that were not from my fullness in my innermost or my soul . . . I feel you will feel the difference.
I hope that you can feel the loving support I am offering you now that comes no longer laced with my hurts and issues or layers of attitudes, values and ideals. I hope that you feel this release of my ‘energy’ on you as you make your own choices about your way of living.
You are amazing people. I feel your awareness and loveliness. You mean the world to me. Be gentle with yourselves. Don’t cap your joy. Your loving reflection is awesome.
With love,
Mum/Janice Mooney
Further Reading:
Good Parenting Skills
Carrot Soup for Two – a Breakfast Date with my 7 year old
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There is so much freedom in cutting the tendrils of ‘being a mother’ and being the beautiful being you are.
Expressing in such transparency and openness allows the healing to occur and sets new standards with our loved ones and everyone
To me this is one of our many hurdles to over come
‘My focus on ‘doing things’ that I gave you unfortunately came with an energy that was full of my un-cleared hurts and needs as I tried to be the perfect mum and friend; to be the best person as a Christian, doing my bit to change the world; to make the world a better place.’
We ‘do’ things all the time because we feel it is the Christian thing to ‘do’ but there’s the lie, we cannot change the world unless we first change ourselves to do this we need to bring more understanding to ourselves and treat ourselves with care which grows by increments into love when we start to love ourselves then that same love spills out so that others can feel it and choose differently if they want to.
The greatest Love we can bring to anyone is the nonimposing type, the one that also lets others know where our boundaries are and how much we appreciate all they are in essence.
Doing good, looking the goods, being good as one does when we are deceived by those external influences as you have shared Janice, do not hold a candle to living the Truth as a Livingness. So we are re-parenting, re-religionising, and thus re-learning how to live Love in a society with cultural diversification as a True reflection from our essences. Then as ourselves, from a “fullness”, “innermost”, “soul” or essence we live a way that feels “awesome” every day.
This is a great celebration Janice, to feel the truth and power of the Way of the Livingness, for great it is when it is lived.
Loving how much we can learn from all we are, that’s the way forward.
We are here to be love and to share this love with all, ‘It is about living gently in stillness and bringing a loving presence to every moment of every day.’
Whatever our age in years it is never too late to appreciate all that is offered by the Ageless Wisdom.
This is Ageless Wisdom, thank you Mary, and may I add, appreciate that lived level of Livingness until our last breath.
Yes, we innately know what is true, ‘I feel to say that by firstly having self-care, self-nurturing, and self-loving rhythms in my day as to what I eat and drink, how I sleep, talk, move, dress etc. has reawakened my awareness of the truths I know within me and always have.’
We always have the possibility to re-imprint our relationships and what you offer in this loving letter to your children is the opportunity to go deeper unimpeded by past hurts. Truly a gift for all, thank you Janice.
Yes, it is always great to renounce our old ways of living, and bring in a way that is truly loving and evolving for us to return back to who we truly are, ‘I want to renounce my past ways of mothering and claim my new ways of being a mum and now a grandmother in my fullness.’
This is such a beautifully healing letter for your children, one that I am sure will be treasured by them, as I am sure you are also treasured. Our children often look at us as just their mother overlooking the fact that we are a woman first and had a life of many phases before they came into the world. When I began to see my mother for the woman she was, so many questions that were never answered, suddenly were.
A beautiful healing for Janice, and her children.
How much freer we are as mothers without our hurts and expectations getting in the way.
Yes free to be true to ourselves and allow others that freedom as well.
I wonder how many mothers in their sixties have communicated similarly to their children? Not many I suspect. What a beautiful way to accept responsibility for your previous life choices and appreciate the impact they had on your growing children. With no judgement or criticism, this leaves space for ever deepening and now truly loving relationships for you all.
“I want to renounce my past ways of mothering and claim my new ways of being a mum and now a grandmother in my fullness. ” What a precious gift this is to you, your children and your grandchildren Janice. Truly inspirational for any woman in her autumn years who may feel that her life is passing her by.
So gorgeous and inspiring what you have written to your children and shared here with us, in claiming all of you you are re -imprinting your relationship with your children, I am in the process of doing just that, with each one of my children, this then offers so much healing all around.
A women coming out of playing the role of mum and back into claiming herself as a woman is very inspiring and brings a richness for everyone.
Oh yes, The Way of The Livingness is awesome, at 64, and in fact at any age. I was 55 when I was first introduced to it and I knew instantly I had finally found the way of living that I had been searching for, for what seemed forever. Now at 68 it is my way of living and it is a way that I know I will continue to walk throughout the remainder of this life and many lives to come.
There are many, many miracles that occur during the Sacred Esoteric Healing courses that changes people and their lives forever… the workshops cannot ever be underestimated… it a blessing to receive them.