Recently I expressed these words in a letter to my three grown children as their mother and friend, after I completed Level 2 Esoteric Healing course with one son and then Level 3 Esoteric Healing Course by myself. It felt like a wonderful opportunity to heal childhood hurts at the source. I now feel to share this letter to express publicly the awesome healing that is possible for all of us if we choose it.
A Letter To My Children …
I feel that I did not reflect lovingly to any of you, my three children, how to BE in your fullness, allowing your soul to connect to you as you lived and did things every day.
I was very good at doing things with you and for you; and also for many other people and or worthy causes as well. My focus on ‘doing things’ that I gave you unfortunately came with an energy that was full of my un-cleared hurts and needs as I tried to be the perfect mum and friend; to be the best person as a Christian, doing my bit to change the world; to make the world a better place.
In recent years I have found and chosen a new way of living. I have done much soul searching and work on myself to remove layers and layers of hurts and issues that had formed me as a person throughout my life. I had chosen to take on board many influences from:
- my own parents
- catholic church doctrines
- society’s attitudes
- cultural influences.
There were also many other attitudes and ideals that I chose to adopt from many other external sources from the time I was a little girl – who then grew to be an adult and a mature woman. Many of these influences were strongly filtered to be considered appropriate for me to believe in and follow in my decisions in how I lived my life.
Now I know that I have had the truth inside me all along.
No one told me that; yet I also chose not to feel that for myself either. It has taken me quite some time to develop my awareness again of how I actually feel about everything and have always been able to feel, but how I have often disregarded what I was feeling in favour of what I was thinking or what others were telling me to think.
I feel to say that by firstly having self-care, self-nurturing, and self-loving rhythms in my day as to what I eat and drink, how I sleep, talk, move, dress etc. has reawakened my awareness of the truths I know within me and always have. This is my way of getting clarity with my living choices from now on. My four beautiful grandchildren reflect this truth to me from their souls.
I am sorry that I did not reflect this way of living to you when you were little and even sooner than just recently. However, I know that I was always seeking what I can feel now.
I want to renounce my past ways of mothering and claim my new ways of being a mum and now a grandmother in my fullness.
It is not about being perfect and then feeling guilty when I slip up. Those days are gone. It is about living gently in stillness and bringing a loving presence to every moment of every day.
Sometimes I can do that and sometimes I fall back into old patterns of rush, anxiety, busy doings, frustration, judgement, comparison, feeling self-worth issues of not being good enough etc. etc. However, when that happens, I now feel it and renounce it. I let it go. I then trust that if I truly self-nurture and lovingly reflect on my daily rhythm of living I will reconnect to my loveliness within, which is my amazing self – my soul. It is an evolving way of living that never feels comfortable for very long as my soul has a constant way of inviting me to step up to another level of awareness. How awesome is that!
In this way of living I am still able to be very busy at what I choose to be involved in. In fact, it is my way of choosing to serve humanity. That is still my focus as I feel it has always been. However, it is now lived so very differently from before.
I feel that my sharing this with you in writing will resonate with you as I have sometimes expressed some of this to you in many conversations as well. It is not meant to impose a way of life on you. It is simply expressing my truth to you as I have always tried to do as your mother and friend, but it is also now to clear any past influences from me on you that were not from my fullness in my innermost or my soul . . . I feel you will feel the difference.
I hope that you can feel the loving support I am offering you now that comes no longer laced with my hurts and issues or layers of attitudes, values and ideals. I hope that you feel this release of my ‘energy’ on you as you make your own choices about your way of living.
You are amazing people. I feel your awareness and loveliness. You mean the world to me. Be gentle with yourselves. Don’t cap your joy. Your loving reflection is awesome.
With love,
Mum/Janice Mooney
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482 Comments
You highlight so beautifully how we really are freest when we live in connection to our Soul and living in this way is what truly reflects who we are, through which others can be inspired by.
This is a most beautiful and true love letter, a letter that was written from the inner-heart and containing not one ounce of emotion. It is a letter when received would not have presented any feelings of imposition but the offering of the truth of how life is for you now and the joy that living in this way brings you. It’s a letter that I would love to receive.
Being “gentle with your-self” is the starting point for us all on our return to being connected to our inner-most.
What an amazing person you are and committing back to Janice. It is never too late… What I have experienced is just how clever I am in choosing just how aware I want to be. I’m honestly scared ? to see the extent of the mess we are in, what I have been irresponsibly a part of and how much there is to do. I know when I choose that awareness I receive the full package. This is what I hide from – what it is I’m capable of doing.
Its just so beautiful that you have taken responsibility for your living and the ill consequences that it has produced in the past and now you are setting a true livingness that supports not only you and your family but all of mankind – thank you.
To have such absolute acceptance for one self to be able to renounce an old way and innate a new one is deeply inspiring, and very humbling.
Having the simple foundations of “self-care, self-nurturing, and self-loving rhythms in my day as to what I eat and drink, how I sleep, talk, move, dress” in your day makes a huge difference to our lives. When we don’t let the little things slip in our lives we are able to do grand things but if we don’t hold strong to our foundation it is hard to be in life and be steady.
” I now feel to share this letter to express publicly the awesome healing that is possible for all of us if we choose it. ”
This is very important for people to know and its available to everyone. Total healing is possible and available to everyone if the choice to heal is made. True healing has no conditions just the free will choice to choose healing.
“I have often disregarded what I was feeling in favour of what I was thinking” With the blossoming awareness of all we are feeling we can let go of any regrets and choose to be all that we are.
What a day it will be when such Love is the foundational way in all families right around the world. How could war struggle or torment with another even be a consideration when such love is the basis of how we raise our children?
It is so powerful to acknowledge the things we wish we had done differently without wallowing in guilt and then further imposing on our children. This letter is such a gift not just to your children but also to all who have the privilege of reading it.
Absolutely Helen. We can really ‘milk’ the whole guilt thing and make a wonderful story and drama about it if we so choose, but where does it get us? In truth nowhere, and it just ends up being loaded onto those around us. So what Janice is showing us here is empowering for all involved because of its openness and honesty, and leaves everyone free to move on without carrying the hurts of the past with them.
It is never too late to correct and reimprint our relationships with not only our loved ones, but anyone for that matter.
Incredible how a simple letter can bring so much healing to a relationship. Shows that it is all there in all relationships. All the potential and beauty of what is possible together, and it is all accessible through expression. Protection is definitely the opposite of this.
‘It is an evolving way of living that never feels comfortable for very long as my soul has a constant way of inviting me to step up to another level of awareness. How awesome is that!’ I feel your joy about this way of living, a constant movement towards becoming more of who you are, light and love embodied.
Yes Annelies, there is no time for sitting still when committing to living a life that supports us to return to who we are.
Why would we sit still when we can leave our great mark of truth in everything we do and move by?
Janice, this is a really inspiring article, it is very beautiful that you have been so open and honest with your children, what a blessing for them.
Thank you Janice, for highlighting just how powerful, healing and liberating it is for all when we renounce a way of being that does not reflect the love we are, as we free ourselves to instead make space for the light of our Soul to magnify our true way of being.
The wonderful thing that is being expressed here ( well one of them ) is that its never too late !!! we can re-imprint up until the day we die.
Your description of your way of living breaks down the belief that when we get ‘somewhere’, ie evolve, we can put our feet up and rest or retire.. “It is an evolving way of living that never feels comfortable for very long as my soul has a constant way of inviting me to step up to another level of awareness.” It has taken a while for me to get used to this continual pattern of stepping up, but these days it no longer seems too hard but instead a welcome opportunity to grow and expand as a person; to understand me just a little bit, or sometimes a lot, more.
This blog shows that we cannot truly blame our parents for anything for they in turn have been reduced by the world and its ideals and beliefs and their own upbringing which disconnects them from trusting their own inner knowing.
Thankyou for sharing your amazing letter to your children. Being open and honest and not trying to be – or show- perfection – has a way of inviting intimacy into our lives.
It is a big step for a parent to write a letter like this, claiming their imperfections and being very honest about how they feel. But this is what will bring equality between parents and kids and a deeper connection between them.
What an inspiring letter Janice. For you to be humble enough to express all the times you did not feel you were bring the true you to your children. And then your journey in now being able to feel and renounce what is not you. This is so loving – we can get caught in the trap of doing everything for our kids as being loving, but this letter knocks all that out the park – This presents absolute love.
This gives us the chance here to accept our faults and differences as learning steps along the path which will never be perfect and will at times be challenging or even quite tough. But the essence of you remains through all of the hardship as the love that you are will find a way to be expressed.
Janice this is so beautiful to express all that you are to your children and grandchildren. I was deeply moved by the love and total openness of you as a woman and mother. This is true love, where there are no conditions imposed on your children, which we can do so well as parents without even realising what we are doing. To simply reflect our loving ways of living and loving them for who they are, inspires and supports our children to also be who they are without all the impositions our daily lives can impose on us. When we live from our Soul, in a very practical daily life, in every area of our lives, it changes everything and brings true connections with our families and beyond.
Being free of pictures allows us to reflect truth and love to another, and that is the greatest gift we can offer humanity.
Thank you Janice, your letter reflects the imposition I have felt I had on others before the opportunity to heal my hurts through Universal Medicine. Without the hurts getting in the way there is a realisation of all the love there was to express, that perhaps was not before but now can be.
What a powerhouse of a mum and grandmother you’ve become. And how beautifully expressed to your kids. It’s more than just words or understanding they will receive in reading this, but a healing – all who read it will.
When we realize that playing the ‘role’ of what we think is expected of us keeps us away from the truth of who we are this offers the opportunity to be free of ideals and beliefs and feel the love of who we naturally are.
This is a lovely sharing Janice, to share your letter for your children that comes with such love that is equally shared with us too is very beautiful.
I’m sure this was a very powerful letter to receive.
I feel that no one can be blamed for trying to be the perfect mum or friend. I am sure that I have done this in reaction to all that is not perfect or loving that I can see and maybe it is as simple as not wanting to contribute to the loveliness that exists between people, but somewhere along the line what love is can be re-interpreted and it becomes what we can do for each other, when really it is just about being who we are.
I love the title of your blog Janice. I can feel how open and enthusiastic you are about life at the young age of 64.
The feelings of guilt can cripple us a parents. If I get stuck in regret, it keeps me in a sad place where there is no way out. Its funny that by letting go of the harsh self judgement, I am free to talk about my past mistakes, knowing that I am no longer making the same choices.
Janice – it is beautiful to bring all of you and share it with your children in such honesty. I have always believed that my responsibility is to live in love, honesty and always with an open heart; expanding with every breath I take. This is a gift we can give to our children. Thank you.
Dear Janice, thank you for your letter, you have expressed for all moms and all parents, for all children and grandchildren. This blessing is for the whole world. It is never too late to express truth, as every word of truth said, is a point of reflection for every person in the the world.
To be able to pen this letter with such clarity of who is you are what you stand for has been humbling to read Janice Mooney. There are still so many beliefs and ideas of how we should be for our siblings, friends, children and partners that hides the quality of life we all choose to live. They often say that words heal great wounds and obviously you have chosen to let go of many hurts that stopped you from living the truth and vitality you feel in your life now. A wonderful confirmation for all to read. Thank you!
To not be hard on myself when I slipped up, I too thought those days were going until very recently when I fell into the emotion of feeling guilty. But on reflection, what a gift it was; an opportunity to deepen the love I have for myself.
What an inspiration Janice, this sharing is. As we grow through The Way of The Livingness, as presented by Serge Benhayon we can see where we have been and appreciate where we are now, and to me this is a beautiful opportunity to share those changes with our families too. I love the changes that have come into my life and the freeing up and flow they allow through these teachings and the Livingness of the same.
What a choice to simply live with the love and self care that allows the glory to shine, as a reflection to all we all feel the connection to our Soul.
What a gift to your children Janice. Setting them free to be who they truly are, so loving.