Something happened recently that triggered an age-old feeling in me of “I don’t belong here; this is not my home.” It was a tiny little thing, but the feeling that came up in me was huge! I started to wallow in it, but then stopped and thought: “Well, clearly this is not only about what just happened . . . so, what is going on here?”
And I started to look at where this feeling came from and what it meant.
Firstly, it was triggered by a desire in me for something sweet that actually could not be satisfied, because somebody else had eaten my stash! And I have come to learn that, when this desire arises, it’s because I am already feeling a sadness that I don’t want to feel.
I feel this sadness (and then the desire to sweeten it) any time I do not get my own way. When I don’t get what I want, I feel like I am missing out, I feel that I am not part of something, I feel different, isolated, not understood, not heard … any time, in short, when I make it all about me.
If I make it all about me, sooner or later I have to feel different, isolated, alone; because we are all different at the level where we are individuals.
And this is how most of us have lived, for a very, very long time, perhaps for longer than we care to remember. But I have some friends who live in a different way, and I am re-learning to live this way too.
What I am learning is that I can live in the misery and suffering of my self-centred creation when I choose to do it my way, get what I want, go it alone…
I can live in the joy and harmony of feeling and knowing that I am but one person among billions, all of whom matter just as much as me, and not only that, but that we are each part of a vast Universe of beings, all connected with each other and all part of a vast oneness.
Now this is quite a big jump, so are there steps we can take along the way?
For me, it starts with my body. Now this is something I have tried to ignore for quite a long time. I have indulged it, pushed it, used it, driven it, but listening to it and honouring it… that is a whole new thing for me.
When I listen to and honour my body and live in a simple loving way that deeply cares for it (and for me), I start to feel some things…
There is a physical reality to this human body, and to life on earth. I am made of flesh and blood, which is made of molecules, atoms, and subatomic particles that have been here since before the beginning of time. They have made up countless bodies before mine… and will make up many more to come. They are not mine to own, for they belong to the Universe, but it is my responsibility to care for them while I live in this body. The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars… I share them with the whole Universe.
If I really stop and feel this, I realise that I do belong here: in fact, I belong everywhere!
We are an inseparable part of the Universe, and we live in a great illusion that we are separate, because we have tried to separate ourselves from it. But we are still in it! The separation only exists in our minds. Our arrogant pride refuses to see the blindingly obvious and refuses to feel the un-numb-able fact that we are part of a stupendous whole, and that we live in a body of love that one day we will all come to know as God.
And the way back to this knowing is the stuff of which we are made, the particles that make up our being, the sparks of God’s flame that we call ‘us.’
When I live this way, in the knowing of this truth, life is joyful and full, and if the old feelings of sadness arise, they can serve as a signpost that I am choosing to live in the old way again, the way of desire, of self, of separation, of individuality… of me.
And I can choose to wallow in the misery of this again, or I can make a choice to come back to who I truly am, a great and equal part of the one glorious whole… a fellow human being, equal with everyone else, who lives in love, in truth, in brotherhood, knowing that none of us can do this alone, that we are all in this together, and that this is the way life is divinely designed to be.
I am forever inspired by Serge Benhayon, his family and friends, Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness.
By Anne Malatt – wife, mother, grandmother, eye surgeon, Australia
Developing a Relationship – with my Essence
Living From My Inner Knowing
Living medicine starts with the body
“The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars” Thank you Anne for very inspiring words reminding us that we are all an integral part of a magnificent All.
I’m learning that not only as you say Anne
“We are an inseparable part of the Universe, and we live in a great illusion that we are separate, because we have tried to separate ourselves from it. But we are still in it! The separation only exists in our minds. Our arrogant pride refuses to see the blindingly obvious and refuses to feel the un-numb-able fact that we are part of a stupendous whole, and that we live in a body of love that one day we will all come to know as God.”
That this body of love we call God or the Universe is actually an intelligence which far exceeds anything we could ever possible know. To me thinking that we think that they are our thoughts is the biggest lie we have fallen for. This lie has us all completely controlled to stop us from actually connecting to the intelligence we come from.
Stopping and allowing ourselves to feel what is underneath the misery, hurt, sadness, anger instead of reaching for food or social media or telly or anything other than to feel what we can feel! Very cool you did that … and then wrote a blog about it!
Thank you Anne, as we are all re-kindeling our inner-most spark or essence and as this is happening to us all we feel the natural-ness so is it any wonder we feel at home when we return to our most divine quality or essences.
God is inside us and until we stop looking outside of us there will always be a deep un rest.
We always have a choice, one is to see yourself as individual and the other is to see how interconnected we all are and that everything we do has an impact on another. One asks for no responsibility and the other embraces responsibility.
We do belong here, and everywhere as you say in this blog Anne, ‘ I am made of flesh and blood, which is made of molecules, atoms, and subatomic particles that have been here since before the beginning of time. They have made up countless bodies before mine… and will make up many more to come.’
When we start to listen to our body, deeply listen, we find a different way to live. After all our body is what carries us around and without it we wouldn’t have a physical life so it makes sense to let it navigate our way rather than the lower mind that has little respect for the body and what we need to nourish , nurture and evolve.
Exploring that moment where we have a choice.. to wallow in what we feel or to clock it, feel it and move on. We are only stuck in our past patterns for as long as we choose to perpetuate them. It literally is our choice, moment to moment- perhaps not obviously so to start with, but bit by bit as we develop more awareness, our choices become more obviously reflected back to us, and felt in our bodies.
“a fellow human being, equal with everyone else, who lives in love, in truth, in brotherhood, knowing that none of us can do this alone, that we are all in this together, and that this is the way life is divinely designed to be.” This brings such a feeling of joyfulness and reveals the isolation and separation of clinging to the individual to the ‘Me’.
We will never feel like we belong if we don’t feel our true selves.
When we live fully claiming who we are and appreciate what we bring, this feeling of ‘I don’t belong’ doesn’t come up because when we are ourselves we naturally know we are all deeply connected and a part of the grand Oneness. It is when we play small and go into comparison and jealousy that we can feel very alone and out of place.
I am recently being far more aware that of how we all live in our own little bubbles and not living knowing that we ‘can live in the joy and harmony of feeling and knowing’ we are 1 person among billions. It is quite eye opening!
“The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars… I share them with the whole Universe.”. These very wise words totally shatter the belief that we are simply individuals having a human experience for how can we be when we share all we are with the Universe? And the understanding we share all of us with everyone around us, this planet and the Universe offers us a sense of our universality, our grandness and what we are here to bring to the world.
I can relate to the feeling of not belonging but what I am connecting to reading your wise words is how often I have not allowed myself to be in my body and how this has exacerbated my feelings of not belonging. Becoming willing to be more open to my body’s communication although not always comfortable has allowed me to feel more settled and connected to myself and the universe.
What each one of us bring is very unique and really valuable. Once we are open to deliver it we may realize and be surprised about our true potential. It is infinite and very powerful.
Absolutely and we each have our part to play and when we truly feel that, it connects us to others in a beautiful way.
We have felt so many times different, isolated, sad because we don’t fit in…but what if our uniqueness is our actual strength? Not because we are more special than others but because we simply bring our innate abilities in such a natural way to the whole. There is an exquisite humbleness in accepting how grand we all are. It’s an acceptance that embraces all and unifies us.
Whenever we feel we don’t belong, we have already separated from ourselves first and from this, we then feel separate from everyone else around us. This feels very unsettling in our body because it is not natural for us to feel this separation and our body lets us know this immediately.
Sadness is not a part of who I truly am, I am love joy harmony stillness and truth, sadness is something I have taken on to serve me in my separation from my own divine self and the fact that I and all human beings are an important part of the divine whole of which we all belong equally.
Thank you Anne – valid point. We all have felt once that we do not belong here, because we are in fact energetic by essence, not a physical existence. Yet, we have a body where we live in and we need to treat it with the absolute knowing of this fact, with the honoring to the best we can to our physical body in this life.
Great reminder that when we deeply care for the body we are able to feel more- and when we abuse it, we desensitise ourselves. Our bodies always register everything but when we are abusive towards ourselves it’s like we’re choosing to numb our awareness to what we’re doing- because if we paid attention to it and allowed ourselves to feel it then we’d have to stop making those choices, and sometimes we just stubbornly don’t want to change our behaviours, even though we know they’re destructive.
Thank you Anne, I hadn’t quite looked at those feelings of not fitting in like this before! It makes perfect sense though as you explain that “we are each part of a vast Universe of beings, all connected with each other and all part of a vast oneness.” That understanding certainly removes self to expand beyond into all we are truly connected to and a part of.
It feels very arrogant to think of ourselves as individual and separate when our entire life on earth alone is dependent on others to make it work. Someone has to grow the plants we eat, make the computer we use, supply the electricity to our home etc etc. We simply cannot do it all on our own!
After spending so much of my early life feeling like I didn’t belong, anywhere, it was so life-changing to come to understand that “The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars… I share them with the whole Universe.” This understanding blew apart the belief I didn’t belong, that in fact I irrefutably did, as I was part of everything, part of the magnificent whole.
Looking at the size of our triggers compared to the amount of energy we use to react in can be a telltale sign of unresolved feelings and hurts. When I feel hurt and then and there claim it, it goes away. If I explode or feel deep sadness from a ‘small’ thing then it tells me something has been unexpressed for quite a while.
I love the sense we are part of a one beautiful whole, that we are part of the Universe and part of a body of Love. It gives me a sense I am held wherever I am and whatever I do and there is an equality in that. No-one is left less.
Beautiful Lucy, when we feel deeply connected, we can feel we belong everywhere and we can also feel the Oneness and grandness we are all a part of.
Exquisite Anne. I can feel how empowering it is to live with this awareness and how learning this at a young age would have saved many years of suffering in search of what my purpose was in being here, and instead just lived with confidence and power, guided by my inner-knowing.
” There is a physical reality to this human body, and to life on earth. I am made of flesh and blood, which is made of molecules, atoms, and subatomic particles that have been here since before the beginning of time. They have made up countless bodies before mine… and will make up many more to come. They are not mine to own, for they belong to the Universe, but it is my responsibility to care for them while I live in this body. The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars… I share them with the whole Universe. ”
Its so wonderful to read this and it explains alot thank you.
“we are each part of a vast Universe of beings, all connected with each other and all part of a vast oneness.” With this clear understanding we have a responsibility to walk in Brotherhood with all.
“If I really stop and feel this, I realise that I do belong here: in fact, I belong everywhere!” Many of us can feel like we don’t belong, yet as your beautiful blog suggests when we connect to our bodies and feel in our inner heart we know we are part of the all and the utter majesty and grandness that this equates too.
I can relate to this feeling of missing out too Anne. But what I am truly missing out on is connection to God, my divinity and multi dimensionality. Now that is an omission that’s going to be difficult to fudge. No wonder cravings, angst etc come in when this is not there.
Wow Jospeh, this is so true. When I am deeply connected to God, I know I am never alone and where I am is exactly where I need to be to learn and grow.
I love this blog Anne, for often I still feel I don’t belong here, but you are right we do and we do belong everywhere as we are all connected, it is just me being stuck in my individuality that keeps that not belonging feeling alive.
Yes, it is a really good idea when a disproportionately large feeling or reaction comes up to question what is going on here and look a little deeper.
‘For me, it starts with my body. Now this is something I have tried to ignore for quite a long time. I have indulged it, pushed it, used it, driven it, but listening to it and honouring it… that is a whole new thing for me.’ Yes, a completely new thing I agree and I have the feeling I am only in kindergarten as there is much to explore in learning to listen again and honouring what the body knows.
Great blog Anne. I am learning that any hurt whatsoever is a barrier to letting people in and embracing all of everything in life. Essentially it comes down to the fact that a hurt serves as an excuse to isolate ourselves from the gigantic whole we live inescapably in.
There is proof to what your saying Anne in feeling One with everyone and that is how amazing you feel after a Esoteric Modality healing session. These sessions bring you back in alignment to the order of the magnificence of the universe. Hence I cherish every opportunity I have to mark in my body new depths I can surrender and learn to live in during a healing session.
“We are an inseparable part of the Universe, and we live in a great illusion that we are separate, because we have tried to separate ourselves from it.” And how we love to indulge in the idea that we are separate from everything and everyone, even when we are hurting. It’s the perfect way to keep ourselves away from what we know to be true, so that we don’t have to take full responsibility for the choices we’ve made that have led us to be where we are.
We are all part of a great Universe and all connected, even though at present we can’t see the energetic connections that are always there, ‘We are an inseparable part of the Universe, and we live in a great illusion that we are separate, because we have tried to separate ourselves from it.’
” I Don’t Belong Here…. Or Do I? ”
When I was a child , I had a similar understanding but in a different way. I knew I was not from here even though I am here , I knew I was more than just physical.
I can very much relate to what you have shared here John. There was always part of me that felt very out-of-place here in many ways, and when I did not fit into any groups in school, I reacted by feeling even more different and misunderstood, diving deeper into a pool of separation from others. But what I am feeling now after reading Anne’s great blog is how much I do belong here and am needed in a big way, regardless of how crazy the world seems.
“If I really stop and feel this, I realise that I do belong here: in fact, I belong everywhere!” – This sentence is a game-changer when you stop and feel how the particles that make us up are shared with the rest of the Universe!
Me too!!! I am sure it is something we all feel and then make a choice to dull that feeling and work hard to fit in – whatever that looks like at the time.
Beautiful John, I too recall feeling the same way when I was a child and I had no words to describe what I felt. Now, I understand what I was connecting to and it was so clear and true, something I deeply felt from my inner knowing.
Thanks Anne, yes we always have a choice, ‘ I can choose to wallow in the misery of this again, or I can make a choice to come back to who I truly am, a great and equal part of the one glorious whole… ‘
When we get attached to how we feel in particular when we feel alone and or miserable we actually hold ourselves back from truly feeling our bodies and the amazing vehicles we reside in. This not only temporarily holds us back from the awesomeness we are and the beauty of our imperfect ways but also from seeing that we are indeed never alone and our connection to our hearts only ever holds us as one and leaves us open to discover and explore forevermore,
That is a really big part, learning that we actually can’t do it alone and that we are designed to be together and work together with others in harmony.
I agree MW and the fact that our bodies are constellated of particles, that in essence are one and he same in us all, and have been in us all at one time or another, completely annihilates the ideas that we have that we are or can be separate from each other. If we redirected our focus from resisting this fact to embracing it, we will then see what true advancement is all about.
I love this – simply you always have a choice, you can choose to be miserable or you can choose to love and cherish your life and know we are all part of something magnificent here.
Tuning into the fact that the universe is naturally constantly expanding and we are exactly under the same pull, how much do we need to call in as a counterpart to not move along with the universe. The disruption mankind lives in accordance to the universe must have its consequences- no wonder of all the diseases and extremes that show up in current times.
This Blog really lets me connect to the fact, that I am practically not only knowingly part of the universe but in fact physically. The way you wrote this Anne is exquisite and has a deep understanding felt in your body. That´s why I can align to it so easily. Thank you!
” What I am learning is that I can live in the misery and suffering of my self-centred creation ” Wow this is huge, self- centred creation of misery and suffering , this describes a lot of the way the world is.
Yeh it’s a brilliant description, because often when we’re miserable we blame the world, rather than taking responsibility for the fact we crested that situation and made choices that led to that misery.
This paragraph is an absolute gem that deserves to be repeated . . . .
‘There is a physical reality to this human body, and to life on earth. I am made of flesh and blood, which is made of molecules, atoms, and subatomic particles that have been here since before the beginning of time. They have made up countless bodies before mine… and will make up many more to come. They are not mine to own, for they belong to the Universe, but it is my responsibility to care for them while I live in this body. The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars… I share them with the whole Universe.” . . . absolutely priceless Anne.
I have also often felt that I don’t belong here as the way most live on this planet is completely off track to how we are supposed to live in harmony with each other, so no wonder it feels alien to so many of us.
I completely agree Kev I also remember as a child often wondering what am I doing here and feeling I don’t belong here. As you say that is not surprising as none of us belong in the loveless and disharmonious form that we all too often witness.
What if we could all get our heads around the fact that we all matter just as much as everyone else, and we are all connected and not the individuals that we are so hell bent on clinging to. It is mad to think in our material world that so few have so much and so many have so little when in truth even the particles that make up our bodies are on loan and everything belongs to the all.
If we don´t go for the obvious solution and numbing- going for sweets etc, the truth will be presented in front of us. We just need to look for it.
Truly knowing that we are all deeply connected is a profound life changing reflection that becomes the fulcrum of our relationship with everyone and ourselves
Yes, it changes everything because the level of responsibility goes deeper. Imagine a spiders web where the slightest tension on one thread affects the entire rest of the web whether seen or not, what do we offer to the web?
A glorious contribution – “I belong everywhere” and we do indeed. It is only the mind that tries to tell us otherwise … and only succeeds if we allow it to run the show rather than handing over to the body.
It is undeniable that in today’s world much energy is going into advancing our technology – all the while we still have much to learn about the art and science of the energetics of human life.
“I don’t belong here” – such a familiar old feeling from when I was younger. “If I make it all about me, sooner or later I have to feel different, isolated, alone; because we are all different at the level where we are individuals.” As you say in your post this is where so many of us live from. Making my life now about purpose and service – and a newfound level of responsibility – has changed all that. When I feel individual I know something is up – a work still in progress…..
“…. when this desire arises, it’s because I am already feeling a sadness that I don’t want to feel.” I too have recently become more aware that when I have a sweet craving there is something I don’t want to feel – be it a new level of responsibility and love – so I’ll try to numb myself, or an old pattern of indulgence returning. Either way I need to deal with it!
I often have had the sense that I don’t belong here, what I am realising more and more is that this sense has a degree of truth in it. It is the lovelessness of our society that I know I, or any of us, truly belong to, and in fact feels completely unnatural for us to fit into a loveless culture. We are, as you have so wisely shared Anne, universal beings and as Soul in a divinely designed body we are here to bring the light of who we are through all we do, and restore the ways of love, truth and Brotherhood here on earth.
I can relate to what has been written here as for many years of my life I had this deep seated despair of life and it’s purpose and often I would question ‘Why am I here’ or ‘What is the point’. Then about six months ago I had a huge feeling of old grief release from my body and what I could feel was that I had not accepted being here on earth.
I always had a similar feeling when you say ” I don,t belong here ” but my feeling was ” I am not from here ” and as long as I can remember my question ” but why am I here”
And what you say explains it beautifully
” the particles that make up our being, the sparks of God’s flame that we call ‘us.’
We are not from here but we are here. Our ” duty ” is to return from whence we came.
We have a massive part to play here, we’re here for a reason and once we firmly accept our responsibility and step forward knowing we have an important job to do life begins to make so much more sense.
Even we can make life about helping people which still can be about ourselves. As long as we make it just about the other or just about ourselves we are in separation. The moment we include ourselves and are in connection with others we can truly serve.
There is a truth to the fact that we don’t belong here – certainly not in the lovelessness we see in the world. However, it is more true to say we need to be fully here with all our love and commitment to show another way.
I just love knowing that “the particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars” as when I feel the truth of this I can no longer feel like an individual. I know that I am not only part of the stars, the universe but that I am a part of everyone else too as we have all shared the same particles. There is no separation between you and me unless we use our minds to make it appear so.
When we wallow in self pity or see ourselves as separate or alone we begin to see all these crazy thoughts come into our heads that mirror this way of being. When we move, express and feel that we are a part of a much grander picture and one that means every single person on this earth has a divine purpose and one that makes up a huge universal puzzle, that self pity goes out the window and our way of being becomes more about truth, responsibility and the love that holds us all as one.
I do love this blog! When I pick blogs at random to read and come back to one that I have read in the not too distant past, I feel there is more for me to learn from that blog. The main thing that stands out this time is that it is such a matter of choice, we can choose joy and harmony and oneness or stick with the ever unfulfilling highs and lows of self.
The thing is, Anne, that so many people do feel this, this extraordinary sense of alienation and it results in so much aberrant behaviour in our societies. The path of return to knowing who we truly are to know our inner being, this really is, as you say, the only thing that can heal this deep separation
I love particles… I love reading about particles, I love feeling my particles vibrate and align, I love that we are re-cycling masses of particles in our bodies, and I particularly love that particles love aligning to the Divine.
I agree Chris, when you consider we are all particles, that everything is a mass of vibrating particles it levels the playing field and there can be no comparison just responsibility.
What a joy to find this blog again and to feel how I am connected to the Universe just like everybody else. We can create our own misery and stay stuck in this but knowing and feeling we are equal Sons of God, a sparkle in the universe changes our way of living and will bring harmony and brotherhood back in the world.
I got a warm feeling in my body reading this blog especially when reading that we are all made of the same stuff and are undeniably interconnected with each other and the Universe. Although I have the knowledge of this, I felt an inkling of what it feels like to not keep going it alone all the time.
Thank you Anne, it was a completely different read for me today because I can understand my own desire for individuality so much better now, it’s pretty much exactly as you described, and I appreciate the inspiration your writing has provided to go beyond the smallness of self and reconnect to the universe and beyond.
Sometimes these feelings arise because we have allowed in an energy that results in us doubting our own magnificence. Enter sweets, behaviours, emotions etc and that’s it, where gone. What I loved here is that you stopped Anne and felt what was going on and why did you feel your drop. This is responsibility in action, not so much for ourselves but what happens to everyone when we allow this to happen. When we acknowledge this then we can get up, dust ourselves off and keep living life in full, to the best of our ability.
We only need to keep it really simple to see that we are of course an inseparable part of the universe. We’re in it, we’re part of it, so to think we are seperate from it is as you say Anne, a complete illusion. Like you, whenever I decide I don’t want a bar of being part of something and I just want everything my way and make it all about me, I just end up frustrated, sad, lonely etc. It really is interesting to observe just how much we are not designed to be a solo act.
It’s kind of like an ant going off and doing it’s own thing and then wondering why it’s so miserable – it is born as part of something, as we all are. It’s amazing that we don’t naturally feel this as human beings, that we are part of something vast and magnificent, and that our part makes an equal contribution. It shows how individuality is such a strong foundation currently for human life on earth that we don’t naturally feel the immenseness we belong to.
The more I am willing to let go of the need for identity of self, security, protection and all the traits that have separation as the end result, the more I sparkle from my unique essence and come fully into myself. This isn’t a riddle but a universal law of connecting deeper to what is true with-in our bodies and not live what the mind constructs and have us thinking how we need to be. We are already magnificent, we just have to be allowing and appreciate of this truth and choose it for ourselves.
I used to get that feeling that I didn’t belong here too, especially when I was unhappy or life was not going my way, or I was struggling to relate to people. Really it was a way for me to withdraw from life, make it about me and not about people. I now know this to be the opposite to how we should be, life is about people, we know brotherhood, it is in every cell of our body and it is this that is calling us to make the changes and live in a way that supports the whole. It is still a work in progress but I know for me I no longer have the feeling that I am not meant to be here.
You have expressed what so many have felt Anne, that we do not belong here. And how accurate that is in many ways. We do come from another ‘geographical place’ literally and what we don’t belong to is also this: What I am learning is that I can live in the misery and suffering of my self-centred creation when I choose to do it my way, get what I want, go it alone…’ So beautiful to go deep and explore what is calling us when we get a thought running through our heads, such as ‘I don’t being’ here’. As you say we all belong to this choice:’ I can live in the joy and harmony of feeling and knowing that I am but one person among billions, all of whom matter just as much as me, and not only that, but that we are each part of a vast Universe of beings, all connected with each other and all part of a vast oneness.’
I love your sharing Anne that , “The particles of which I am made are the same ‘stuff’ that has made up stars… I share them with the whole Universe,” and all that that signifies. It expresses so simple that we are all interconnected and part of the Universe and that we can either choose to perceive ourselves as isolated individuals or part of the whole. Truly appreciating this, as you share, empowers us to live in the choice of our self-created suffering or immerse ourselves in Universal joy.
“We are an inseparable part of the Universe, and we live in a great illusion that we are separate, because we have tried to separate ourselves from it.” Unless we choose to disconnect from who we are and our essence, it is impossible to question “do I belong?” It is purely a man-made drive to divide life into parts and I imagine anything exists in isolation of the other parts.
I am no fun to have around if I do not get what I want….to realize that I am also not truly joyful when I get what I want was a process of willingness and increasing awareness. It comes out at the end, even the latter with a bit delay maybe. But ‘to get what I want’ is and will be never enough. We belong to our soul and our soul belongs to God. Over this fact we are all connected and in truth One. So I agree, as long I make it about me, I have lost already. Also it is not about sacrificing myself. I am a part of the whole. I am worth and I count. My choices support all our healing and so ‘coming home’ one day – or not. My choice. Every second.
What I truly want is being united again with you all and God – I am just very good in disguising this fact. Even for me.
After reading your article I asked myself how it would be to feel the connection with the whole Universe. The first thing that I felt was, this is actually the truth, so everything that asks us to be individual in life, is going against this truth. And if we all adhered to this truth, there would be a flow and order of a one movement. This feels like a design of utmost beauty, harmony, and support.
Since starting my new job I’ve had repeated ‘I don’t belong here’ thoughts. But when connecting to my essence, to the intelligence within my particles, an intelligence that formed the planets and stars and the human body that knows in utero how many skin, liver, bone cells to make to form a baby. Then I connect to this I get to feel where I am needed and where I am not and no mental story and the reasons why I don’t belong have less ground to stand on. It feels right to be in this job and that makes more sense to my body then believing that I don’t belong.
The truth is that living from self is so normal for most of us, that it is hard to imagine there is another way. But that is the great thing about your beautiful article, Anne: this different way is clearly felt just as the fact that we are all part of the Universe, that we are held in love.
Loved to read your article once again Anne! Inspiring. For me the difference is so clear: the living from self, from individuality only leads to misery, struggle and problems while the living as a part of the whole, with no self, is filled with love, power, joy and a connection to every single human being. How difficult is the choice?
The living individually is so normal for us, that for most of us it is really difficult to grasp there is another way. Another way where there is no struggle, where is joy, love and an interconnectedness to everyone and everything. It is a great feeling, and once we have felt this, there is no turning back.
“It was a tiny little thing, but the feeling that came up in me was huge!” I can relate to this Anne. Sometimes something small happens and it makes me all upset more than just the thing that happens would normally need to trigger. I felt it was a hurt of people not being honest and understanding at all times – something I would love to receive. But I could also see that that is how it is now and that this gives me a big responsibility to not react and go into hurt (yes acknowledge it but not going in to it) to show everyone this way of living and that it is possible. We are in this together and that is how we have to get out as well – together. Very beautiful.
Thank you Anne for sharing a beautiful understanding of the particles of which we are made that are a part of the Universal whole.
That the ‘stuff’ that we are made of is making a bee-line on its return to the source of all, is an ancient and known wisdom that is there for everyone to feel, if they so choose…. And it is a choice.
Thank you for making a such a huge concept so simple and relatable Anne. I really appreciate your sharing on where to start and my body is glad I’ve started to listen to it.
I can relate to having a very strong feeling when I was young that I did not belong in my particular family and yet grew up to realise that many others felt like this in their own families. And yet when you link the micro of our being as particles and space to the macro of the universe it makes perfect sense that we belong here and everywhere and our family is the whole of humanity and beyond.