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The Break-Up I’d Rather Have

By Michael Brown · On September 10, 2018 ·Photography by Dragana Brown

Almost a year ago, as I write this, I split up with my girlfriend of nearly 2 years. Prior to that we had been friends for 3 years, getting to know one another. During our nearly 2 years together as a couple, we had plenty of amazing times: road-trips across Europe, her visiting me in Australia whilst I was doing an internship in Sydney, my spending days in Amsterdam with her during her placement year and naturally numerous wonderful dinners, walks and musings across London Town, where we lived together.

When the time comes in any type of relationship for it to change or move on, we can get hurt, build bitterness, experience resentment or even go as far as taking revenge, particularly when the relationship is romantic – something most would say we hold as being very precious to us. As a 21 year old man, I have seen too many of these instances to count, all the way from primary school till now, with school friends, colleagues, relatives, people in my life in general and even what comes up on social media where it’s as if there’s a rule that where there is a break up, there is a drama. Insulting names get hurled around, accusations, blame, fury, rage, friends/families split sides, so called ‘evidence’ ends up being posted online and what not.

What’s interesting for me was that for many years, this was all I saw, so this was part of the package, i.e. ‘normal.’ When my first girlfriend and I broke up, it was arms up in the air ready to blame, shoot threats, lie about her/the circumstances/events and at the same time do everything to get back with her (seems crazy I know!).

I had the same experience with my second girlfriend. I made it clear that there was no contact to be made, let alone friendship to be had. I made the same clear to all her friends, some of whom with I used to have lovely, close relationships. All that just because they were involved with her and part of her life in one way or another. Seems mad when I look back now at how many wonderful human beings we can cut off from our lives just because of one hurt, allegedly from that one person. I say allegedly deliberately, because life experience has shown me that we get hurt by ourselves, not by others.

For me to look back at this and see the unfounded behaviour with clear eyesight as I do now, may make you wonder if I have had some sort of a wake-up call or a revelation as to the fact that this was not the way I knew we should respond when our relationships came to an end.

So, if you are wondering – the reply is a resounding Yes.

This moment came when I travelled to the little town of Hoi An on the East coast of Vietnam. It was there that I was invited to be part of a family dinner with Serge Benhayon and his household and had the most magical dinner that would completely transform my perspective on relationships. The dinner was full of the freshest fish, greenest veggies and most delicious desserts. However, it was not the food that would hallmark this assemblage for me: it was the interactions instead.

Gathered around the table were Serge Benhayon, three of his four children, Miranda Benhayon (Serge’s wife) and Deborah Benhayon (Serge’s ex-wife). The very scenario of a current and an ex-wife sitting at the same dinner table could well be (and I’m sure has been) the basis of some comedy sketches. However, in this instance it was more of a parable than a comedy, although there was plenty of hearty laughter at the table too.

What I witnessed at that dinner table was beyond what I could even take in at the time. Here was a family who by all laws of societal norms should have had a great big division sign down the middle with children choosing sides and their favourites, wife and ex-wife bickering, hostility, disparaging remarks towards the husband from the ex-wife, jealousy, comparison, envy… the list goes on and on. This family however was clearly bucking the trend. This is a family where it didn’t matter what their titles were within the family unit – mother/daughter/ex/present/father/sister… irrespective of all the circumstances, there was not an ounce of undertone in the conversation, not a sliver of jealousy, nor looking down or up at any other member. To see that this was possible, let alone a reality lived with such ease, was a mind-blowing experience for me.

So, what was my take away from this dinner? And no, it wasn’t the left-over fish or the most amazing desserts – those I managed to polish off there and then. My take away takes us back to the beginning of this blog and to my most recent girlfriend.

The process of the romantic side of our relationship coming to an end took a few months and many heart to heart conversations. At times we stumbled across a few challenges and frustrations, yet we never completely abandoned our sense of humour, or the knowing that we were merely learners and teachers of our own life stage. We continued to live as a family, sharing meals together and supporting each other where and when needed.

Even after we both agreed the time had come for the romantic side of our relationship to end, which included physical intimacy, we carried on living together for the next 8 months. I worked on holding nothing against her and to continue to love her as a friend. We went on weekend trips together, shared conversations and cooked for each other. During this time people around us gradually became aware that we were no longer ‘together’ but still living together, and some of the remarks I heard during conversations made me stop and consider how rare our situation actually was. How rare it is to continue to love one another, when the access to bed chambers has been closed off. Remarks that came were: “She’s still living with you? Doesn’t she have her own family?” and “That’s so weird!” “Must be very tense?!”

I couldn’t help but appreciate the role models in Serge Benhayon and his family and how they had inspired me at a very young age (I was 13 on that trip to Vietnam) to take the same/similar steps years later and to walk through the whole process of my own separation from a girlfriend with greater ease, dignity and LOVE. Based on what I have seen in society, it is blatantly obvious it would have been much more ‘normal’ and socially accepted to go the usual route of hurt and all that accompanies it: resentment, bitterness, blame.

Thank you Serge, and thank you to the entire Benhayon family for showing me that we are all human beings, that we are all forever learning and that we are all deserving of nothing but Love.

Published with permission from the Benhayon family and my ex-girlfriend.

By Michael Brown, Maths Student and Manager in Retail

Further Reading:
End of a Relationship and the Expression of Love
What is the Science of Appreciation and how does it evolve all of our relationships?
Relationships are about evolving – the key to making relationships work

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Michael Brown

With love of people at the core of his raison d’etre, and all things numerical, scientific and humourous (or was it houmous ?), maths student with distinctions, a retail manager, community volunteer, piano player, delicate, dashing, and all in all, downright debonair.

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360 Comments

  • Greg Barnes says: August 30, 2019 at 3:20 am

    Understanding how we can come to appreciate another with true-intimacy as we can not but always hold another in the same appreciativeness, as intimacy (letting another in) and appreciation (the relationship we have with our essences) are like twins you can not have one without the other, so deepening our relationships with another is evolutionary.

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  • Mary Adler says: August 19, 2019 at 3:10 pm

    The magic is in the appreciation and learning from the Benhayon family for you to then reflect this to others.

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  • Inma Lorente says: August 10, 2019 at 1:38 pm

    When the communication is open and transparent, when we take the responsibility in looking at what interferes in the connection between us there is no one to blame but very much to appreciate.

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  • Inma Lorente says: August 10, 2019 at 1:30 pm

    Michael the way you ended up this relationship feels very honouring and supportive. Your experience makes me realize about that loving people equally is natural for us, no matter the situation we are in and how far away we seem to be from each other, at the end we are one.

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  • Leigh Matson says: July 3, 2019 at 6:41 pm

    Before I met Serge Benhayon and his family I never knew the power each person has on others. On one hand, I did because I had spent my whole life learning from the way others lived but it was only after I met them did I understand it consciously. When ones living way is based on love that effect of others is truly amazing.

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  • Melinda Knights says: June 22, 2019 at 5:49 pm

    “life experience has shown me that we get hurt by ourselves, not by others.” What a great line, and what a gem of wisdom to live by which would totally transform all relationships.

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  • Viktoria says: June 14, 2019 at 2:20 pm

    To have the role models of Serge Benhayon and the rest of his family is incredible, to know that life can be lived with a level respect and dignity towards one another which is almost not heard of or seen is reassuring, refreshing nad something which has the power to inspire.

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    • Alexis Stewart says: June 16, 2019 at 4:09 pm

      How dreadful is it that the vast majority of us can’t afford everybody in our lives a very basic level of dignity and respect? But we can’t. Not only that but most of us are outwardly hostile to at least a few people in our lives, either that or we simply cut them out completely. This is what happens when you step away from love, you make room for another energy to come in and come in it does, in fact it rushes in, glad of the opportunity to derail us further and create even more separation.

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  • Vicky Cooke says: May 28, 2019 at 6:55 pm

    ‘all the way from primary school’ bitter break-ups and resentment in primary school!!!! Oh boy do we need to work on our relationships! ? Great to hear that you are genuinely living and reflecting something different to this.

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  • Loretta Rappos says: April 12, 2019 at 7:03 pm

    It is such a shame that it has become the norm that when there is a romantic breakup the relationship ends completely and that person whom you previously had a very intimate sharing with no longer occurs in the future.
    The Benhayon family are a prime example that love is the foundation for all relationships whether it is a romantic one or not.

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  • LE says: March 21, 2019 at 7:18 am

    We make it so easy to blame another when things don’t go the way we expect them to, far better to reflect on our part and learn rather then blame and remain forever stagnant.

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  • Karin says: March 11, 2019 at 1:36 am

    ‘We get hurt by ourselves and not others,’ this was such a confronting statement to me but one I’ve really allowed myself to be open to and discover is true.

    No-one but me can take me from knowing and feeling the love I am within. When I am connected with this love whatever awful harm comes my way I can see the other person isn’t themselves, they’re hurt and what comes through them is that hurt. This is why people say terrible things in arguments. That’s not to say they are not accountable or that I tolerate abuse. It’s to bring understanding and love so all parties can be reminded of who they are and return to that.

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  • Annoymous says: March 8, 2019 at 9:00 am

    Life is all about relationships, when we take that opportunity to connect with one and other we have the opportunity to confirm who we really are and where we are really from.

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  • Chris Vale says: March 8, 2019 at 7:35 am

    Its easy to stay in the hurt at the end of a relationship, but here Michael you present another way. A way that doesn’t involve operating from our hurts from the end of a relationship but from going beyond to a connection with each other that is not defined by romantic relationship but by something much greater, the oneness we are all from

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    • Rachel Murtagh says: March 9, 2019 at 2:32 pm

      I have often pondered on the love and adoration couples share when they are together, only to let that go at the end of the relationship. The love and experience that was shared always remains even if not always expressed.

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    • Alexis Stewart says: May 17, 2019 at 2:06 pm

      Open or closed, big picture or small picture, Mini Me or Expansive Me, the choice is always ours.

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  • Natasha says: March 7, 2019 at 8:37 pm

    Absolutely amazing, I too have been deeply inspired by the dinner table sitting and it is a pretty amazing occurrence to bare witness to. My seen occasion was at a event held at Lennox Head, and my mouth fell open with what I could feel from the whole family and how they conducted themselves in a way that was so beauty-full and deeply meaningful.

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  • Anon says: March 7, 2019 at 8:47 am

    I’ve had my own break up, actually with this one there were a few makes ups and now a break up. The usual is to cut that person out and I did try this but it felt petty and mean and I felt less about myself. I realised why not have an openness with him – even if I never saw him again. I have not shut him out, we are good friends, there is a respect and love there that serves as a beautiful foundation if either one of us choose to start a partnership with someone else. My love for him won’t diminish – I don’t fall for the lie that there is only so much love to go around!

    So, so different to what I see portrayed in the media and how I’ve witnessed the hate of an ex and the taking sides.

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  • Lorraine Wellman says: February 28, 2019 at 5:53 pm

    Serge Benhayon continues to be an amazing role model for all, he sets a marker for what is true family and what are true relationships.

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  • julie says: February 14, 2019 at 7:05 pm

    This is so far removed from the breakups I used to have with a boyfriend; all emotional and drama to the max. With an unhealthy dose of feeling sorry for myself and blaming the other. It just goes to show that relationships and breakups can be a responsible grown-up affair.

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  • Viktoria says: February 13, 2019 at 7:39 am

    When life is made about love first, we are open to learn from every occurance.

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  • Ariana says: February 13, 2019 at 1:40 am

    I’m with you there Michael – I’d rather have the break up than sell myself for a relationship that is not evolving.

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  • Natasha says: January 27, 2019 at 7:14 am

    So incredibly, this is a beautiful example of how unity and developing a depth of who we truly are can really hold everyone and all within our loving grasp. Truly beautifully explored.

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    • Michael Brown says: February 3, 2019 at 7:03 am

      Beholding has no condition or expectation – just space to be and breathe.

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  • Golnaz Shariatzadeh says: January 26, 2019 at 8:37 pm

    I find it quite shocking that it is possible to have a relationship with someone where we can appreciate their many amazing qualities, and the next moment there can be such an animosity. I have witnessed this not just in relationship break-ups as discussed here, but also in political situations when all of a sudden there is a turn and all the amazing things the person might have contributed gets dismissed and forgotten.
    To me both of these scenarios show how we choose for whatever reason to close down our heart, there is a a host of negativity that is ready to flood our mind. I have learned from personal experience that it IS possible to keep an open and loving heart regardless of the changes in life, and Serge Benhayon and his family are such a great example always.

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  • LE says: January 13, 2019 at 5:33 pm

    Serge Benhayon has taught me too -that we are all deserving nothing but love, and that we are all from a divinity that holds vast wisdom.

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  • Rebecca says: January 8, 2019 at 4:21 pm

    It is interesting that our ‘normal’ in society is for breaks ups to be bitter, unloving, emotional and upsetting. Reading your article makes me realise that it doesn’t have to be this way and that there is no reason why we can’t hold each other in love, care and understanding and make the whole process much more loving and simple. I know when I have broken up with partners in the past that I have thought that it needs to be emotional and dramatic – I’m realising that this way really isn’t supportive for anyone.

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  • Rebecca says: January 8, 2019 at 4:14 pm

    This is really lovely; ‘This is a family where it didn’t matter what their titles were within the family unit – ‘mother/daughter/ex/present/father/sister,’ Reading this makes me realise that the labels we have can cause division and that if we saw each other equally and not in these roles then we may not have the ideals and beliefs and pictures and we could relate more to each other more as human beings rather than ex/present etc..

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  • Michael Chater says: January 5, 2019 at 7:43 pm

    ‘Seems mad when I look back now at how many wonderful human beings we can cut off from our lives just because of one hurt, allegedly from that one person.’ this is a point that we can all ponder on to more deeply consider the effect of our choices to have protection in our lives.

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  • Matilda Bathurst says: December 29, 2018 at 6:48 pm

    Deserving of nothing but love… yes… and it is up to us to know this and therefore be able to set the standards in our relationships with everyone.

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    • Rachel Murtagh says: January 4, 2019 at 7:25 am

      We often can wait and wait for others to show/give us love before we return it… what if we were the ones to show love without measurement, without conditions and without holding it back?

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  • Ingrid Ward says: December 28, 2018 at 4:44 pm

    “Break-ups are not always about relationships break-downs, but moving on, evolving and freedom to choose.” Beautifully expressed Richard and wisdom we would all benefit from bringing into our lives, and into our relationships. Too often I have seen couples staying together when the most loving move to make would be to end the relationship. And the longer they stay together the further away from love they move and the harder it is to move on, in any direction.

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  • Ingrid Ward says: December 28, 2018 at 4:38 pm

    The wisdom with which you write Michael, certainly offers a whole new view on what a relationship breakup could be, and in my view, should be. But most relationships end very acrimoniously, totally overlooking the fact there would have probably been a loving beginning to them. Unfortunately many of us allow the hurts, anger, sadness etc get in the way of bringing the relationship to a loving close so then we are free to move on in our lives, allowing the hurt free space for another relationship to grow, if that is what we choose next.

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