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A True Way to Learn

By Adele Leung · On April 8, 2016 ·Photography by Adele Leung
School is considered a very important, if not the only important focus in a child’s life in the Asian culture.

I was never really interested in school – it was something that I did because I believed I had to do it. Apart from the most basic foundations in language, maths and social skills, I found most of the subjects we had to study uninteresting. Going to school seemed like being in a vacuum that took me away from daily life. But more importantly, to be recognised through the education system meant I have made a pact to disconnect from myself.

As a child knowing this is what awaited me in entering our education system, I had two choices: to rebel, which is to say no (in reaction) to all that is felt to be not true, or to excel, which is to say I agree to numb from feeling the disconnection to myself that I choose. I did not know there was any other way.

I chose the latter, but not without consequences.

During my elementary and high school years, every day after school, the moment I got home I would sit at my desk and start to do homework and study. I would not break for anything except a haphazard dinner with my family, returning immediately to study until midnight. As a student I was not taught or expected to do anything else but study.

By age 11 I was put on tranquilisers before school exams because there was just too much to memorise and I was already living in deep anxiety and had insomnia at that tender age. I was encouraged to just do mediocrely at school by my parents after they witnessed the emotional distress I put myself in, but that was actually not a truly valid choice. I already felt imprisoned in a system where, no matter how I chose, I would lose. If I rebelled against school, I would be ostracized in society and suffer; if I chose to excel, I would equally suffer from further disconnecting from my own body. Whatever I chose I felt disempowered, but excellence in academics would earn me a recognition that the world bought into, so I chose to play that game whilst knowing it was not true success. What was seen as ‘A’ grades on the outside was very far from my true story that was not told.

My growing up years in school were spent crying and studying in bed with a sea of books around me.

I migrated to Canada when I was 17 with my younger sister because my family was unsure of the political future of Hong Kong, then soon to be under Chinese rule again. I got into a prestigious university studying Chemistry. I did not particularly feel equipped to study science, I just got in because of my grades.

I was very disillusioned in life at that point that I was close to giving up. I did not know what I wanted to study, I did not know what life was about, I did not know myself, I had very little confidence, I was hurt and deeply lost, and my physical and emotional health reflected all of that.

On top of that, this was considered normal by the world.

College days were also completely devoted to study, but panic and anxiety grew as now I was studying in a foreign country and had to take care of life with a younger sister. I knew there was so much more to life than just studying, but as a student in my culture, school was the be all and end all of life. And I did not know how to live life outside of studying! Without any idea of how to self-care, eating and sleeping as how I liked was common, which meant a normal daily diet would include coffee or chocolate covered cocoa beans for breakfast. I would start my day exhausted and eat fast foods or instant noodles during the day so that I could have the most time to study.

The way I had studied throughout my school days was not special, it is one typical example from many students who grew up in a culture where academic performance was the only life we knew.

Life is reduced to studying… the awesome possibilities and potential of a human being are reduced to the knowledge from books. I felt very trapped as I did not feel that I have learned anything in life at all. The anxiety that I felt not only came from having to fulfill academic pressures, it was knowing that the choices that were presented to me and that I chose, were not true: disconnecting from my body and retreating into the mind was the only way I could cope with the horror that I could feel but wanted to avoid feeling at all cost.

In my desperation I made the choice to quit studying life: I wanted to live life, I wanted to experience feeling it from my body, I wanted to truly learn.

I had to be very honest to myself and started to feel into all my choices. I made some pretty big choices at that time which had to be implemented, but I was willing to go there. From Chemistry, I switched my major to Chinese Studies, as what I truly felt to explore then was my culture because being in a foreign country highlighted a feeling on inequality within me, which I was on my way to exposing. I was still conscientious about studying but I started making friends and having life outside of school.

I wanted to truly learn through human relationships and the relationship with myself. I dropped studying science, and started to live the experiment of life.

Knowing that every moment is a living science brought back responsibility in my life. If something didn’t work out, I would have to go back and look at the data that built into the result. I didn’t want to rely on book knowledge because I knew there was a deeper way to live, and the only way to test that out was to fully give myself permission to trust in my own heart. The more I gave my heart the opportunity to express and got out of my own way, the more my life flowed with the results from this experiment as I built my foundation upon it. I knew love was a part of the equation, and it was something that was calling for a deeper exploration.

That was the time when I met Serge Benhayon in the 2012 Universal Medicine Vietnam Retreat. I was ready to go deeper with my experiment and practical tools would be supportive. From Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have learned that the missing link to the True science of life is self-love. The tests I thought I had been doing with love over many years were still producing results which were unloving, and now I understood why. I hadn’t given myself the permission to express this love to myself. For the last three years, this was the living experiment I tested, researched, got more understanding of what worked and discarded what didn’t work in my life.

Life became clearer. I have chosen to be born in a place and in circumstances that have offered me ample opportunities to experience the devastation of what is not natural on a daily basis, so as to come back to loving myself. Loving myself was to constantly say no to what is not natural and choose to live the naturalness that my body knows. Without a foundation of what self-love feels like in my body at the start of this experiment, I had to feel the intense disconnection I have chosen to live from the reactions I had towards the world.

Life had felt unbearably lonely and I was always seeking to escape this loneliness. I could easily give up, saying this study of life is too difficult, as it indeed was. But with the support from Universal Medicine, I didn’t give up.

Instead I have come to the simple conclusion that in self-love, I just have to give love to myself, consistently without perfection, in all moments that my awareness allows.

In moments where I was unaware I had to go back and ask why, further refine what determines my ability to be aware, and test again.

No one can offer love to me, no one can tell me how to love myself, no one can force me to accept this love. I didn’t have to do anything special or to go to a faraway place to love myself, I just have to give myself permission to feel my own love and offer it back to me. I simply had to be myself.

In this living experiment, the data becomes the confirmation. Nothing outside of me can truly confirm the success of my experiment or not, the only true confirmation is in my own body.

I have found another way to learn, a way which brings me deeper back to myself every day. Every choice that I make and how consistently these choices are made, will be everything that comes back to meet me, so taking responsibility is a given. Every moment is an opportunity to learn; if I dismiss any moment, I would have to take the responsibility to catch up and feel the consequences of that delay. In learning with responsibility, not only do I feel more energy and vitality, anxiety is replaced with joy. I am growing and expanding and always welcoming more to learn. Did I mention I am also looking and feeling amazing and beautiful?

There is a true way to learn; it involves my whole body and Soul, it involves all my movements, it is interconnected with all of life and humanity and beyond – it is The Way of The Livingness.

Inspired by the Love and Inspiration from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that is forever limitless.

By Adele Leung, Creative Director/Fashion Stylist, Hong Kong

Further Reading:
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Adele Leung

Has recently re-discovered the playfulness of hanging out with her soul, and hence forth found many new discoveries such as – that she actually loves people more than mountains and that simplicity is her new black. Living in Hong Kong, and enjoying intimacy with 7 million others.

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617 Comments

  • Mary Adler says: July 24, 2020 at 2:16 pm

    “I just have to give myself permission to feel my own love and offer it back to me. I simply had to be myself.” We are an open book where we feel truth.

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  • Mary says: May 17, 2020 at 2:50 pm

    Adele this is a great topic of conversation, I would say that to rebel or to excel are both reactions that we get caught up in so that we disconnect from ourselves in order to cope with the education system we are all put through. I liken our education system to a sausage machine we all come out crushed at the end encased by a system that has never worked and will never work.

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  • Leigh says: January 17, 2020 at 7:44 pm

    A great example of what it means to be a student of life.

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  • Greg Barnes says: November 7, 2019 at 8:58 pm

    Finding our feet in life and the ensuing Joy through being Soul-fully connected opens the door to the simple way of learning through being divinely connected and takes the pressure of any skill we can bring to the way we live.

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  • Lucy Dahill says: August 24, 2019 at 4:18 am

    “The only true confirmation is in my body”, how true is that?!! It is our relationship with our body that offers us a personalised equation of what works for us and what doesn’t. In your example, there was a time where burying yourself in your study worked, and then there was a time that having a more balanced experience of study worked. The key is to make it purposeful and not reactive or all consuming.

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  • Lucy Dahill says: August 24, 2019 at 4:13 am

    I really like the idea that when something didn’t work you went back to the data of what had made that result seem logical to you. It is a logical way to track back on the decisions we make in our life that could be part of the dis-ease we find in our lives.

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  • Rachel Murtagh says: March 5, 2019 at 5:08 am

    Your sharing is a powerful one, Adele. Coming from someone who has been so successful in the Education system, sharing the pitfalls, the problems and the damage is more exposing than if from someone who hasn’t ‘made it,’ so to speak. You are representative of those that make it to the top of the tree… but to what cost? The way we educate needs turning on its head… yes, we need to develop the skills to work well in life, but we are desperately needing to learn how to live life well from every other angle.

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  • Rachel Murtagh says: December 28, 2018 at 4:27 am

    ‘Life is reduced to studying… the awesome possibilities and potential of a human being are reduced to the knowledge from books.’ This could be said for all school children everywhere… and life with everything there after, as we become adults is much reduced!

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    • Mary says: May 17, 2020 at 2:57 pm

      I agree Rachel we are all totally crushed there is no opportunity for self expression. The examination papers are couched in such a way that you have to conform to the way the system insists you answer the question, if you write outside the confines you are marked down. The whole system is rotten to the core and yet we hold it as one of the great bastions of our society.

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  • Lorraine Wellman says: December 4, 2018 at 6:32 pm

    This makes sense to me as a way to truly learn, and be responsible, ‘I have found another way to learn, a way which brings me deeper back to myself every day. Every choice that I make and how consistently these choices are made, will be everything that comes back to meet me, so taking responsibility is a given. Every moment is an opportunity to learn’.

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    • Adele Leung says: December 5, 2018 at 10:32 am

      In this process of return, we get to be honest and nakedly so learn from all of that.,

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  • Lorraine Wellman says: December 4, 2018 at 6:29 pm

    And so we walk in and with our power inspiring others to love and be love.

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  • Adele Leung says: November 28, 2018 at 12:34 pm

    To me this was the normal of many children and cultures, it was incomprehensible that there is anything else other than this constant push and perpetual lack of space by stuffing more and more things in. This rhythm imposed on us is deeply abnormal.

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  • Adele Leung says: November 26, 2018 at 10:19 am

    I agree totally Elizabeth. It is powerless to blame but empowering to walk the first step to live.

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  • Aimee Edmonds says: November 25, 2018 at 6:55 am

    The Way of the Livingness is the first place I’ve learnt the joy of learning and the joy of experimenting with what does and doesn’t belong in my life. This is worlds apart from the education system as I knew it growing up. There is no benefit in learning if it is void of love.

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  • Mary Adler says: October 19, 2018 at 3:24 pm

    The university of living life has a richness and depth that the knowledge in books doesn’t touch.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 26, 2018 at 10:10 am

      Absolutely and it is always inspiring.

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  • Sam says: October 8, 2018 at 3:16 am

    Thats intense to be put on tranquilisers at age 11. I know children taking medication in the UK has gone up considerably- when our children need to be medicated for anxiety as a society we really need to stop and ask why and what truly can be done about it.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 26, 2018 at 10:21 am

      It is what’s going on in the real world. Our world is only escalating in intensity and we cannot remain under the blinders, we got to know what is going on and to never hold back reflecting there is another way.

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    • Anonymous says: January 11, 2019 at 5:44 am

      I found out a few years ago, by having access to all of my medical notes, that I was put on what would be classed as a tranquiliser drug at age 5, and just because I checked under my bed, behind my curtains, in the wardrobe, etcetera before going to sleep.

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    • Lucy Dahill says: August 24, 2019 at 4:20 am

      Yes, it is intense, what are we considering normal that there are markers we are setting and expected to achieve that do not honour our values and natural strengths. If we had a focus on getting to know who we are, we would know what subjects to study and would be far more engaged in our own education with less fight and anxiety.

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  • Michelle McWaters says: October 6, 2018 at 8:17 pm

    ‘Life is reduced to studying… the awesome possibilities and potential of a human being are reduced to the knowledge from books.’ When explained in such clear terms it really doesn’t make sense that we choose to live from the head rather than from the body. It begs the question why we have subscribed to a system that reduces us and what we get out of it, for surely if we didn’t get anything out of it we would not be subscribing to it.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 26, 2018 at 10:25 am

      Very true Michelle. We study with no regard for the body and cramp knowledge into us unnaturally because in society we get recognized as successful for doing so. Our exchange is money.

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  • Rebecca says: September 22, 2018 at 2:11 pm

    Adele, it is beautiful that after all of the anxiety and not knowing who you were that you came to feeling like this about yourself; ‘I just have to give myself permission to feel my own love and offer it back to me. I simply had to be myself.’

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  • Rebecca says: September 22, 2018 at 2:09 pm

    Adele, this feels like we are failing children if this is how they feel when they leave school; ‘I had very little confidence, I was hurt and deeply lost, and my physical and emotional health reflected all of that.’

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    • Adele Leung says: November 26, 2018 at 11:27 am

      The education system needs to be very honest starting from now as what kind of children are we raising and what kind of society are we creating?

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  • Bryony says: September 7, 2018 at 4:37 am

    ‘Loving myself was to constantly say no to what is not natural and choose to live the naturalness that my body knows.’ – life is so simple, when we follow what our bodies know is true, and discard the rest. Thank you for spelling it out so simply and clearly Adele.

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    • Alexis Stewart says: January 10, 2020 at 5:15 pm

      Anything that is not love is not natural to our bodies and yet here we all are living in what appears to be a loveless world.

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  • Rik Connors says: August 15, 2018 at 8:52 pm

    Why are we not educated to know we are hurt and also then how to deal with it; Otherwise you do retreat to your head, give up and withdraw as the case was with me. Once you withdraw depression can kick in. Education needs to support us not kill us.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:12 am

      True Education is life, it is not something we retreat into, but it is life itself, interconnected with everything starting with our body.

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  • Meg says: June 6, 2018 at 5:16 pm

    There’s more to learning than our brains, true learning occurs when we open our heart to others and we start to really see what is going on in the world and for people – then true learning occurs and it starts to become clear what our place is in the world.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:28 am

      Learning is a whole body matter and in that it is deeply inspiring. It is a relationship all throughout the way.

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  • Helen Elliott says: May 9, 2018 at 4:05 pm

    This blog exposes so much that is damaging in our current education system as it values those who do well academically whilst leaving the majority to feel they have failed in some way as they do not tick the right boxes but even those who get A grades can still feel that something is lacking so everyone suffers. Thank you for sharing how you navigated through this and came to the understanding that you needed to become your own science project to experiment with what worked for you and that without self-love there can be no true learning.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:32 am

      Everyone suffers in truth in the current education system. The recognition towards academically excellent students are generally compromising their health over the mind, the students who do not do well suffer from a lack of confidence and are haunted by the energy of failure and being invisible. The teachers suffer from the heavy workload and disregard of their body and all these emotions are somehow finding their way back towards the impact in their teaching and towards the students. It is a whole scary mess if we are truly honest.

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  • Michael Goodhart says: April 3, 2018 at 9:36 am

    It was interesting to feel how my body changed while reading this great blog Adele. When I read the first part that described your choice to excel in school via all the super intellectual based belief that all knowledge comes from books my head felt kind of foggy and I started to get a slight dull headache. But the latter sections where you were living your life via the guidance of your body and connecting with people, expressing more fully, etc. brought a clarity and lightness to me. This shows me what way is the truth, The Way of the Livingness.

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  • Rachel Murtagh says: March 7, 2018 at 7:43 am

    Adele, you expose the dilemmas of being an A grade student. It is assumed that if you are bright and if you get that elusive A grade then life will be fine. Yet, the pressure of maintaining excellence puts an inordinate strain on the student. School only prepares students for exams it does not prepare students to live life.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:35 am

      No it doesn’t and this choice feels very stressful on the body. Not just because of the workload, but there is a constant tension that my body does not feel settled if my life is separated from life and love and remain in a vacuum of just studying and grades.

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  • Mary Adler says: February 14, 2018 at 3:02 pm

    “I simply had to be myself.” the truth that calls for no academic study but an ever deepening knowing of who you are.

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    • Meg says: June 6, 2018 at 5:17 pm

      Learning who you are – now that is the best learning in the world.

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  • Rik Connors says: February 10, 2018 at 10:54 pm

    This is a parable on self-love — I love it! I took these snippets from the blog that are a sure way to a self-love-affair:
    “I hadn’t given myself the permission to express this love to myself.”
    “Instead I have come to the simple conclusion that in self-love, I just have to give love to myself, consistently without perfection, in all moments that my awareness allows.”
    “In moments where I was unaware I had to go back and ask why” — this exposes how we choose to not move in a way of appreciating that we are aware and confirm the next the level of awareness / love that presents itself.
    “I just have to give myself permission to feel my own love and offer it back to me. I simply had to be myself.”
    Boy-yah!

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:40 am

      ?

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  • LorraineJ says: January 23, 2018 at 7:02 pm

    What you describe is very common amongst school children, when will the education authorities realise that the education system as it stands is not working, ‘I did not know myself, I had very little confidence, I was hurt and deeply lost, and my physical and emotional health reflected all of that.’

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:43 am

      When teachers start to be honest about themselves and not fall into the ideal and consciousness of education. This consciousness makes teachers inhuman and do not relate to students as people because they also do not relate to themselves as people.
      This was my experience.

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  • Kelly Zarb says: December 7, 2017 at 8:15 am

    Learning through our lived experiences is a great way for us to explore, feel and understand more of who we are in essence and all others too. This is not only a great way to connect with people but also an opportunity to deepen our relationship with self which his a marvellous way to learn from life.

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  • Rebecca Wingrave says: November 22, 2017 at 4:22 pm

    Adele, this is really gorgeous to read, I am studying at the moment and I can feel the pressure of deadlines and that I have a choice to go into stress and overwhelm – which feels awful in my body, or I have the choice to take care of myself along the way and not make the deadlines the priority.

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    • Adele Leung says: November 27, 2018 at 10:45 am

      I can relate and be inspired by this constantly in work too. The more intense work is, the default system is to even care deeper for myself in all areas.

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      • Alexis Stewart says: January 10, 2020 at 5:16 pm

        What a pearl of wisdom Adele.

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  • HM says: November 21, 2017 at 8:50 am

    The pressure of the education system is so intense – and we are putting kids through this as a way of judging how good they will be in life. Adele – reading your story really shows how we impose on children and ask them to be something they naturally are not. What message then is society giving out? Thank God for Universal medicine that has allowed an understanding as to why we fight our own amazingness.

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  • Gabriele Conrad says: November 14, 2017 at 12:12 pm

    The education systems worldwide cater to knowledge, reputation and success but seem to have forgotten that it is about human beings first and foremost – and to start with, about very young, tender and impressionable and still relatively ‘fresh’ human beings. What are we doing to them? Turning them into functional and functioning robots?

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  • Joshua Campbell says: November 8, 2017 at 2:31 am

    I find it ironic how the books that you were studying will one define a prison as a physical place they themselves studied with the absence of Love, incite a greater prison than they would tout and that is the prison of the mind. A life lived in the absense of Love is not a life lived in fullness.

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  • Rebecca Wingrave says: October 9, 2017 at 3:02 pm

    Adele, what you are sharing in this article makes such sense, ‘I have learned that the missing link to the True science of life is self-love.’ what a huge difference self love makes, in my own experience life without self love is empty, joyless and purposeless, self love feels key to living a truly loving life.

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  • Suse says: October 9, 2017 at 8:19 am

    Sometimes I am amazed how little school and our education system seems to prepare us for real life and the responsibilities of being an adult, and not just a worker. But then again, that sense of responsibility is what the homes we grow up in is also to nourish – so we can’t blame the education system for everything that is going on in today’s world.

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  • Elodie Darwish says: September 23, 2017 at 4:54 am

    It is possible to live a life where we are content with all we have been offered. Appreciation of what we bring to ourselves and others is the antidote to everything that comes our way to throw us off track…to better ourselves, to be the best at whatever, to stand out. It’s all designed to distract us from the simplicity and wholeness we already are.

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