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Parenting my First Child – Flying Blind or Creating my Own Road Map

By Nicole Serafin · On November 3, 2017 ·Photography by Leonne Sharkey

Having children, parenting, the whole family equation, was not something I had given a lot of thought to, so when we had our daughter it was very much foreign ground for me. I felt I was either flying blind or treading water, learning as I went along. I soon learned that nothing I read, watched or googled could support me as much as allowing myself to stop and feel what was needed in each moment.

Although being a new mum, stopping was not something that happened often. Life was busy, fitting in being a mum, working, looking after the household and of course taking care of myself. It was often the taking care of myself part that kept creeping up on me: I felt it was really important not to lose myself in being a mother, that I still mattered and was worth taking time for. It seemed to be a trap that I could so easily fall into if I allowed myself, putting everyone else first, leaving what little time that was left for myself to get dressed, shower or eat.

I very quickly realised setting a routine and rhythm for myself supported everyone and everything. That without it my life felt like one big blur, and that there was never enough time to get everything done.

So I kept it simple, picking a time to shower that allowed me the space to do so without rushing, whether that be with my daughter napping, playing quietly after a feed, or even set up on the bathroom floor watching me. It was amazing how much time there actually was if I stopped to feel what was needed, and included myself in the equation.

I learned to become more aware of the quality I was doing things in, not rushing, avoiding the overwhelm and exhaustion, and to observe: was I with myself in that moment as I was doing something or was I already living one step ahead of myself and had already moved onto the next… my mind always thinking, “What’s next?”

By bringing more focus to how I was, and how I was whilst doing things, I was able to see just how much my choices and the way I moved and lived affected our daughter. An “A-HA” moment you could say – that how I was with me impacted on everyone, and everything.

I saw that If I chose to take responsibility for how I moved and the way I did things, then I had the choice to create a day that flowed or not. I allowed myself the space to not always get it right, to be open to and aware of my quality, and if I was present or distracted: was I simply ticking the boxes, or was I feeling what was needed in each moment and moving from that space?

Parenting for me fast became about the quality I lived, how I was with myself, the level of love and care I had towards my body, the routines and rhythms I put in place to support me, and my openness and willingness to be responsible and build consistency with both myself and others.

Our daughter could feel the steadiness that was being lived, and the love and appreciation I was developing for myself supported her to feel held and truly loved. I took the time to stop and feel how I allowed myself the space to eat a meal, to choose clothes and shoes that supported me, and truly accepting and loving myself for the woman I am. Without needing anything from her, my daughter was left to be herself, not having to fulfil any of my expectations, ideals or images I may have had of how I needed her to be for me.

We can so easily get lost in what parenting ‘should’ look like, how our children should be, but we often avoid stopping to feel where we are at, how we are and the quality of ourselves in what we are doing.

We would be wise to remember that children are constantly watching, observing and feeling, even if we think they aren’t, and that no matter how young they may be, they are constantly feeling everything all the time. It is here where our responsibility as a parent begins: it begins with ourselves and self-care, and from this we create our own road map in how to truly parent and support our children.

We are the role models for our future generation, even if we are not parents. If we are not gentle, loving and accepting of ourselves, if we do not allow ourselves to feel how the choices we make impact on our body and everything around us, if we do not live without conditions, ideals, beliefs and images of how we should or our life should be, then how can our children or any child grow up and live who they truly are?

We will not always get it right, and we do not have to – we are human and make mistakes. Taking responsibility for the way we live and the quality in which we are with ourselves is the beginning.

By Nicole Serafin, 45, Woman, Self-employed Salon owner, wife and mother, Tintenbar, NSW

Further Reading:
From reactions and tensions, to harmony within the family
We are all role models
What is a Relationship with Myself?

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Nicole Serafin

Living in Tintenbar with my amazing husband and three beautiful children. Life is simple, uncomplicated and full of magical moments everywhere I look. Birds chirping, kookaburras singing and kids playing outside chasing each other around and around, making me dizzy at times but still glorious to watch. Not a moment goes by where I do not stop to appreciate all that I am, who we are as individuals and how we are together as a family, truly glorious in every way.

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404 Comments

  • Mary says: February 6, 2020 at 4:34 pm

    Reading this
    ‘We are the role models for our future generation, even if we are not parents. If we are not gentle, loving and accepting of ourselves, if we do not allow ourselves to feel how the choices we make impact on our body and everything around us, if we do not live without conditions, ideals, beliefs and images of how we should or our life should be, then how can our children or any child grow up and live who they truly are?’
    I realised I feel this responsibility deeply and agree we are the role models for everyone. That what we say, do and behave affects everyone whether we want to be aware of this or not.
    For example how I am with myself affects how everyone else is with themselves this is a massive interconnected science that we are not taught. And could it be that is why the world is in such disarray because no one is taking responsibility for the way they behave?

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  • Greg Barnes says: December 8, 2019 at 4:51 am

    Our non-imposing quality along with the Loving boundaries we openly Live is and share with each other open our children and everyone else to a deeper way of Living the Truth of our Essences, Inner-most-heart / Soul.

    Reply
  • Mary Adler says: November 10, 2019 at 3:48 pm

    “We are the role models for our future generation, even if we are not parents” It is how we live and care for ourselves that all children are aware of and know what feels true and what does not.

    Reply
  • Greg Barnes says: August 5, 2019 at 5:57 am

    When we feel complete and appreciate what we are doing and have done life delivers a deeper purpose and we are not caught up in the time restraints as you have shared Nicole.

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  • Greg Barnes says: August 3, 2019 at 7:21 pm

    Learning to Truly parent ourselves, so we do not impose on anyone else is our first port of call, as you have shared Nicole. And with our Loving reflection we do not have the need to do anything as others feel where our words are coming from.

    Reply
  • Annoymous says: May 13, 2019 at 5:25 am

    If the world used a true parenting model there would be no war, very little mental illness, and far far better relationships around.

    The current model we have does not work and has never worked

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  • Annoymous says: May 9, 2019 at 1:02 am

    “We can so easily get lost in what parenting ‘should’ look like, how our children should be, but we often avoid stopping to feel where we are at, how we are and the quality of ourselves in what we are doing.” we can get lost in so many things whether it is work, relationships when we don’t stop we can continue on a harmful momentum.

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  • Lorraine says: February 15, 2019 at 9:12 pm

    It is important to know and remember this fact, ‘We would be wise to remember that children are constantly watching, observing and feeling, even if we think they aren’t, and that no matter how young they may be, they are constantly feeling everything all the time.’

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  • Helen Elliott says: November 21, 2018 at 5:07 pm

    In choosing to be responsive to what is needed without pictures of how parenting should be children are free to be themselves rather than feeling an obligation (and often resentment) to fulfil a pre-ordained role. A gift to all as the ripple effect of this way of parenting reflects deep levels of self care and love for everyone.

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  • Caroline Francis says: November 6, 2018 at 4:33 pm

    Society parents the wrong way round. We place our children and their needs before our own which is what I did in the early years of their lives and then wonder why we are left so exhausted or we go to work and feel so guilty for doing so that we shower them with money thinking that is the answer but really trying to cover up how we are feeling. Learning to address what supports me in the moment no doubt is supporting me and my family. Building the love I have for myself means I do not need anything from them to make me feel better and they and others can sense this, a very beautiful way to master with no perfection, to raise a family and be with others.

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    • Lorraine Wellman says: February 15, 2019 at 8:53 pm

      I love what you share in this comment Caroline, very beautiful, and so true.

      Reply
  • Danna Elmalah says: November 5, 2018 at 6:01 am

    Thank you Nicole, this is very wise.

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  • Elizabeth Dolan says: October 16, 2018 at 10:55 pm

    Children love order so having rituals and rhythms really support them.

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    • Nattalija says: October 23, 2018 at 7:55 am

      Like us it brings them the flow that we are all searching for.

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  • Meg says: October 15, 2018 at 3:22 pm

    We are the role models of the future germination – that is so correct. In a world of lies, corruption, violence, abuse and complete disrespect the need for role models who deeply care has never been greater.

    Reply
  • Hm says: October 12, 2018 at 12:15 am

    I’ve just had my second child and I love how it feels like a whole new thing. The second is so different to the first and so needs to be cared for in a very different way. I have to appreciate the rawness I feel to just experiment and not get sucked into any methodologies.

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  • Sam says: September 22, 2018 at 6:00 am

    When I see how little children react and behave there is absolutely no doubt for me that past lives are real, each child has their own personality and come already with so many traits. As a parent its important we read these traits and behaviours for what they are rather then writing them off and ignoring them.

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    • Nattalija says: October 4, 2018 at 10:32 pm

      Our responsibility is to not judge or override what is life lessons for all. There is much power and support in connecting and offering bucket loads of understanding.

      Reply
  • Natalie Hawthorne says: August 25, 2018 at 4:01 pm

    I have been around parents and looked after children from the two different approaches, one that is of what you ‘should be doing’ as a parent and one where the parents are connecting and feeling what is needed in the next moment. The stark difference in how you can bring up children is very interesting but also fundemental to how the child is building it’s life and the foundations that they will stand on.

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  • Sam says: July 22, 2018 at 6:00 am

    “If we are not gentle, loving and accepting of ourselves, if we do not allow ourselves to feel how the choices we make impact on our body and everything around us, if we do not live without conditions, ideals, beliefs and images of how we should or our life should be, then how can our children or any child grow up and live who they truly are?”

    Well said Nicole we need to be truly loving with ourselves to be a real and true inspiration for our children.

    Reply
  • Sam says: July 18, 2018 at 5:02 am

    If only we knew truly clocked how much everything we did effected and impacted on everyone else, we wouldn’t move.

    Reply
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